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| THIS sucks, i'm totally missing my "friends" everyone is of course out of town for the holiday-and mine was great by the way. I'm so bored right now i could scream, I'm not sure what to do about that at the moment though...mayb I could use some help. Wish my friends were here...what to do what to do | | |
| I have taken the initative. I broke it off with both my "friends" Though i was almost at a loss on how 2 do it with the younger one...i did not want 2 hurt him, as everything tends 2 b blown out of proportion with the young. Afterwards...we chatted 4 a little bit, and he wants 2 remain friends...not a good idea i told him. My sarcasm and other emotions r drawn 2 the surface 2 easily, i know he would say something...which would b some innuendo and i would respond in kind and b 4 i know it i would b back at square one...big mistake i think...so i told him no. | | |
| ok, i've made some choices this last week and have decided 2 ditch my 2 online "friends" i find myself not really missing them when i dont get online and surely that's a sign more than anything that it's time 2 say goodbye. n e way, i think it was more obsession than anything else...4 awhile it was like i was glued 2 my computer screen, i found myself sitting here hours a day and then again 4 a few hours each night...pathetic i know...of course one of the pluses of talking 2 these guys was that it never failed 2 leave me very excited and horny and immediately after clicking off i would go in and wake my husband...lol but he would never suspect the reason i have been ...attacking him more than normal...lol way more. all for now... | | |
| ok, so i've done a few things i'm not exactly proud of, haven't we all? but recently i did something that even though may not sound great it made me feel somewhat proud-or not exactly ashamed. i have an on-line boyfriend-he's new, and i still chat on-line with the other one, but i did stop going in2 chat rooms 2 meet and flirt with men, i figure with those 2 and my husband thats more than enough 4 me, and i am thinking-thinking mind u of getting rid of the first one...the other is so sweet and funny, he makes me much happier than his predecessor. the only thing is he doesnt live in another country like the other guy, he lives a few states away and is even planning on moving here 2 g2college..hmm...havent decided yet if that is a good or bad thing..right now i'm thinking good, cuz i got a couple years 2 think things through, hmm....maybe in that time span i'll realize i would never actually meet someone in person knowing it would lead 2 me actually cheating...if someone would've asked me a year ago i could have honestly said i would never cheat, but now...i couldnt really say, i hope i can resist the temptation-but if i cant resist on-line...i think i'm way 2 easily persuaded...damn, i hate being a follower and not a leader! lol, i think i'm falling in love again | | |
| ok, so bear with me here...it's been awhile since my last post and i really mean awhile..things r going well 4 me. i am still with my husband and still in love with another man..1 who i havent met in person but chat with daily and we use webcams back and forth...i tried 2 stop talking with him, just 4 a few days, but i couldnt make myself do it...after 3 days i was back online and chatting with him. i missed him so much and found myslelf getting depressed and angry when i couldnt talk to him, i didnt know what 2 do with myself, so the way i figure it, 4 now i will just take life as it hits me...if i suddenly have 2 stop chatting with him i will still have my life and pick up where i left off...like most people do. now recently i've found myself getting worse...i go into chat rooms and flirt outrageously with men just 2 do it...and half of em i end up putting on my friend list...terrible i know but what am i 2 do...it puts me on an emotional high, and half the time i'm walking around in a daze... | | |
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