hey xang. how's about an update?

i love my dad

i'm afraid of leaving for college

i love my sugs.

i can't wait for pick-up hockey games down at my lake.

i can't WAIT for snow.

a little bit of love.

i love EVERYTHING.

* most of these beautiful pictures were provided by the everlasting xanga site of miss cvd whom i miss and love. mad props to my curr.

haha. xanga changes every time i log onto it. i think that's funny. alright, well are you ready for my random monthly ramblings? ...no,  i didn't ask if you wanted to hear them, i just asked if you're ready to hear them. well, ready or not, cause here they come!

let's get this party STARTED!

haha i'm not gonna lie. i just like playing around with the different fonts.

hmm...not this one...

ha! you wish.

nope.

alright. let's get serious here.

DING DING DING! we have a winner.

and i lied. i like this font better.

well, it's HOMECOMING WEEK!!!

*last night was coronation and our 2006 homecoming king and queen are haaris pasha and lynn suemitsu! haha it was really akward when they were crowed though because they had pasha push lynn on this 'magic carpet' but it really didn't go so smoothly. but anyways that was a good time. i was part of the singing people for coronation and i had to wear my hc dress from last year. what whaaaat?! haha so the singing order went emily + jenny (two juniors that sang 'for good' from wicked) then miss LAURIE SCHULTZ (who did AMAZING might i add) sang 'heaven' by mariah carey. then ALAN BACH sang 'you and me' by lifehouse while playing the piano to it that little musical genius! he did amazing as usual. then i sang hahaha. and it was actually really fun. i was nervous but got over it when the crowd started clapping along with the music. i was nervous cause i choose to sing 'i wanna dance with somebody' by whitney houston which is a totally upbeat song that didnt fit with the rest of the slow songs but it turned out ok. i like performing. it makes me smile  thenn megan and sarah ended it with a fabulous singing of 'unchained melodies!' it was a good coronation.

well. powder puff is tonight but im not going cause xc runners arent allowed to play during the season. but im okay with that. i want to SLEEP tonight instead!

oh yeah i should probably mention that i got asked to homecoming by nick hutton and sierra is going with mike hutton. hahaha it's kinda funny how that worked out dontcha think?  but im excited. our group is me+nick, sierra+mike, sean dougherty+alyssa schmidt, sean kgler (better known as LEGS)+katy soliday, annie tabone+tim knutson (better known as K-NUTS hahah) then some other people i cant remember/dont know?? but anyways it will be fun. pictures are at tims and so is the after party hahah. so yeah. still havent ordered the boutiner or whatever and the coursage so i should probably get on that. LIKE TOMORROW. but other than that, things should go smoothly. well. enoughs enough!

till next time---LATER KIDDOS!

haha. this font is called the 'beesknees' and that's funny.

so, sadly, i don't update my xanga enough (stratch that...more like never) i will try and work on that. i like listing random thoughts. when i look back on them, it's cool. so, that is what i will do. starting...now!

* i am supposed to be in bed in two minutes.

* i don't think i will make it in time.

* after today, i'm not sure if i like the person i'm becoming but i don't know what to do about it

* i am seriously considering doing something i may regret in the long run

* speaking of the long run, it better come soon and start paying off.

* oh yeah, i'm sick along with everyone else in av.

* so pretty sure weekend meets RUIN weekends.

* and i need to get more responsible.

* and i need to find out where i'm going to college so i can rest in peace.

* on the flip side, i got a yellow t-shirt today. it's nice.

* right now sierra is the only one i can talk to about anything and everything. i thank her for that.

* i miss my cvd. she's in ohio right now but i'm going to call her tomorrow.

* i need a job because i need money. not because i want a job.

* i want to laugh more often.

* homecoming is coming up...no news yet.

* but i do have 4 people that i want to go with.

* do they know? probably not.

* so, our football team has won 2 games in a row. are we good or just plain lucky? i guess we'll wait and see.

* cross country is not doing as well as we hoped.

* we better step it up if we want to make it to state.

* scratch that, i better step it up if i want to make it to state.

* tomorrow i'm not going to hangout with anyone. it will be a strictly business day only. i need to get a lot done.

* i wish i was in the steam shower.

* there was a funny news segment on mtv tonight.

* they had funny stories about catching catfish, wakeboard bxming, cheese rolling championships and the 2nd strongest man in the world. i liked it.

*  speaking of news stories, our broadcast journalism class has named itself the "EAGLEYE TV" program with our stories being called 'EAGLE EYE on-the-fly" it's fun. i can't wait to start filming.

* spencer and i might try out for coronation. we probably won't make it, since we just decided to try out today and auditions are wednesday, but it would be cool if we did.

* i'm thinking i should have tried out for chamber singers.

* and american idol. but maybe next year.

* next year, i wish it would come sooner.

* i need to learn to ENJOY.

* sierra and i act like boys. but it's ok? haha

* abby hutchenson is a genuinely nice person. i look up to her for that.

* carrie van dusen has great morals and advice. she also knows how to have fun. i miss her for that.

* abby dare knows how to make people happy and laugh. i envy her for that!

* so, i act like a 7th grader according to someone in peticular. and to them, it's a bad thing.

* i just want to say, i'm sorry. i'm trying my best. please, keep your degrading comments about me to yourself.

* the girls on the xc team are very supportive and nice. i like them a lot.

* i need to think nice thoughts about myself and other people...ALL THE TIME.

* my cousin got married yesterday. she looked beautiful.

* she and her husband waited until marriage. i respect them for that.

* i sang at the wedding. i think i may have made my dad cry.

* i like the person my little cousin sam is becoming.

* i am truly happy when i'm singing. i wonder if it's a sign.

* everyone always says to do what you love, well, singing solos is my passion but i'm not doing it.

* instead i am (wasting?) all my time with sports, and lately it has been causing me nothing but sadness.

* tomorrow i am going to take a leap in faith and start following my singing dreams. i hope i'll find whatever it is i'm looking for.

* i'm now 34 minutes over my bedtime.

* my throat is starting to burn again.

* it's really hot in my house. i only sleep well when it's cool.

* i need to expand my friend group again.

* which means getting out of my comfort zone. oh, great.

* tomorrow is a new day. i'm going to going into it with a new positive attitude. i am the one who decides my future and no one else. i think it's about time i've learned that.

* i am looking forward to my pillow