well i do not know if there is anyone  any more that really looks at this but I just remembered that I had it and decided to write something... well just this last week... I have been dealing with so much stuff I do not know what to do.. expect maybe give up..

Well first off.. I just graduated and you think that everything will be wonderful once done with school that every thing will work out.. WRONG!! it just gets worse.. havivng to pay bills and deal with the work world.. NOt fun at all enjoy college while you can..

oh and just last monday never thought that I would have to write a resignation letter at the age of 22 but WRONG.. within the church of the nazarene when a pastor resigns so does the staff... I have no idea if I will have a job come next june.. I hate it.

And to top it all off.. a friend of mine calls me and tells me that they have been using cocaine and does not know what to do.. and when i try to help them.. they turn their phone off because do not want me to bother them.. does not make sense.. I really just want to call the police on them.. and let them see what it is like to be do wrong.. but I cant.. its my friend dont want them in jail..

HELP why is my life going like this... Is the devil tempting me or what??

Here in Venzuela.. need I say more!!...

Well I must say that I do miss being home.. I miss everyone.. with this really being my last summer at home and what did I decide to do go over seas what was I thinking... Alright so I was following God's Will for my life. Doing what he will some day allow for me to do in the future all the time.

Life here has been crazy... Right now as I speak everyone including myself is sick.. Either food posion.., flu bug, or you know... It really stinks cause you have no idea when you are going to have to throw up or go to the bathroom. Just got back yesterday from a 6-7 hour car ride which wasnt the greatest since everyone was sick.. but thankfully we were able to make it home with only stoping for lunch and gas.

Kim (the site Lady) is leaving tomorrow at 4 am to go to Quito. FOr two weeks should be an interestingtime I must say without her. Living with oscar for a week and then with the fishers for another week. WHo knows shall see how this goes..

Hope everyone is having a great summer and hope to talk to you all soon... HOme on July 17th. Love you all..

PRAY!!

Jt (John) and I