I need to get the tech out of here.

My family is driving me nuts. 

All we do anymore is yell at each other.

I'm scared of college...I'm not going to lie.

I don't know if I'm ready to be the low person on the totem pole again...

I'm tweakin' out a little bit, in case you can't tell.

I miss xanga.  I may be coming back now and again...Facebook notes just don't do it for me anymore.

I love my graduation CD. 

"Live Like We're Alive"  by Nevertheless

They say we can't make it through

Too young, don't know what to do

This life, it's much too hard for you and me

They say we're living in our dreams

Black, white, nothing in between

This world is never as it seems to be

But they don't want this, and they don't feel this and this was never theirs at all

So here I stand, I'm ready for anything

Just a man, but I'm giving everything

We're here only for a second, and then we're gone when we least expect it

so do more than survive!

Let's live like we're alive!

They say stay inside the lines we've drawn

You will be just fine

Don't take chances with your life

But they don't want this and they don't feel this, but this was never theirs at all.

So here I stand, I'm ready for anything

Just a man, but I'm giving everything

We're here only for a second and then we're gone when we least expect it

so do more than survive....

Let's live like we're ALIVE!

We've got to let it go, it's out of our control.

So here I stand, I'm ready for anything.

Just a man, but I'm giving everything

We're here only for a second and then we're gone when we least expect it

so do more than survive....

Let's live like we're alive!

I like life.

kinda.

for now.

I'm starting "The Purpose Driven Life" today. 

I won't be on here that much anymore.

I got a google homepage, so I might not come back to xanga that much.

If you wish to find me/contact me, find me on facebook or myspace.  Or call my cell phone...I always have it and it's usually on.

Thanks guys, for everything you've done for me and helped me with over the years.  I really do appreciate it.  But, it's time for me to move on.

love,

Sarah.

It's been a while.

A week and a half, actually.

Prom, Dutch Days, Marching with Prom Hair, Getting sunburned.

That was my weekend.

Today I took my AP Calc exam.

The first section wasn't bad at all... I understood most of the questions, and I'm pretty sure I did really well on that.  But by the time the last free response section came around, I was completely brain dead.  I'm pretty sure that for one of the questions that called for justification, I wrote "Because the mean value theorem says so."  and that's it.

oi.

It's almost 1 am.

but i can't sleep.

The play is over.  I have taken my last bow...it's done.  There will be no more hanging out backstage, no rushing to memorize lines at the last minute, no running to Hyvee an hour before the play starts to get Mr. Luker a gift.  No more cast parties, no more pretzels or bonbons.  It's really depressing.  For the past 4 years I have completely based my life around my school activities...especially this year.  I literally lived at school for days on end...doing homework the class period before it's due, reading 6 chapters ahead in english so I would have time to go out in the hall and memorize lines.  I used half of my class time during speech season either writing or memorizing speeches, or cutting them, or timing them. 

You have no idea how much I will miss all of this.  I will be able to come back and help somewhat next year...but nowhere near the extent that I have this year.  And that really makes me sad. 

And what legacy have I left behind?  Will people remember me by the time they graduate?  Will they care when I come back to visit? 

I'm depressed. 

Refreshing?  Soon? God I hope so.