Whoa! i haven't written in forever. well i am a senior, and just like my ladies said i would i have made some very close friends, and while i look forward to graduation, i am thankful its far away and i still have plenty of time with my peeps. i miss so many of you guys. and i hope everybody is doing well and hasn't gone cRaZy.. of course me and my BFF mr. blume are closer than ever. and then there is gauthey, i would never tell her this, but i dread the seperation between the two of us.. she is without a doubt my favorite person and teacher ever. anyways, i have so many things to do for college, and blah blah, growing up makes me nervous, i miss having nothing to do except watch Oprah. anyway, i'm off. i'll try to write soon, hopefully you grown up kids havent forgot about your little jessica. :)

Currently Playing Everytime Pt.1 By Britney Spears see related

i'm at mat's house, he has britney spears downloaded - yeah thats not gay. he is the best friend a gal can have and he will never leave me.

this may be the last entry i write concerning my friend. i think the feelings i once had for him are no more. i talked to him last night for an hour, and we have a lot of fun but... you know how when you like someone, but you don't want to like them, so you try to find all their faults... well thats what happened. i don't really know if i want to like him. he is sort of flaky and not really my usually type of manly man. this doubt all started when my beautiful friend of nearly 5 years came to me with flowers and his adorable british accent to tell me he had feelings for me. thats the kind of guy i want. who has feelings for me and not every other girl in the world. ok so we are talking on the phone and right now my family is falling apart. no lie. it's heck. he doesn't ask about it, and i sort of bring it up but shrug it off saying i don't want to talk about it... but I DO... come on people read the signs. i want someone to tell me that it's gonna be ok. that my slutty sister will return home, and that my alcoholic abusive father will leave me alone. but no.. when we talk it's all about him. i don't think i can handle that. even as a friend shouldn't he be my shoulder to cry on. and of course i am amazing ;) and i keep my composure, but sometimes i too need to open up and shed some tears. i guess he doesn't understand that i never fall for anyone, except for clay, and i really liked him, but i don't want to be with someone who doesn't share the feeling. you know those girls who are hanging all over the guy but he's looking away (kala knows what i'm talking about) i don't want that. i want someone who i can go to the movies with and stay up all night talking about stupid things. (like whatever happened to the Monkeys - mike)  but i have dreams and goals, contrary to what mr. blume believes, and i will accomplish them whether he is by my side or not. anyway, i'm off to take a shower and then we are watching Casablanca!!

i'm so excited. my friend katie just graduated as valedictorian and is headed to HARVARD!!  :) :) :)  my friends are amazing..

Currently Watching Tommy Boy By Chris Farley, David Spade, Brian Dennehy, Bo Derek see related

hi - my name is mat and im much cooler than jessica who is dumb. ha ha ha.       i don’t know where jessica is - probably in the bathroom.       i know her password.       she gets the comic of the day in her email. - gay.       i know who she likes, and im much better - im just kidding, im sure he’s nice, but i am really hot hot hot hot

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