I am doing pretty well!!

It has been awhile and I have a few new developments!

I got a job and am on my second week there it is good!!

I play tennis which is awesome!!

And lastly I have a B/F now that is soo sweet and he is just amazing!!

So ya that is my life at this point it is pretty good!!

Well I love you all and I will talk to you next time!

Nessy~

Alyssa Jones: Why are we stopping?

Holden McNeil: Because I can't take this

Alyssa Jones: Can't take what?

Holden McNeil: I love you

Alyssa Jones: You love me?

Holden McNeil: I love you. And not, not in a friendly way, although I think we're great friends. And not in a misplaced affection, puppy-dog way, although I'm sure that's what you'll call it. I love you. Very, very simple, very truly. You are the epitome of everything I have ever looked for in another human being. And I know that you think of me as just a friend, and crossing that line is the furthest thing from an option you would ever consider. But I had to say it. I just, I can't take this anymore. I can't stand next to you without wanting to hold you. I can't, I can't look into your eyes without feeling that, that longing you only read about in trashy romance novels. I can't talk to you without wanting to express my love for everything you are. And I know this will probably queer our friendship - no pun intended - but I had to say it, because I've never felt this way before, and I don't care. I like who I am because of it. And if bringing this to light means we can't hang out anymore, then that hurts me. But God, I just, I couldn't allow another day to go by without just getting it out there, regardless of the outcome, which by the look on your face is to be the inevitable shoot-down. And, you know, I'll accept that. But I know...I know that some part of you is hesitating for a moment, and if there is a moment of hesitation, then that means you feel something too. All I ask, please, is that you just, you just not dismiss that - and try to dwell in it for just ten seconds. Alyssa, there isn't another soul on this planet who has ever made me half the person I am when I'm with you, and I would risk this friendship for the chance to take it to the next plateau. Because it is there between you and me. You can't deny that. Even if, you know, even if we never talk again after tonight, please know that I'm forever changed because of who you are and what you've meant to me.

~My heart finally realized what My head knew all along...~

Hi everybody...I am doing alot better now! I am so glad that I didnt have school today!!! It is the first day of deer season...but im not going cause my dad sucks and wont take me. : (  Oh well...

Well I guess thats about al for today....Love yall!!

Nessy<3

Alrighty well I haven't used this thing in like a millon yeas so i got on it today and decided to make it look nice and post a blog.  Ya well I have had a pretty good day..I babysat from 7:30 till 4:00...that was a little nerve-wracking but I like it.  Anyway I was watching CMT on tv and they were playing all of these really really sad songs so I cried 3 times today.  I am not really sure why but i have been crying alot lately like no matter what hapens or whatever I get upset and I cry.  My family and I are on pretty good terms so I don't think it's that...I love my family but sometimes I just don't think they get me or how I am feeling or what I go thrugh sometimes.  I know that I sound like a sad country song right now but this is how I feel.  I think I need to learn how to let things go and move on..you know like just go with the flow.  Don't get me wrong like some ppl say that they would give anything to get rid of emotional pain...not me I don't enjoy it but I believe it is nescessary to grow and mature but sometimes i think I hold on for too long when there is no hope for that situation or whatever may be happening.

Well anyway that is all for today I guess but if anyone reads this and has any advice, comments, reactions...anything please let me know...i need it!!!

<3 You all soo soo much!! Nessy<3