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The Great Dissatisfaction

So, one wonders. When will one be truly satisfied?

I have been feeling that nag of dissatisfaction brewing in me the last 2 weeks. But it's not because there are things other people have that I don't have. And it's not because life isn't good. Life is REALLY good in fact. I can't think of a reason why I should be anything but SATISFIED. Yet, there is this...tug. That I cannot explain. And that I cannot shake. There is more out there perhaps? More to live. More to learn. More to love. Hey...L words.      

 *big sigh*

Days like these...I just want to tape my mouth shut. So that when I don't feel like talking, I have the tape to blame for my anti-social-ness. And when I want to talk too much, I have the tape to stop me. Sometimes...just sometimes...I wonder if I'll make it.

If my mood could be visualised...

Or I could hide behind a gigantic towel....

Still.... I can't help but *wiggly smile*

*thinks of pretty YELLOW flowers*

Wah.....so tired. My heart is full of energy, but the body isn't coping. Signs of *gasp* aging.

The YeLLowMelloW life is a disorganised one. Ever felt so disgusted at yourself for being so all-over-the-place? Yep. That's how I feel. Utterly horrified at myself. It's like staring across a glass pane...you can see what goes on, but can't reach over to help. I dont know wat to do to help myself. Seriously.

And hey...I think my sister is pretty awesome. Was reading her blog and had one of those moments...when u think someone is really interesting and really want to get to know them better. I reckon I've been away from her for so long that I'm actually starting to like her! Heh. It's nice to be able to say 'I would want <name> to be my friend' with your own family. Coz u noe...u don't get a choice with family. But yes...if she wasn't my sister, I would still want to know her. My sister is oober-cool.

Time to make up for the 'memorable tiredness' with a bit of sleep....

*squiggly goodbye wave* 

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