so i think im shutting down the site. i will keep the quotes up for you guys its just to much work, and if you havent noticed my entries have been not there lately. if that makes sense. anyways thank you to all my subscribers and commenters. xanga was fun but i need to retire. much love kids.

i quit.

hiiiiiii. im going to be in maine for the next week.
entry when i come back because i never got my
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<3 love love kids.

i feel like its time for a big entry =]
haven't done one of those in a long time.
im not really happy with the subscribers.

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your hands are on me and i'm pressing hard
against your jeans, your tongue in my mouth.
trying to keep the words from coming out.

and i`m sorry if it didn't quite
work out this time, so you can
deal with your regrets, and i'll
deal with mine, and don`t forget
to call me when you 'make it' & 
for now, i`ll just think what i want ..

how could i know that everything you said
were lies about devotion and desire?
and i know that sparkle inside your eyes
was just the match i used to set myself on fire.

let`s just drink to get drunk, and
tell each other everything .. for a
drunken mind speaks a sober heart

so let's get a little closer now, you say
you say, that we're all tied up and wrapped
around in useless states of mind but at
the same time we're still young.

and i`m ready to turn the page,
forget all these errors and mistakes,
but of course you won't let me, you
love to showcase my inadequacy

i don't understand,
how just the touch of your hand
can make me feel invincible.
do you know just where you take me?
do you know how high you make me?

don't just stand there, say nice things
to me. i've been cheated i've been
wronged, and you, you don't know me,
i can't change. i won`t do anything at all

I'll be living off your phone calls and
your letters and your post cards
Every single word is like a secret wish
come true, who cares if were apart
for the big days since the small ones
made me fall in love with you

nothing is real,
and i want you to know that im not alright.
when you tear open my chest,
i'll try not to flinch. won't make promises
you taught me that.

i'm not a jealous person, i'm just
a girl that would LOVE to punch
every girl in the face that gives you
a second look.

So kiss me hard, cause this will be
the last time that I let you.
You will be back someday &&
that awkward kiss that screams of
others people's lips will be of service
to keeping you away

when everything you wanted,
is hard to hide behind your lies
& i'm locked in my hotel room,
turning over our goodbyes.

i hope to God i mean a little more
then the sounds that escape your tired
4 A.M. lips, & oh how i wish i meant
a little more then a symphony of heavy
breathing and the friction of hips

L.A lights never shine quite as bright
as in the movies. i want to be everything
you need; every sight you see. making
you go crazy

why do you do what you do to me ?
your shaking my confidence, driving me
insane. you know if i could, i'd do
anything for you. please don't ignore me,
cause you know i adore you.

there's poison in the drinking glass,
don't stop just sit down and in a
swirling masquerade of sound; my
body hits the the ground. i look beautiful
when im asleep

get up and walk away.
thats all you've ever been good at.
but dont you dare come running
back. no not this time
cause im sick of crying to keep you here

i've learned that guys make the best friends.
my best friend is a guy and i cant tell him
anything. Oh except for the fact that im
absolutely crazy for him ; i always seem to
leave that part out of the conversation

so don't explain because i know
exactly what your going to say,
big words, recycled phrases &&
the bittersweet taste of other girls
on your lips. so now just sit there and
talk about how you wanted it all 

so now that im listening, i've got
my ear to the wall & my feet are
touching the ground, i`m trying not
to give myself away but my hear
is beating way too loud.

you preach about waiting for love.
well, here it is right in front of you.
& you're going to turn your back on it,
so that makes you a hypocrite

& its days like this when the sun is
shining and all i can think of is your face.
and the place i once loved is the place
i hate. and i can't get you out of my head.
& all i can think of is that night when i would
have given up the world for you. and that
same night when i watched you walk away.

I'm starting to fashion an idea in
my head where I would impress you
with every single word I said.
Would come out insightful, or brave,
or smooth, or charming and you'd
want to call me

credit to all the people who took these photos.
i did not take any of themm <3

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most of the quotes, pretty much all of them are from past
entries because i like them alot =) comment por favor.

new layout, once again =] thanks to all my subscribers
you guys make me keep doing this site. much love.

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my fingers ache from clenching this fist
and my eyes still burn & im pouring my
heart through these telephone wires
i'm getting the notion that you've become tired

'Cause you're a little bit too nice
I look a little bit like hell
'Cause I'm a little overtired 
and I'm a little overwhelmed 
and you're a little bit too late 
and it's a little bit too soon
& I'm a little bit too strange
For somebody like you

Take my hand don't be afraid.
I'm gonna prove every word I say.
"I'm advertising love for free,"
so you can place your ad with me.
^ ha, how cute is that.

so i'll hit the pavement, it's gotta be better
than waiting and pushing you far away cause
i'm scared, so i'll take my chances and head
on my way up there cause turning to you
is like falling in love when you're ten

oh, im just a little like my mom,
i barely get a wink of sleep & i will
never lie to you, and your secrets
i will keep. oh, your just a little
bit like me, think you're a little bit
too smart i'm a little weary, so please
don't break my heart

im a friends addict.

but your taste still lingers on my lips
like i just placed them upon yours
and i starve for you. but this new
diet's liquid, and dulling to the senses
and it's crude but it will do

I wonder what you look
like under your t-shirt.
I wonder what you sound like
when you're not wearing words.
I wonder what we have
when we're not pretending.

they kill people here
who stand up for their rights,
the system's just too damned corrupt
it's always the same
the name of the game
is who do you know higher up

I've never told a lie, and that makes me a liar.
I've never made a bet, but we gamble with desire.
I've never lit a match with intent to start a fire,
but recently the flames are getting out of control.

i missed the exit to your parents' house
hours ago. Red wine and the cigarettes,
hide your bad habits underneath the patio.

and the oceans getting warmer,
and California's on her mind,
Los Angeles is tired, but we
always seem to feel alright

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heyy im back ! =) the haitus is over, i just needed a
little off because this site is alot of workkkk.
thanks for the comments & keep subscribing - k

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phone calls filled with lies
if you could see how
she sees you In her eyes
honestly you don't deserve her.

distant flickering, greener scenery.
this weather's bringing it all back again.
great adventures, faces & conversation
I'm going outside to take it all in.

i've got some deep scars from a little black
heart that's miles away i sent it packing after 
i saw what it did and i couldn't believe
and now my chest hurts from the hole that i dug
it's getting harder to breathe i'm really gasping,
wishing i could turn back
and that would fix everything for once

why did ya have to be so cute?
it's impossible to ignore you,
must you make me laugh so much,
it's bad enough we get along so well.
say goodnight & go

everytime something like this happens
you always make it seem
like i did something wrong

ransom notes keep falling out your mouth
mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut-outs
speak no feeling, no i don't believe you.
you don't care a bit, you don't care a bit

i'm feeling mixed up
a little bit confused
when everything is left unsaid
i'm feeling left out
a little bit concerned
i'll play it out in my head
but i'm still afraid
that you haven't changed

I want a reaction, I want you to do something
about this. I'm tired of wondering if you feel
the same way. I just wish I could tell you how
I feel, to either set the ball in motion, or end
it all right here.

I'm a war of head versus heart,
And it's always this way.
My head is weak, my heart always speaks,
Before I know what it will say.

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