um so SCHOOL"S OVER!!!!!!!!which means:

SUMMER"S HERE!!!!!!! which means:

TIME TO PARTTYYY!!!!!!

hell yes.

....i really dont know how to feel anymore. there are so many things going on with so many different emotions and well, i'm not gonna lie and pretend like everythings okay cause its not. Gina says "time heals all wounds" but honestly i dont know if it will and if i can wait that long.

not only is so much going on right now, but i dont have that person to go to and confide in because all of my best friends are going through things too. so its like my diary (the one i physically write in) should be full but its so hard to write what im feeling because once i start it all comes in a rush like an overflowing river.

my mom said that when it rains that means the angels are crying. if even the angels are crying what does she expect me to do?

i just feel so lost.

ok well a lot is like happening. my gmom is really sick so my cousins from virginia came up to see her, and my uncle from washington state flew in. opa was fun...kristina's bbq was fun. fri nite was fun...

and now back to school which sucks but as dennis just said, 11 more actually school days till finals and stuff so its really not that bad.on bigger news:

JUNE 7TH I GET SWORN INTO THE FIREHOUSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

personally i'm really excited if u cant tell. jim got his liscense and thats gonna be cool. real cool. sat is jim's eagle scout thing...which will be kinda boring since i cant go to amaras sweet sixteen cause of it! ahh. but he's my bro so its only right. but then megs grad is on sunday and that will be alot of fun so its all good.

lifes kinda blah tho. needs a lil sumthin. just dunno what that sumthin is yet...

now that softball is over u would think things would be flowing smoother but no.

my grades are almost shit and finals are coming and i practically haven't studied for a test since 2nd marking period which should make finals interesting and a half.

rugby! ahh it got rained out last sunday so its suposed to be this sunday which caused drama with kentucky and i dunno and everything is so hectic so hugs are always appriciated!