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Thursday, August 28, 2008

(crying fiercely) ahhhh i hate you i hate you i hate you! and i will move on....
gosh i am so tired of all this. i hate this lingering, lagging too too long. why won't it end? Please just let it cut clean and END.
Another summer has come to and end. it's been a whole freaking year.Look at all the mess. I won't allow it. I won't allow myself to be sinking into this huge pond of mistakes. Please make it end.


Friday, August 01, 2008

there's a ghost

ever since this spring there came with it a small ghost to my simple life. Every now and then it comes out to haunt me. I can cope with it all right for the most part, but sometimes when it comes, i lose all control of what i know to be consistent and real.

what would you do if you saw something you should have never seen (and that shouldn't have existed to begin with), and you possibly found out something that shouldn't have happened? i wish i could be more clear, but obviously i can't. Although... i do need/would appreciate advice or this post would have never been posted....

sigh.... i sincerely hope i am just thinking too too much and that there's really nothing to worry about. (please please let that be it)


Sunday, June 22, 2008

haha 原來我就是乖乖牌女生啊

so i read this blog entry called "Understanding 'nice girls' and ways to pursue them" by a guy who claims that although he never succeeded, but he always seems to like this type of girls. and haha aiyaya it seems i am a "nice girl" myself haha XD
i would really love to share this to you guys so i will try my best to translate the important parts (i will skip some sentences and paragraphs)=P

from: http://www.mycatch.cc/topics/341/posts/551

Talk about the impressions I get first.

1. Really naive. ... ... It even takes 2 hours to explain to her why I like her. (^^?)
2. spend a lot of time studying/doing homework, interacting with family (that is so me haha =P)
3. have a few/certain good friends and they are the main sources of their human interaction (other than family) (check XD)
4. Long-term single or long-run relationship. All the girls I liked ALL are single ever since they were born till now. Even though I didn't succeed, many years later they are still single =.=  (check i guess)
5. Confessed twice and the answers are both "we haven't known each other long enough, and we don't have much understanding toward each other. Maybe we can be friends first. ..." She really just wants to take it slow and get to know you (no avoiding at all), and they can be really good friends. and it makes you feel, "mm, it feels nice to be friends too" and then you really become friends. and you would feel at ease to go on to like the next girl ...
6. skip cuz i am too lazy to think of the right words
7. Really afraid to bother other people. They are really considerate towards other people and will never use you. (it doesn't necessarily apply to everyone, but the ones i met are all really nice people) (check check)
8. skip
9. Very shy, passive, and usually not every shining/bright people, some don't have much confidence. value personal space. (check check check check check XD)
10. willing to help people and really care about other people. (not always, but the ones i met mostly are) (check check)

Now some attitude you should have:
1. Patience. They usually wouldn't follow the feelings completely. They need to spend time with you and slowly getting to konw your personality. It takes a long time to pursue this type of girls. (mm mm! hontoo hontoo..)

2. Don't think too much. When they say "let's be friends first to get to know each other" they really didn't lie to you. You can actually have pretty good interaction.  True, sometimes I would think, "There's probably someone else she likes." But because they are rarely the initiative ones, unless tehy really found "the one," they will still be single... =.= (that's what happened to me, maybe it's special case). There's no need to imagine their daily activities either. ....... .......
3. 認真充實自己 (i don't know how to translate it properly.. expand your horizons? enrich your life?) Make yourself worthy to be a good man who can give her happiness. The type of guys they like are usually also "nice guys/good men." If you give her any "bad guy" impression you are probably out. ...... You have to be ...... and give her a sense of security (In short, it has to be something positive). Appearance is not important (It really is not. I can say it 10000 times. you just have to meet certain standard). (like be clean and take shower everyday :P) ......

......

Finally, I think it's a blessing/ a fortunate thing to like this type of girls. I grow and learned a lot in the process, and understand to have a happy and natural life is the most important thing. There's nothing to complain about. I am single... but she is single as well. you don't see her whining about anything. Honestly, can a person promise the happiness of two persons when he cannot give himself happiness? ...... (something really well said but i skipped)
...... good luck! Hope you can be courageous and learn to give yourself and others happiness!!!!! You will definitely gain a lot in the process!
Best Wishes!!!

...... ......


Saturday, June 14, 2008

be thankful for what you normally take for granted in life. hontoo. human-beings always tend to realize how much they had AFTER they've lost it. and some things just won't come back.

it sure is sad going to the airport today (it's been a good while ni) and not standing with the one waiting in line for security check. we were "supposed to" go back to Taiwan this summer... it made me want to go so much. as stupid and immature as this sound, i miss the typhoons, the earthquakes, the "unbearable" humidity and hotness and the bugs XD and so many so many people and places. and ohhhh the food haha.
sigh~......


Wednesday, June 11, 2008

i like buying flower home

i used to think buying flower is one of the most useless, impractical things in the world, but over the past few years i've come to like it. just the action of buying it makes me feel s~pecial ^_______________^ especially since my family doesn't do it ever, buying flower home for mommy gets everyone's eyes shine a little. a little change in life, a little something different =]

Happy Happy lunar Birthday ma ma mi, though i think i just got you angry by placing my notebook/laptop on my "lap top" XD gomen.




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