wow. haven't blogged in xanga for awhile... it's mainly because i don't have internet in my room.. which actually made me more productive coz i never could stalk other ppl's xangas and facebooks and what not..

anyways, been working A LOT... did i make a lot of money, I don't know.. i certainly don't feel like I did, coz my checking account constantly gets close to zero or minus everytime i have some big payment to make.. like car insurance (600 dollars), summer school (don't ask if you're instate), and rent (550)..

i've become so focused on money.. i've become stingy with money, i pick up pennies from the ground.. and i hate bad tippers. or more like, i have no respect for them, and i judge them. badly.

so i've been saving up as much as i can.. i go to the bank every week and make a deposit (of my tips)..

but today i saw this amazing ad about the sidekick id.. and i've been wanting it since months ago... and it said $99 so i clicked on the BUY! button like a crazy person.. but of course, it's not $99 for me, it's $299.. hah

oh, and i'm taking Econ 303 Money and Banking class.. very interesting.. although it's mostly incomprehensible to me.. like the financial jargon is really hard to grasp. but yeah, from that, i learned that i can make money by saving at the bank and earning an interest... (which may not be that much) but STILL! makes me feel richer by the minute.. hehe.. and i check my online banking account as much as possible to see if the number in my account has increased or not... ooOH the excitement when it IS higher...

so that's my rambling of the night.. i should go back to my reading.. i have to read TWo chapters coz i slacked off last weekend.. blah..

oh yeah, there was graduation... which i was supposed to be at and graduate.. but yeah.. my life isn't that simple i guess. i kinda envy those who graduated, but then i'm also relieved that i still get to stay... hmm..

i miss my friends in korea.. i miss jungin unni. i need some sleep.

Major changes.

Two major changes and a few trivial ones.

My dad's leaving tomorrow. He's been posted to Sakhalin, a part of Russia, and the rest of the family is staying, because the place doesn't even have a decent international school for my brother. This has never happened before, our family was always together, no matter where we went (except when I went to college). It's a really weird feeling, I feel lost and sad. In fact, I feel like bawling.  Of course, he's gonna be fine and all.. I guess I just don't like separation ("ee-byul" in korean), in any shape or form. I'm too shy to say this to my dad, but I LOVE MY DADDY

The second major change is that we're moving out of our cute little 3-floor house, into a 4 room apartment. Now that Dad doesn't work here anymore, the government doesn't pay for our rent, so we're out of the house. I don't mind the apartment, in fact it's in the so-called korea town, so I can do alot more stuff there, but I just hate the process of moving. Packing, transporting, unapacking, cleaning, adjusting. ugh.

One small change is that I grew out my nails for the first time in my life... I've been one of those nasty nail-biters, especially when I'm nervous or stressed. I guess all my life I've always been pushed to certain stressful situations.. up until now that is. Now my nails actually look pretty when I paint them.

Another trivial change is that I've gone on to watch another Korean drama, Hwangjini from Joomong. Hwangini is about a Korean geisha who excelled in the arts and dance, and also seduced many many men.... haha. It's very addicting.. I miss desperate housewives tho.. wish I could watch that too..

Wow, I can't believe it's almost the end of February, already.. two months have flown by.. just like that..  I don't know if I want the time to go faster or slower.

My dad bought me a new laptop!

After four years of carrying my ginormous, heavy toshiba laptop that does not even have wireless across the pacific ocean (to and fro china, korea and cville), I've been blessed with a smaller, LIGHTER laptop with wireless and other complicated high-tech functions I have yet to learn about....  

Definitely a day to celebrate.

finally legal

yeah i am finally old enough to drink legally.

of course that is not the most important thing, but it felt gooooood to order that glass of wine, chardonay or whatever it was.

because my days have been soo hectic lately (within the course of one week, i had flown back to the US, moved out of an apt, cleaned my old apartment, moved into new apt, gone to florida, attended numerous meetings for aKDPhi and PAFN, spent time wit loved ones, and school started (not to mention all the shopping that came with it)), i really had no time to anticipate that my 21st birthday was approaching. i was able to understand just how powerful the facebook is, coz all my friends through out my entire life congratulated me.. back in the days when I went to NIST (in BKK, thailand), highschool in kOrea, college, and out of state sisters.

everyone thanks for wishing me a happy birthday. it was unexpectedly really great.

I really wish I could say or do more to show how i much i appreciate it, but i can't. because i'm just not really good at that. but i will try my best to be a humble and geniune friend to you. WILL TRY. =T

To my big and little: i saw your xanga entries. i have the bestest family. <3 and duh of course, my GL. hehe <3

..................

school is going to kill me IF i take the classes i signed up for.

Is taking really hard classes a courageous thing or a stupid thing to do?

Will I be motivated to get a good grade even more and actually LEARN something

 or

will I simply lose interest and fail miserably?

I need a nap to think about that.