Well oh my it has been a long while since I wrote anything in here, so here it goes.

I just had the shittiest day possible. I woke up and thought everything was goin to be on and that I was gonna have a great day....Not Happening. I wake up to a text message on my phone and a voicemail message left by two different friends of mine, tellin me that one of the band directors we all had in High School just passed away.....BLAH. talk about tearing my life to shreds in one moment.

Now I know that while I was in High School, I hated on the guy a lot, but that was normal teenager shit. After I spent five years in the band, one extra for all my goofin off my senior year, I had the thought of helpin out for two more additional years. In those two years, I had the pleasure of eattin with all the directors during the dinners of Band Camp week. Those five nights, I found out the this director was not who I had marginally thought. He was actually a great man. One that was as funny as could be. The name picked on some students yes, but it was all in fun. His joke my have been old or stupid, but they were still funny, and we all laughed.

The Man will live on in all the memories of the student's live he touch. The lessons he taught us will not be forgotten. The music he helped up learn and March too, will always play in our minds, and whenever we hear them, we will always think of him. He taught me to play the guitar, now he teaches the Angels in heaven to play them. He was one of gods greats teaches and musician, and his legacy will always be a part of everyone close to him, or even met him once.

Mr. Wampler, Wamp, or Wamp-dog as some referred to him, you touched us all in so many ways, and all that will not be forgotten. You May be gone from this world, but your legacy, your dream, your love of music, ill always be with us. No one could ever replace you at McCaskey, and we will surely miss you with all our hearts.

This Entry is dedicated to Mr. Sean Wampler. A great man,teacher, musician, and friend to all.

well its been a while all, but I think its time to type a loverly new entry that will prolly be ignored by all as normal.

We all walk along this path we call life. With some taking the short road and yet others taking the long road. No matter which one they choose, its still a pain in everyone's ass. The stress, the confusion, the pain, and the multiple other problems that take part in ppls live. We all have them. some just choose to ignore them all together. Others ignore than til it really bits them in the ass. and lastly there are the ppl who let it run there lives, from the moment they wake up, to the moment the go to bed that night, continuing it day in and day out. But why, why must we all have to deal with it all. why can't life just be a little simple on us. If all these complication were to just disappear, we would all be better off and the world would start to become a greater place to live. So I ask, why must we all deal with all the stress, confusion, pain, suffering and everything else.

To all reading this and asking yourselves, " what the hell is he talking about?" My answer to you is keeping asking yourselves that because I don't really know. Its 4 in the morning and I have school in like 7 hours and can't sleep, so I'm just typing whatever pops into my head. don't like it, don't read it.

ok well what really brought me to all this thought in my head, is the fact that I have been confused about something lately. I've been dating this really nice person for a while. Althoughtwhen we first started dating, there were two other ppl in s relationship with her besides me, i was understanding to her reason and didn't say anything about it. Now I am the only one she is seeing as far as I know. So if I am the only one why am I confused you ask. well its because of things she does or says that get me thinking. She constantly says that she isn't ready for committment and thats ok, i'm not completely ready for the whole thing either, but i do was a more serious relationship. So with her sayin this all the time, it leads me to believe, that if she hasn't already found someone else to date while dating me, she is lookin to date more than just me. Didn't bother me before, no, but now that i'm the only one she is dating i'd like it to be that way, so we can at least see. if it doesn't work than it doesn't work. thats the point of dating. Another thing that is confusing me about the whole thing is that one night,  I can hold her, put my arms around her, and kiss her, and the next night its like she doesn't want me to touch her at all and I don't get to give or recieve a kiss. Most of the time when this happens its all who we are around, and i feel this to be wrong. The ppl we have been around when she doesn't kiss me and all that other stuff are her friends, who know we are "dating," if thats what you can really call this.

Well i think i'm gonna end it here because i don't wanna talk about it anymore, so til next time. ~Jeremy~