japanadian14's Xanga

Saturday, June 28, 2008

Sat, 28 Jun 2008 11:42:59 GMT

this song makes me really happy. i like to listen to it wheneverrrr i can haha obsessed much?
my next video, whatever it is WILLL have this song

ugh. summer is like almost halfway over =[[[[
i have no muchhh homework i still have to do.
this review packet of bio i need to do. and its not even a review! its something like i learned in Theory of Knowledge. they give me a word ive never heard of and then a page about that one word. and after u read it, they ask, so what is the definition of the word? and you cant even say becuase its nonsense after nonsense after nonsense naamean? booo
but i started my psychology summer work and thats been interesting im just too lazy
ANNND MY EXTENDED ESSAY!
gosh i swear i will pay anyone to do that. im 3,500 words behind ugh

hi

Wed, 04 Jun 2008 22:58:41 GMT

I DON'T LOVE YOU,
i'm just passing the time.

Thursday, May 29, 2008

Thu, 29 May 2008 01:08:11 GMT

she has the eyes of innocence;
the face of an angel;
the personality of a dreamer;
and a smile that hides more pain
than you could ever imagine.
---------------------------------------------
so if you hide it. then it disapears.

life is good
god is good

i now understand.

i.feel.different.

Thu, 01 May 2008 16:09:04 GMT

sorry
so so so sorry
.
i almost forgot.
that fact that i almost did.
makes me an unworthy person who once had your love.

i just want to forget everything
is that bad?
to forget you so that i can remove the memories youve left me with?
the fact that you waited for me to get home
so i can witness your last breath?
that day, i truly knew what pain felt like.
i miss you. sooo much.
5.1.2001.
lets join our hands friends of the earth
together we shall be
searching for our own true life
with hope and unity

Heavenly Father,

Mon, 24 Mar 2008 16:04:15 GMT

help us remember that the jerk who cut us off in
traffic last night is a single mother who worked nine hours that day
and is rushing home to cook dinner, help with homework, do the laundry
and spend a few precious moments with her children. Help us to remember
that the pierced, tattooed, disinterested young man who can't make change
correctly is a worried 19-year-old college student, balancing his
apprehension over final exams with his fear of not getting his student
loans for next semester. Remind us, Lord, that the scary looking bum,
begging for money in the same spot every day is a slave to addictions
that we can only imagine in our worst nightmares. Help us to remember
that the old couple walking annoyingly slow through the store aisles
and blocking our shopping progress are savoring this moment, knowing
that, based on the biopsy report she got back last week, this will be
the last year that they go shopping together. Heavenly Father, remind
us each day that, of all the gifts you give us, the greatest gift is love.
It is not enough to share that love with those we hold dear. Open our
hearts not to just those who are close to us, but to all humanity. Let
us be slow to judge and quick to love.

p.s...
i finally log into this thing to find the xanga layout tottallllygay and it took me like 30 min to find how to make a new entry boooo
this is what i get for using myspace and you using faceboook =[

if you dont give a damn i dont give a fuck.

Tue, 05 Feb 2008 20:53:43 GMT

gosh dont you hate it when people are alll in your businessssss!??!?!! ugh seriously. i left one comment to my friend about a trip i went on and say how i wish it snowed while i was there so i was dissappointed. then other people have to go reading those comments and automatically interpret it wrongly. ive gotten at least 4 people come up to me saying 'so we're not worth your bus ride up here are we?" ughhh so stupid! STOP BEING SO NOSY! its getting on my nerves because it was at least 3 months ago and someone just asked me that again today. do they not have alife so they start drama? or they read other peoples comments?! seriously come on now.

i just dont care after this. the last person that asked me i said 'yep ok sure i said that' im done trying to get things straight because clearly their trying to make it a bigger situation. so stupid

Saturday, December 01, 2007

Sat, 01 Dec 2007 23:31:12 GMT

Why are people just now noticing? i willll not let down the shield.
i hope i dont.

yayyyy in 20 days im going to marryllandddd HOLLLER
---------------------------------------------------
I knew you cared when:
1.i used to wake up in the middle of the night crying with a cramp in my leg and you stayed up all night massaging it until i fell alseep.
2.you fell down hard becuase you didnt want to turn on the lights to wake me up( i was secretly awake) and you were just lying there in pain and i was too scared to move so i cried silently until my dad came down later. and you forgave me for it.
3.you spoil the shit out of me(and you still do)
4.you risked getting shot to save my life.
5. you found out how upset i was when you started smoking so you quit.
6.you told me your secrets, and i told you mine. they were similar!
7. you were the only one that can cheer me up.

to be continued..

Thursday, October 04, 2007

Thu, 04 Oct 2007 08:41:32 GMT

now thats fucked up.
rest in peace mrs. harbour.
give your condolences to her son and husband.
that was pretty shitty of you to take her life away god

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

Wed, 22 Aug 2007 21:34:05 GMT

look at the stars look how they shine for you with everything you do.

god damn there are far too many deaths in my church. how fucked up is it knowing your going to die within a certain time, leaving behind a great husband and a son who's just beginning his high school days. my heart goes out to you for the time your still on this earth and even while your in spiritworld. <3

------------------------

i will not be vulnerable.

Saturday, August 11, 2007

Sat, 11 Aug 2007 19:11:14 GMT

UGH
summer is over!
as of now, its just another weekend.
school starts monday
someone shoot me please.

this year is going to go by slow
i think im going to lose some friends, my choice
i think i can do better without them anyways

ugh my stupid self joined the IB Program again
i dropped out the first time but this time theres
no more turning back becuase IB classes start
junior year. ahhhh one more year closer to
GRADUATING

new photoshopped. man i have no life.
theres more photoshop stuff under a blog in my myspace

mm or not?