| Just when i think i have learned soo much... im starting to think that maybe i really havent learned that much.
You can think you changed and learned so much, but you will never really be sure until you are put back in a challenging situation, one completely different from before. Sometimes i wish i can take a remote control and fast forward my life 5 yrs and see what im up to. maybe it will make the present much more easier so i could stop worrying if i am doing the right thing or not. hmmm so emo i can be sometimes.
on a lighter note. i started working as a waitress at ABE jap restaurant... hahah quite an experience. im glad i chose to work. I never had a real job so i feel really independent with this job. my mom is making me give her all my paychecks tho, but i dont mind. i owe it to her fo sho! my co workers are amazing.. it really makes work much more enjoyable.. I love meeting new people and hearing their stories it really gives me a different perspective, sometimes they really inspire me to work hard.. i guess ive been meeting a lot of inspiring people these days.
i feel like something is pulling me ...towards something other than what i am doing right now.... but i dunno what!!! its a weird feeling... i hope God will make it clear to me soon.
oh! and i heard pan's labyrinthe won some oscars... = D i highly recommend this movie. playing at edwards by trader joes for irvine peeps.
goodnite!
|
| |
| IM BURNIN UP!!!
I think half of each quarter here at UCI i have been sick.
so here i am at research... uh haha i gtg to the bathroom bye
|
| |
| well. this week was great. Monday i got to see vanessa ( my lil mentee girl!). I took her to barnes and nobles. We listened to music and read books. haha i had a fever that day so i fell asleep on the floor next to her while she was reading, i felt like i reached a new comfort level with her which is a wonderful feeling. = ]
I've been going to research quite often these days, but i love to go. I know oncology is my interest, but mannnn i get so discouraged!. its so hard to become an oncologist!! I realized i spend almost 25 hours a week doing volunteer work, plus school. AND my parents are making me get a job. Im pretty busy, as i try to spend time with my loved ones. wow i feel like im on maximum heat. uh i hope that makes sense , but watever i just feel like that.
change isn't necessarily bad... it can be difficult and could take a long time to adjust but I've been experiencing the sweetness of change. I like how people react to me these days "jane is that you!" last yr. all i did was study and lock myself up in study centers. so unhealthy . haha but now its the opposite. i think im having too much fun . sooooo yes! i need to find a good balance.
either way. i trust God, i should stop worrying so much about the future and worry more about today. peace out
|
| |
| i really wanted to write an entry tongiht but im so tired. check tomorrow =)
|
| |
| i really wanted to write an entry tongiht but im so tired. check tomorrow =)
|
| |
