Currently Listening Catch for Us the Foxes By Mewithoutyou January 1979 see related

DANG I love this song...

mmmmmmm.. ...he he...I like big smiles!

well...we meet yet again...do you have any spare change I could barrow?

Friday I slept over at Alex's...we watched flight plan...it's a pretty good movie! it was kind of like the secret window...except...without a bunch of people getting murdered by a psycho...but...well...I duno it was interesting.   then we watched walk the line!  that's a pretty dang sweet movie...it makes me want to be a singer or something...like...the kind that do concerts with like...just themself and their guitar...that'd be fun...doubt it'd happen...but hey there's nothing wrong with dreamin

Saturday...hmmmm....interesting day...or at least night...lol...I'll probably never forget it...it was hilarious! Alex Luke Emily H and I...going crazy...at caribou...at cub...and then after we dropped the *ahem* GIRL off at her casa (a k a house) pointlessly went up to Shannon's house...and then called her and found out she wasn't even there...yeah...smart huh? lol but then we went to the person's house that she was at...for like...15 minutes...then we had to leave to get back to Alex's by 11:30...and Luke came too! what do ya know...sept we stayed up way too freakan late...and didn't really do anything...until we started talkin and stuff...but that was after we were "sleeping" lol...that word often means next to nothing at a sleep over...though I suppose it may different for dem girls...they hafta get their "beauty sleep" right? no jk

Sunday...hm...boring for the most part...church...then got chipotle on the way home...went to bible quizzing...which is excruciatingly boring...partially because I really needed sleep...but...there were a few other reasons too. 

then that night...my family went to Greg Matthews's visitation...wow that guy was cool...I mean I didn't really know him very well at all...but he worked at teen challenge in Cali. which he in fact went through...but he was jut completely living his life for God...he was sold out...he was going to be a pastor too...he could have done such great things for God... but I guess he has something else in the works...though I have to admit it's not easy to believe that God has something better planned than him living...and there were so many people that were affected so much by him...he was always happy...always smiling...always had a good outlook on life...and the funeral this morning...gosh...he was such a great guy...and he had a gf too...poor girl...I can't imagine that...  but it seems like his family is doing fairly well under the circumstances...though I'm sure everything will be hard for them in the next few years to come...please keep them in your prayers

I finished drivers ed!  I'll HOPEFULLY be able to get my permit now...but I'm supposed to have my ss card...which my parents can't find...so I'm guna call the place and see if I can do it with just my #...if not we'll likely have to order one or something...which I REALLY don't want to do...cause I'm sick of waiting...I WANT TO DRIVE...lol...I'll probably be driving my parents crazy this fall before I get my license...especially if I do pseo...DARNET...why was 15 year old PJ so stupid?! and 14 year old PJ for that matter! gosh...IDIOT       oh oh! and today I had a hitting clinic AND a pitching clinic for baseball...and my curve ball is rawkin tha house  it's just about 12-6...sept it doesn't brake QUITE that far...I want to get myself clocked though...I wana know how fast I throw...he he he    oh sept I needa work on my change up...it's too fast...but I'm starting to get it to brake...so that's pretty dang sweet! and...well...I just hope I'll be able to play travel or w/e it is this year...I'm sick of playing house...but the same guy that I'm taking the clinic from will be the judge of the pitching so that should help me a little bit...he he he! but yeah...most of you people wouldn't even understand most of what I just said...but...I guess you'll just ignore that and assume that would actually make sense to some people... oh well...I JUST CAN'T WAIT FOR BASEBALL SEASON TO START!!!! he he he...I love it...so fun...but ok I think that's all fer now...I needa get some sleep...*turns into a hippy* peeaaace duuudde

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Rest In Peace Greg Matthews

Currently Listening Testify By P.O.D. Goodbye For Now see related

well tonight was fun! Alex Luke and I were going to see Emily's play...but it was pretty much sold out...(or so I thought...aparently there was room in the balcony...but it's too late now) so we went to see 16 blocks...that's a GREAT movie...I would recomend it to all of you...it's very well written and well acted.  and it's got action...sorry girls not really a love story...but I think girls would like it too! I really do

I have a prayer request for you guys...my former associate paster who started his own ministy and still is connected to my church...well his son who was 22......who went through teen challenge in LA and was also working there...well on tuesday he was walking down the street and a driver had a diabettic sezure and hit him...and he died on Wednesday I believe...which is...well it really sucks...he had turned his life around not too long ago and was serving God...and I had heard his testimony in december and...well this is pretty much the first time anyone that I've known has died... but I ask everyone to pray for his family and that they would be able to deal with it and that God would give them comfort...thanks all

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I can still see the light at the end of the tunnel shine
through the dark times even when I lose my mind
But it feels like no one in the world is listening
and I can't ever seem to make the right decisions
I walk around in the same haze
I'm still caught in my same ways
I'm losing time in these strange days
but somehow I always know the right things to say

I don't know what time it is
or who is the one to blame for this
Do what I believe what I can't see
And how do you know which way the wind blows
Cause I can feel it all around
I'm lost between the sound
And just when I think I know, there she goes

Goodbye for now
Goodbye for now
So long
Goodbye for now (I'm no the type to say "I told you so")
Goodbye for now
So long (I think the hardest part of holdin on is lettin' it go)
When will we sing a new song
A new song

We’re still smilin' as the day goes by
and how come nobody ever knows the reasons why
Bury you deep so far you can't see
If you're like me who wears a broken heart on your sleeve
Pains is troubles that you know so well
Either time don't
It can't or you just won't tell
I'm not the type to say "I told you so"
I think the hardest part of holding on is lettin' it go
And you can sing until there's no song left (song left)
And I can scream until the world goes deaf (goes deaf)
For every other word left unsaid
You should have took the time to read the sign and see what it meant
In some ways everybody feels alone
So if the burden is mine then I can carry my own
If joy really comes in the morning time
then I'm gonna sit back and wait until the next sunrise

Goodbye for now
Goodbye for now
So long
Goodbye for now (I'm no the type to say "I told you so")
Goodbye for now
So long (I think the hardest part of holdin on is lettin it go)
When will we sing a new song
A new song
When will we sing a new song
A new song

Currently Listening Shadows Are Security By As I Lay Dying The Darkest NIghts see related

ok yeah...today definately isn't sunday...but I doubt any of you were really anxious to here about me anyways...lol

Iowa...hhhmmmm...OUR TEAM GOT 14TH...as you already knew..but I'm still real proud of us  but yes the weekend was fun for the most part...I found out how fun it is to be extremely sarcastic with Jr high girls  but yeah that's pretty much who I hung out with the whole weekend...public school Jr high girls...from aitkin...one of which is on my teem...but other than that I didn't know any of them till this weekend...it was perty fun ya know...sept for the fact that they're Jr highers and...well...the drama factor must enter in once in a while...sadly..but they'll grow out of it.  someday...who knows when that will happen but oh well

today I had tha dentist...not exactly exciting...I got sealants and I had a cavity...the second one in not very long...but what's most retarded is they're not even my fault! I couldn't have even prevented them! they're like on my new molars that aren't quite in all the way and...well it's pretty retarded...I thought of going on strike to show my teeth how I feel about needless cavities that I have no control over...but then I realized that I'd likely have to take off my mouth to do that...which didn't sound to appealing...but yeah it was at 8...which kinda sucked even more...and then my mom had to have stuff done after me...so we ended up not getting home till 11...and I sat in the waiting room thingy for like 2 hours...luckily they don't have ALL boring magazines there...I'm still trying to figure out why anybody cares about "what happened to nick and Jessica?" and "britny spending time with her baby" and "the sexiest man alive" and "who America thinks is hottest" GAH...WHO THAT CRAP CARES...they're people just like you and me...they're just really really ridiculously good looking and (some of them) can act!...or try to sing...but why does that give us a reason to like obsess over every freaking part of their lives...? like seriously!...I don't get it...

oh oh oh! howie day was on the radio though!...and that pretty much made it all better  it got me thinking and remember when I first heard collide and loved it...*sigh* the good ol days...even though things didn't seem that great then...they truly were awesome...but oh well I guess there's better days ahead...ok well I gotta go to church now so dat's all folks!

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All that you thought you'd never have
You hold in your hands
All that you thought you'd never love
Is right here above you
It's cruel

All that you thought would disappear
Is waiting right here
And all that you hold deep in your soul
Can never be sold

For all we know, these days are all numbered,
But things could get better I know,
Cause I'll be the first and the last one to go,
Lord it's a cruel, cruel world
For all we know,
These days are all numbered
And things will get better I hope,
Cause I'll be the first and the last one to go,
Lord it's a cruel, cruel world without love

It's a cruel, cruel world without love

well Iowa was fun for the most part...it's kinda funny...I hung out with mostly public school jr high girls...which...well...nvm anyways! our teem got 14th out of 33! GO MASADA which is pretty dang good for the rank of teem we should be... but right now I'm about to leave...Alex just got here and I'm guna sleep over at his house...I'll post tomorrow about it more...adios!

Currently Listening Never Take Friendship Personal By Anberlin Dance, Dance, Christa Paffgen see related

I should be in bed...I should've been a long time ago...but I feel like posting...so I'm guna do that! (as you can see) buuuuuuuuut anyway...Wednesday...yg was good! other than a sprained my pinky...which kinda sucks cause I really needa get in shape for baseball...and it's kinda hard to throw without a pinky...or...more like painful for my pinky...BUT anyway...Thursday...drivers ed...that's just about all...lol it's surprisingly un boring...but that's just cause my drivers ed is just so much more superior...muahaha! it's cool...the class and videos only take like 1:30-2 hours...and you have to be there for 3 hours...so we basicaly just hang around and talk and shtuff...lol...I laugh at how preppy wayzata is...it's honestly like...hilarious...(no offense to you wayzata people) BUUUUT...today...er..yesterday...(Friday) I did nothing but school and studying for quizzing today...(which I'm kinda dredding) and then hung out with Alex for like an hour and a half until 11...caribou is amazing...I'm totally thinking I should work there... but yeah...nationals and everything is coming up...and I'm guna have to study a ton...and it's guna be hard with baseball and drivers ed going on at the same time...not to mention the all mighty school...*barfs* and not to mention trying to figure out what I'm guna do for school next year...high school...homeschool...pseo...GOSH there's just so many options! it's cawazy! and like...I don't know if I can handle all the work of pseo...and maybe I'll do a sem of one and a sem of another...who knows! (sept God)

but I'm kinda dreading nationals and everything...somehow it seems I'll get stuck by myself with no one to hang out with...I wish Luke were going...that would fix everything...and honestly I don't know if I'll be able to handle all the homeschoolers...it's hard enough to do it with the normal league...but now there's going to be extra nerdy and bubbled homeschoolers...and those people frustrate me...mainly just cause they're so sheltered and apart from the world...it's like omish people with electricity...and I mean what kind of witness is that? they're taking "in the world and not of it" too far...it doesn't mean be in the world but just have your own perfect little world where the rest of the world is screwed up...it means to not allow yourself to be swayed but to be IN the world...just not adopt the worlds morals (or lack there of) and to at least attempt to change the world...the homeschool community is pretty much the definition of "holier than thou" I mean so many of the parents are just like "if they go to public school they'll come back smoking pot and without their virginity!" they protect their kids way too much...and pretty much brain wash them...and then they end up going to a university or something like that and are just overwhelmed and give in...they don't know how to stand up to peer pressure...and the only way they can learn how to is to be exposed to it and be tempted and pressured to do something they know is wrong...steel must go through fire and brimstone in order to get it's strength...something people don't seem to understand...you have to let your kids make mistakes in order for them to know why not to make them...if they don't have first hand experience in how doing stuff their not supposed to effects them...they will much more easily give into temptation...why can't homeschoolers realize that we need to take the offensive...not the defensive...go out and change the world...don't try to stop the world from changing you! yes the world may be screwed up...but making your kids feel that it's all fine and dandy if you mind your own business just doesn't work...but...GAH it's just so frustrating...what do you think the world thinks of Christianity when it sees all the nerdy homeschoolers?...but I really needa go to bed...and I think I'm done venting...but fyi this isn't meant towards any person and...all homeschoolers aren't that bad...but anyway goodnight

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I've been here before, It's all I've ever known
Looking for the face I am
Where do I go? All that's in my sight
Are darkened dreams of empty lies
Hope is there it's waiting it is real
You are only what you want to feel
I can see your eyes and they are asking

We're a new hope generation
We can see the wasted lives in your faces
But we can see Messiah rise in these places
until the tears are gone

I've seen you before, you're always on your face
Trying to find the traces left
Hungry and tired, waiting for your needs
Just hold him close he won't ever let you go

Hope is there it's waiting it is real

We're a new hope generation
We can see the wasted lives in your faces
But we can see Messiah rise in these places
until the tears are gone

Open arms let your spirit pour

Here's the call to anybody at all who's ever had
The rise right after a fall
It's revolutional when we come like this
They can't believe we're living represenatives
It gives light unto the Gen. X and Y, resolution
With no generic reply
I stand aside a genre that's on a tear
Broken chains explain that we almost there

We're a new hope generation
We can see the wasted lives in your faces
But we can see Messiah rise in these places
until the tears are gone

You think I will throw away
But I don't care what you say
Cause the one you push aside, will rule you one day
you can not divide a unified youth nation
So where's my anointed now generation