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Name: Amanda
Birthday: 10/15/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: laughing and snorting on the phown with boost.. going to the Pottery Barn [if ya know what I mean] with Jess, being a PROHO with Allie, having fun in PE with kins n hales ;)
Expertise: being stupid and effed up.. yet still having fun in the process! *bleh*
Message: message me
Member Since:
7/23/2003
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| well i was gonna delete all my entries cause i wanted them gone so u could only see one.. but its taking TOO DAMN LONG! so screw it. lol. here is my new xanga name:
clouded_x_hopes
so no more juicypiratess entries!! | | |
| ABOUT YOU:
[Birth Name]: Amanda Kathleen Alexander
[Nicknames]: Mini, Mandy, Turbo, Manderz
[Age you act]: 14
[Height]: 5’
[Where Do You Live]: Escondido. CA
[Ethnicity]: Mostly Irish, English, Scottish, just your regular white girl 
[Birthplace]: Arcadia CA
[Hidden Talents]: Muwahaha..
HAVE YOU EVER:
[pictured ur crush naked?]: Who hasn't??
[actually seen ur crush naked]: :D
[been in love]: yes
[cried when someone died]: yes
[drank alcohol]: no
[fallen for ur best friend]: Yah :]
[rejected some one]: Muwahaha
[been cheated on]: yah..
[done something u regret]: FUCK YES
[Cheated On A Test]: just the other day
[Walked in on someone changing or showering]: haha yes
[Gone to Church]: yes
[Never slept during a night]: YUP good times
[Thought you were in love]: ..
[Stayed up till 3 am on the phone]: ohh RUSTY! haha
WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX:
[what do u notice first?]: well their face, I mean that's all u can see first.. derr!
[last person u slow danced with]: Jessica @ church! Haha
[worst thing to say]: something about cheating..
[do you have a crush]: yes
[Memory Of The year]: Aaron asking me out.. :] | | |
| Todaaaaay is saturday. I got my nails done! WOOP WOOP! I saw Collin and Tyler at the mall, that was exciting. Umm I'm about to bleach my hair. Fun fun. Nothing too exciting has gone on though. So I'll just tell you when something does.. Bye. | | |
| Woo, I guess first I should tell you about yesturrday! It was SO much fun! school was BLAH as usual! But then I went to church and hung out with Jess and Brenna!!! OMG I LOVE YOU GIRLS! Me and Jessica went to the bathroom.. and looked at our asses [her tiny ass] in the mirror.. and then she found some baby powder.. so being the crazy hoodlum blondes we are got into a powder fight.. it was SO fun! we got powder everywhere and we coudln't breathe!!! SHe is convinced we won.. but she really LOST HARDCORE!!!!!!! Muahahaha. Thank God I have my girlies to cheer me up since I've been so down lately and all hehe. And today after school I walked to the mall with Julie my favorite, Ariel my little lasagna, and Krystyn that gorgeous girlfriend of mine.. and BRANDON!!! AWWWW I got to push him there :) he's soooooo CUTE! teehee. i tried on clothing for boost and she took pics then me jess ashley and julie went 2 cinnabon! chatted a lil then 2 claires then i hadta go!! and now im here.. well about the aaron thing.. i really don't know what to do.. so for right now Im backing off [SORRY KRYSTYN I LOVE YOU BUT I GOTTA :-/] he wants me to anyways, he didn't say it but i mean i know he hates me so u'd want the girl u hated to leave u alone. it blows.. but I just want him happy.. i wanna be his friend eventually.. but I will wait for him for however long i need. it just fucking sucked today in PE cuz I mean I'm always by him, and I always hear him.. and he's always flirting with girls, but he hasn;t changed a bit.. he;s still that wonderful Aaron I've been in love with.. and it's so weird to think we actually dated.. and all. it's crazy! I almost started crying cuz I was so mad at myself for doing this to him.. it isn't right how it is now. And like 4 people have told me that they think me and him would still be together if i hadn't have fucked him over.. gosh that's the worst feeling in the world.. knowing that if YOU hadn't of messed it up, and hurt him, then you'd still be with him.. especially when you love him. it sucks so bad.. And for the first time ever I felt angry at myself.. i've always been like "gee amanda that was dumb" like over little things.. but for this.. i wanted to be someone else and slap me in the face.. thats what i need anyways.. he should kick me in the head.. it'd feel better than the pain i'm feeling right now. haha that sounds so deep i'm cool. anyways! so yah.. melancholy mandy!!!! haha for life man for life! shoot now i got back into my blue mood  well i gotta go.. sniffle.. lata!
-->>the new n improved hooters [so says brenna!] | | |
| Another shitty ass day. What can I say. they ALLLL suck. I talked to Krystyn for like 2 hours on the phone last night, it was chill. She's such a cool girl. I'm glad we are friends now, it was LAAAAME fighting over Rusty. Yah.. sorry about my patehtic little life, I know it surrounds boys.. it shouldn't. Except AAron. FUCK ALL THE RES OF YOU MWA HA HA HA! It sucks peeeenis. I talked to him though today.. you shoulda seen me, i'm such a fuckin pussy. Kinsley tried to make me do it at PE but I couldnt, it's so hard, I'm afraid he is just gunna kill me.. and STUPID FING GIRLS -that won't be named- are backstabbers, I mean they KNOW oh so well how you are in love with a person, and even if he hates you, if you were their friend like u seem to be WH YTHE FUCK WOULD U WANNA GET WITH HIM!?!?!? Honestly, I let anyone do anything they want nowadays, except try to be with AAron.. *Aaron to lazy to press delete anyways he's the one thing in my life that I want no scratch that need. And he isn't mine, but I still love him, and can't have him for another girl. I don't care. I'm selfish. But it's him. I just don't know.. I don't feel like I should give up, something just won't let me.. but then if he hates me like he does.. why should I keep bugging him? I don't wanna make him even madder.. I just.. I need him guys.. And part of me, most of me, doesn't care what it takes to get him, or atleast be his friend I mean Lord!, but part of me just wants to leave him alone cuz it'll make him happier.. Oh and so I don't sound lame I do have friends I talk to about this stuff, haha trust me, I just like writing it down for myself. It helps clear my head. I'm not some internet loser. Ugh, he needs to loose all that I love about him.. which basically means he needs to loose everything in him and become someone different, then I wouldn't have a problem.. but no yes I would cuz then I wouldn't know him!! It fucking sucks ASS, I like was in my room looking at old pics of last year, and I came across one of me and him, that I absolutely love.. and I just thought of how we were.. it was so.. right. I don't get myself.. I wanted that boy all last year, honestly, and I finally get him, and I fuck it up. I mean who does that?! I don't like people like that. I'm surprised I have any friends. Ugh but it doesn't matter, I just want him.. if only as my friend fine, I would be more than happy. This just isn't right. IT'S WRONG. ONly cuz i made it that way with my idiotic self.. but it still isn't.. If anything anything at all.. I want him to know how I feel.. I think it'd make him feel atleast a little better. How BAD i feel. How much I love him. But he prolly won't know, cuz I'm too much of a pussy to go up and say it for fear of what he would do.. Urr I'm so selfish! I'm gunna go beat the shit outta my shitty selfish self after I'm done with this. I really try to talk to him, he's just so perfect.. I'm not even worthy him glancing at.. he deserves some girl that will make him happy.. I just wish it was me.. oh well.. i g2g.. time for the mall.. whoopdie-blahh. Later. | | |
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