Side car villians rock my world

hey so things are so screwed right now. first off i know its stupid and i shouldnt and dont really care about it any more but i just got out of a sorta bad relationship. I was going out with a guy named chris and we went out for basically two months which isnt taht long but we were with each other every single day i think there was only about two days we didnt see each other. anyways so he broke up with me because i got to jealous of him talking to my "best" friend meagan and like he texted this one girl and tryed to delete it anyways so he lied to me about the girl who he was texting he said she was 15 and 5 months pregnant and shes totaly not shes a senior and never been pregnant so i started talking to her and she said about how he told everyone from his school that i was his cousin and that my car was his since i let him borrow it from time to time and that the only reason i was driving it is because i was paying his insurance. anyways so about meagan again umm he was talking to her for about a week before we broke up and they both lied to me about it. and then the next day they start going out and i tlaked to her five minutes before i found out and she acted like nothing was wrong at all. they didnt even let me get over it. and the messed up part about it is i was talking to her about how sad i was and shit. its gay but they  have already broke up and hes having sex with some other girl now so watev his loss. but enough about that i just am  like about to give up on relationships all together  like  idk i like someone that ive liked for a while but like i could see myself with him for a really long time and i dont know if im ready for all that just yet. i just kinda want to be open but i feel like i cant be because of him so im like stuck in this rut because i dont want to hurt his feelings becasue i  do like him but idk ..anywho so I think we are going to have to move out of our house it kinda sucks but hey i got to go

Jess

Side car villians rock my world

hey so things are so screwed right now. first off i know its stupid and i shouldnt and dont really care about it any more but i just got out of a sorta bad relationship. I was going out with a guy named chris and we went out for basically two months which isnt taht long but we were with each other every single day i think there was only about two days we didnt see each other. anyways so he broke up with me because i got to jealous of him talking to my "best" friend meagan and like he texted this one girl and tryed to delete it anyways so he lied to me about the girl who he was texting he said she was 15 and 5 months pregnant and shes totaly not shes a senior and never been pregnant so i started talking to her and she said about how he told everyone from his school that i was his cousin and that my car was his since i let him borrow it from time to time and that the only reason i was driving it is because i was paying his insurance. anyways so about meagan again umm he was talking to her for about a week before we broke up and they both lied to me about it. and then the next day they start going out and i tlaked to her five minutes before i found out and she acted like nothing was wrong at all. they didnt even let me get over it. and the messed up part about it is i was talking to her about how sad i was and shit. its gay but they  have already broke up and hes having sex with some other girl now so watev his loss. but enough about that i just am  like about to give up on relationships all together  like  idk i like someone that ive liked for a while but like i could see myself with him for a really long time and i dont know if im ready for all that just yet. i just kinda want to be open but i feel like i cant be because of him so im like stuck in this rut because i dont want to hurt his feelings becasue i  do like him but idk ..anywho so I think we are going to have to move out of our house it kinda sucks but hey i got to go

Jess

lifes .... undiscrible in words

k so i dont have a computer so life sucks ... but leave me lots of comments so that when im on i will have something to look forward to.. so anywho my bday is coming up july 9th yay but anyways ... so im working at the mcdonals on tyler now ... as well as timberline.. but ya so idk ill update some other  time  o and how could i forget me and chance are finally dating yes!!!!

jessica

I DONT EVEN KNOW ANYMORE

HEY guys ok so first off Im updating to tell you im sorry for doing any thing to anyone if I hurt you or if I havent treated you the best im sorry shit sucks right now and its not your fault and i feel terrible for taking it out on you guys! So heres the low down on everything first off my step mom and my dad are getting a divorce which idk maybe its for the best maybe not idk I just know she never warmed up to me and probly never will its just depressing that everythings happening at once 2ndly my mom isnt going to be getting child support any more which she hates me for if thats not crap. ever since august she has still been recieving child support for me and I havent even lived over there lets see since august shes maybe spend a total of 80 dollars on me out of all those checks... and so i called her today to tell her happy mothers day and well lets just say the whole three minute conversation we had left me in a vast amount of tears! and then i called her again because of a certain thing on tuesday which some of you may know and anyways she made me cry again and pretty much told me she didnt care... then 3rdly my sister is graduating on sunday which is probly going to suck because not only am i not going to be able to see her as often but my mom will be there and i feel like she isnt going to want me to be there at all so i guess o well i am doing it for anna not for her.... 4th of which im sure everyone wants to hear about not really but still umm guy situations... well as everyone knows Im sorta with josh but not techniqly and I am also torn between chance but im still trying to figure things out and im sorry that you guys have to go through this its just i am trying to find a way where i wont end up hurt and im trying to choose wisely ... umm ya so im really sorry for that! next off .... well I got a job at Timberline ... idk its going ok but I get payed just about as crappy as you could ... really it sucks but im dealing with it I suppose.... umm next I went to the river fest last night and the night before and it was cool I guess ...me and josh went to the carnival with emily and gerald and brandon last night and we went to reo speedwagon but didnt stay long... then ummm the night before we went to the fire works and the carnival for a little bit. but ya so here in the next week I wont have a computer so the updating will be kept to a minimum and Im sorry for that. o and then i will most likely be getting a new phone soon to ........... but anyways thats that for now

leave me lots of comments I need anything to cheer me up right now

Bye to all

Jess

uptadation

im updating happy?

Jess