seriously? is life this crazy?

i think the dean of women is a stalker...

and that she should get married so that she will stop stalking students.

crazy people. i worked all day today.

imagine...

you are sold to a man that you do not know

he beats and rapes you repeatedly

until you agree to be his prostitute

your name is replaced with a number

tonight...

you have seveal "clients"

tomorrow...

you turn eight years old...

she was eight when she was sold to the brothel

she draws a picture of being abused

imagine...

the abolition of ending child sex slavery through prevention and aftercare

defin the rights of the vulnerable

Love protects...depends ...restores...and empowers

Love146.

i have this crazy anxious feeling....all of the time...give or take...some times more than others.

according to the dsm-iv i have a generalized anxiety disorder...i think that prozac might chill me out but i m very anti meds...so life is well...i ve really enjoyed it lately. however, i feel very disorganized and all over the place.

i have a root canal and teeth cleaning scheduled for next wed. i m kinda nervous...the dentist is interesting...

i ve been reading this book called plastic jesus. i liked it until it started the chapter on professionalism and then i just disagreed and moved on...

i feel that my mind had nothing exciting to portray...

hmmm...and lets see...i really want to see the second batman...batman seriously is my favorite movie...

hola!

so what i love about my college roommate??

she rubs my head when i have a headache from my toothache...how kewl is that? i am the biggest baby in the world...i made her pat my head for like 2 hours...haha...i had taken an ibprofen 800 and an antibiotic for this cavity pain...

so i woke up at 7...and i was alarmed...my roommate was not patting my head anymore...so i got up and got ready for work...and on my way as i was driving down the b.a. the parent of my student calls me to tell me they were going to be late...which i was ok with b/c that means i had time to grab breakfast at braum's...i usually hate breakfast...other than biscuits and gravy...yum!

so..i walked into the office at midtown which is on cherry street...so its this cute lil house...and my boss' daughter lives upstairs...it smells like a mix in b/w cigarettes and weed. lets just be honest...seriously? its a freakin business...with kids running in and out of it all day...seriously?...not only that but then i went into the kitchen to find some type of air freshener and there are beer cans all over the ground...

but since i work in and out of mid-town all day...no one else was there...well except my boss' daughter...its frustrating...so tomorrow when i'm in the s.tulsa office i ll have to find out what the heck is going on? last time i said something the homeless guy that was living there got kicked out...i'm all about housing the homeless...but if i can't leave my student to wait for there parent by themselves...b/c learningrx would be liable for kidnapping, rape, molesting etc. then while waiting for parents...a homeless guy should not be living upstairs above a business office.

so on with my appts. throughout the day....i taught vizualization spelling with jell-o and all of my students loved it and passed a medal level really fast!

so i took a latin dancing class today...and i worked out for like an hour...yeah me! 

so my life this week has been smooth sailing...i'm living w/ a rommate from college and her family and i absolutely love it! she has two little brothers...they are not really little they are like 18 and 20...but they are hilarious. and my roommate's mom adores me...she like wants to pour my cereal...even though i am 22 and more than capable of accomplishing a task like that on my own...and she took care of my tooth ache...and scheduled me a dentist appt. and the list goes on and on...i like being adored its fun! we have about two weeks til we move in to our new little apt. i m not excited about living in 'south tulsa' but we will have kewl oru neighbors and most of all of our school friends will be in a mile range of our place...so that will be nice;) and oru is right down the road so thats good cuz i really miss my friends. i think we ll just sign a six month lease...and then go from there...cuz we really want to live downtownish but with both of us in school thats kinda impossible money wise...

speaking of moola...i need a job...i have a job and i like it but i dont think i want to work at l.rx throughout the school year...i guess the only reason i still work there is b/c i sign contracts and i have to finish them out...so i ve never just thought about quitting a job b/c i wanted to...i just usually quit b/c i moved back in forth from home to school or whatever...so since i have a degree and my classes are at night...and i have a pretty good resume...i want a salary...is that even too much to ask? my other psych major friends have jobs with salary...i want a job with a salary...yeah b/c paying off students loans along with paying for living expenses is ridiculous when you get paid by appt.

i've been searching around for kewl jobs and all...i m qualified for kinda of a lot of different things but very limited and structured things...hmmm...well i m gonna get off of here...and shower...

oh...and yeah for the fourth of july...one of my appts. didn't want to cancel...i actually recommended that he cancel and guess what he demanded an appt. for his son today. its freakin july 4th....get a grip...i was nice and told him he could keep his 4:30 just b/c the day before i got so frustrated at this son mocking me...i yelled at his kid! i like never ever ever yell...i yelled at him for like five minutes. and i yelled knowing that everyone could here me in the waiting room and that the director could hear me in her office...

my director later approached me with the idea of advice suggesting that i hide my frustration...and i informed her that i had done just that for 65 sessions...and he has about 60 more sessions to go...