oh right.

and my senior portrait.

oh blah. this weather is so gloomy >.< makes me feel gloomy too. boohoo

last night, jacque finally took her senior pix. look at this hot chick. ;) my artwork.

hmm, been lookin for my book I Married You, can't seem to find it any where. did i happen to lend it out to someone or something? does anyone know? haha, i have such a horrid memory. o well. guess i'll just keep looking. i really can't get enough sleep, haha, but i can only blame it on myself :d prOcraStinAtOr, oh yes!

i don't see a point on ranting online anymore. it's just so time consuming. lol. i find myself watching more comcastic television than anything else -.-' har har har

anyway, frcc's been going pretty well. it's nice to catch up with old buddies :D i <3 dem. sometimes, after frcc, i go to hoc to visit and eat lunch. hehe...it seems like i've always been there and never left. mmm, i need a job. hehe. choir's going to hawaii this year. im going to need a miracle to come up with $1550 by spring. the first down payment is this friday for $150. by selling candy, i think i should be able to come up with that much by friday. I was thinking, if God wants me to go to Hawaii, then He will help me, somehow, get that $150 by friday. and all the other payments as well. That i don't need to worry and that I can depend on him as long as i try my best myself as well. it's kinda like with college apps. mebbe that's why i don't feel worried about them. YeSh. I love my God. =)

okay. enough. gotta write a response to oedipus rex. what a disturbing play. hmm...maybe i can do that tomorrow along with my math hw. yeah. tonight, i'll probably just focus on studying for physics and....resting...teehe. and looking at stocks...i wonder which other stocks are good to buy ;D anyone have any advice? oh yes, and study for econ quiz friday, math project due thursday, book review due friday. sigh. all in a week. im so not looking foward to the end of october and november. pooh. i just want break. a looooooonnnggggg break from school. i miss my mom. i should really mail her a letter. im afraid i never make enough time to do things i need to accomplish. anyone want to read over my college apps before i send them in? i think i'm going to do early decision with NYU. mhm, i'd better get my stuff done soon!! good luck to me.

=] smile, don't take today for granted, have no regrets at the end of the day. have a great week!

welome me back

wow. it's been almost a year since i've written in my xanga. i wonder if anyone still actually reads this stuff other than myspace and facebook. lol. let's see...what's new since nov. 2005...

so senior year right? it's not as relaxing as i hoped it would be. especially not now. with sats and apps coming along...everything seems in jumbles and i duno, im just overwhelmed in it. but hey, im happy i have good teachers other than one...-.- choir's going to hawaii this year. seems exciting, but far away. i can't believe this year's just passing me by so fast. almost 18 and yet, i don't feel any different. still black and grey. =) looking back on my entries i realize i have changed in just one year. i don't think i'm as energetic as before...i think im growing old. lol. i miss a lot of the seniors. it feels strange to suddenly be a senior, b/c now we're the oldest. and yeah...just very odd and out of place. well, im glad that i still have the friends that i had from so long ago. it's nice to see how far we've come. from elementary to middle school to being a freshman to now, our last year in high school. soon we'll just be leaving this home, community, this comfort zone that we've built around us to finally be independent and live life on our own. i'm pretty excited about that. yeay college. as far away from home as possible. i think nyu will be my top priority. hope i get it? =D but my sat scores might make it harder. pooh. teehe. sats this sat. good luck to me! i really want to get all this sats over with. mhm.

yep. oh, and also changing to FRCC now. going to miss ppl from hoc. but hey, i can adapt almost anywhere. keep the youth growing at hoc! it's really a great change, very inspiring. mmmm...tired of driving already ;D gas finally went down. mebbe cuz they know they're being shady trying to raise the prices before. humph. in love with korean songs...especially rain. i never want to see what he looks like...it might ruin my impression of his awesome voice ;D haha. mm. oh, and yes. cantaloupe.

And so my week went by

Too fast for me to take it ably

Within sadly, slowly I will die

Slipping away from human eye

I stand, invisible, going awry

In your mind, belie am I

Acting like some cute bow tie

Dejected, I look into the sky

Far, far away I long to fly

To find a place for me to cry

So hereby, I give a quiet sigh

Yearning, acting so very wry

For the logical reason behind this lie

Reality neglects my knotted tie

Hopelessly I start to say good-bye

wow. one more year to freedom! haha! anyway, got tons of homework....have to clean the bathroom later...and i'm a bit sick...bleagh. what a way to spend a bd huh? haha, but o well!

happy halloween peeps! act like an asian and get some free candy!! =d