Ok, it's Xanga time to talk to myself. 

Pastor Mat is leaving.  Somehow, I feel the burden to blame myself.  I have been serving in the PD board for about a full year.  At the beginning of the year, Pastor Chong left; then, Pastor Gan; now Pastor Mat.   People would think, "Hm...something wrong with the Deacon." 

Yeah, what's wrong with the Deacon?  Let's see!  I got back to church at 8:30am to rake leaves on Monday, did some Bible study after work on Tuesday, attended prayer meeting and empty the trash for church on Wednesday, and talk to myself in Xanga on Thursday...Hm..i have done nothing.  I think I need to do something but what thing?