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I want to leave my life
for just a week or two
spend some time alone
maybe think about you

I tried to tell you
just how I felt
My words were true
but they levt me confused
no smile on your face
but you sure seemed amused

so why couln't you just say no
why couldn't I just let yo go
so I"m goin to drive so fast
I'll just forget
the hurt that's past...
I'll just throw it
out the window, watch it fly
watch me fly away

after I leave,
I may not come back
though it's hard to run away
with nowhere to run to
All I know is, it'll be away from you.
you're gone, out of my mind
I'm promising myself,
I've left you behind.

conversation

hello there, how are you
bet you'll say you're good;
I'll likely say that too
but all that talk is a lie,
and I want you to know why

I don't sleep at night,
nothing seems quite right.
I'm obsessed with your smile,
entranced by your eyes
I've pondered it awhile
but still can't figure out why

I guess I'm too scared
just too confused
can't figure out where
I could start telling you
how I feel, what I feel
and when love goes one way,
it's just not real

and so there it is,
and there it will stay
in my head I will keep
all the things I can't say
I'm sorry, I really am
but hey... good talking to you...
can't wait to see you again

I'm moving!!!

got an apartment. It looks like the only way I'll be able to move in between work and orientation at msu is to do it during the night wednesday morning.

not looking forward to it.

I found a couple poems while I was packing, from last year. I'll put em up.

who knows

...

I'm homeless in 5 days

my mom is planning on moving into some tiny apartment. well... I feel that I can't really count on having a place there.

do i want to blow my money on some apartment for two months?

I'm so stressed. and my little sister came into my room today while I was working and destroyed the closet.

like, she was climbing on the dresser that's attached to the wall and she broke that off. so it's half hanging there.

and i still can't get over what i keep letting through my fingers.

and i itch. and we have to get rid of so much stuff.

whine, whine, whine

you get the point.

I need: a place to live.

I could try to make excuses
but I just wanna make amends
you don't know how long I've wished
that we'd be more than just friends

It's sad, I know
cause it made me cry
It's lame, I know
cause it crippled me
It's wrong, I know
cause I need forgiveness

I need to find a way to begin,
or end this.

I'd look for closure
but I never opened it.
I'd look to the past
but it hurts to remember it.
Can't look to the future,
without you in it,
I just wanna say

awww... forget it.