Ever feel like your parents don't notice what you do for them? All they want is more and better and different. Somehow your siblings are like the perfect little angels and yet you are never quite good enough.

One whole year. It seems impossible that it could've been that long ago. The memories are still with me. The pain is not completely gone. But I rejoice in my Savior because of his mercy and compassion in the darkest hours of my life. He has been so good to bring me here today, with the ability to run, jump, dance and learn. And most importantly, he is making good out of bad through this for His name's sake.

You are my hiding place,
You always fill my heart with songs of deliverance.
Whenever I am afraid, I will trust in You.

Bear with this random thought..it's really more for my own reflection.

Alex and I started dating again a few short months after my release from the hospital and there have been a few times when a thought would enter my mind. 'Why couldn't God have brought this relationship into my life before the accident? Why couldn't I have had a boyfriend to lean on while all of this was going on?' I was thinking about this again today, when it finally sank in. God wanted to be the man in my life right then. He wanted me to fully rely on Him during that time and trust in his strength. God brought many good friends and family into my life to be his hands and feet, but right then I believe that God wanted that special relationship left for me and Him alone. I have a wonderful boyfriend who I'm very thankful for, but I learned then that it is God alone who is my comforter, my provider, and my all in all.

I am very incredibly upset. I tried getting an absentee ballot the other day, but it said that the first time you vote it has to be in person. what the heck?! Excuse me, but the fact that I'm a registered voter should give me the same rights as all other voters. Something seems strange about this...