Three months already. I had to look at the calender to believe it. You'd be suprised how fast time flies by here at UND. It's already November, and it seems like just last week that you me and Chase were swimming at the barn. I remember driving around in the golf cart talking about our evil plan for the park board. It was a good plan and yes it would have worked. It's weird to think that you only had one more week left here. It's a idea that is hard to accept.

It's really starting to get cold up here, and pretty soon the snow will be flying. I remember how you wanted to get a snowmobile and how we planned on going to my grandparents some weekend and sled there. If I go I know you'll still be there with me.

Things seem to be getting back to the way they used to be but in no way will they ever be the same. I miss you man.

Two months have gone by already. I remember this night two months ago, everyone waiting to get word of what happened to you Mike. We were all over at Chase's sitting in his basement waiting, that's all we could do was sit there and wait. Then later that night at like 9pm Steve called Chase. Our worst fears had come true. At first it was just surreal, it couldn't possibly have happened to you, that stuff doesn't happen to your friends, it happens to other people you don't know. There were like 15 of us over at Chase's and all we could do is cry. You meant a lot to so many people.

Sometimes while I'm sitting here on campus I wonder what things would have been like if you were still here. I have no doubt things would be much different than they are now. I think about what it'd be like for me to be walking to my next class and see you, or go up and visit Dana and you'd be there. Everything was going so well, we were all so excited to be going off to college. I wonder if somtimes I could have done something different and you'd probably be here. I know a lot of people think the same thing. We had some of the best times last summer, I think of new memories all the time. It just bothers me that all that I have left of you is a picture on my desk. Even when I'm an old man I'll still have that picture, and people will ask who that is and I'll proudly tell them all about you, and how great a friend you were to so many.  

I think the quote that's up on Dana's whiteboard says it best:

"And heaven will bless those stars that shine not the longest, but those that shine the brightest."

One month. August 6th. One month ago I was sitting here chattin it up online. Just got my wisdom teeth out that morning. Then at 5:23pm everything changed. Dana called me and told me that he had heard Mike was in a serious car accident and was in critical condition. I first thought it was some sick joke, but no it wasn't.

Time has gone by so fast. August 7th then the 13th then starting school on the 24th. So much as happened. As with all things, time heals. Things have gotten better but there isn't a day that goes by that I don't do something that reminds me of him.

Once again dude thanks for the memories.

Well my first week of college is done. It's crazy to think that i'm done with high school. I really miss being with everyone, but I guess that's the way it is and I'm sure there's lots of other great people out there. It's been tough not having Mike up here at UND. When I came there last friday and went to visit Dana they still had Mike's name up on the door. It just seems like someday I'm gonna go up there and he's going to be there. I can still remember back to the morning of august 6th when I was getting my wisdom teeth out. The only worries I had were getting my teeth pulled. I can still remember just sitting in the chair and looking out the window, and having no worries except the operation. When I woke up from the anesthesia I was completely out of it and still had a thing of gauze in my mouth. I was in a dark room waiting. I grabbed my phone out of my pocket and who was the first person I decided to call, Mike. I had no idea what I was doing but when I called him I expected him to pick up, but instead I got Steve, it really was a funny convo because I had no idea what I said. I then called like 3 other people before the nurse took my phone away. It's just weird to think of how things were before and how they are now. It's like everything changed, and nothing is the same and never will be the same again.

I was over at the Keller's tonight with everyone for one last time before we all go off to college again and Fowler was having a pretty tough time. All we were doing was sitting there and dialing Mike's voicemail, it's weird hearing his voice. It seems like he should just be there. I just don't get it. I just can't except that I'm not going to see him again, but I know that I have to. It's also hard to believe that everything just has to go on. When it happened it was like everything in my life stopped, basically the whole world around me stopped. Now I have to go on without Mike and it's just not right and not fair. We were gonna have so many good times at UND. It's just not the same with you man! Then there are times when I feel like someone is in the room when no one is. I really think that he's there. I know he is. Mike may be gone but I know he is watching over all of his family and friends. Sometimes like now I sit and talk to him like he's here just chillin here in my room. I know it may be kinda weird but I know he can hear me. For all I know you can read all these xanga posts. Well bud all your friends and family miss you, and keep an eye on us!

Jared