With a single word "The Voice" spoke everything into existence, and then every thing formed as the voice concieved it. "The Voice" did this out of a desire. A desire for a family to love and for a family to love "The Voice." But it was not a perfect family. For a being to be capable of love, that being must also be capable of choice. ...and one chose different. "The One" was jealous of "The Voice." Through the eternities that jealousy grew to resentment, until it exploded in hatred. "The one" convinced many of his siblings to embrace that hatred and a war erupted. The voice was so deeply saddened by all the destruction and with a single word "the voice" ended the war. But the damage had already been done, for "The One" and his followers could not just simply rejoin the family. Too much hatred and strife had permanently separated them. So they left. In their stead was a hole. A hole felt deeply by "The Voice." So "The Voice" spoke creation again. A creation that gave "The One" a new opportunity.
Jared McKinsey felt very strange. Actually he felt kinda like he was falling. Problem with that was he knew as a fact that he was laying on his back. Or maybe the ground was falling with him. Weirder still he felt free of all the achenes he'd carried his entire life. That last part was only so weird because till now he'd never realized there was an ache. At nine years old he'd always had perfect health, at the top of his game. But now he somehow felt better. As he slowly opened his eyes, all he could see was a white blur. He held up his left hand just to make sure he wasn't blind. His eyes were fine. He'd had a dream once, that had been in a white blur just like this. But that dream consisted of him being chased by a cobra wearing a leather jacket, which was nothing like this situation at all. Sitting up, he looked around to get his bearings. The last thing he could remember was being on a plane. His very first plane trip in fact. But after a few hours in the air the whole cabin had started to shake for some reason. Jared wasn't sure what happened after that. Only that here was after. A distant group of people in the corner of his eye, caught his attention. "Maybe one of them knows what's going on." he thought to himself. As he got to his feet, he noticed one boy in particular who stood out from the others. He looked like a typical boy mostly, brown hair, green eyes, clear complexion, even a few freckles. He was probably a year or two older. He was standing there in the middle of the group that was passing him to wherever was beyond the edge of wherever this white blur was. But something looked very different about the boy. Was it the wings on his back? No everyone seemed to have wings. For the first time, Jared even noticed his own. The light coming off him? Everyone seemed to have a barely noticeable glow. But perhaps that was it. This light did look different somehow. That's despite the fact that it was exactly the same color and brightness as everyone else's light. He approached the boy cautiously. "Do you mind if I ask..." Jared started in a nervous voice. "You look different from everyone else somehow." "Of course I look different." was the reply. "I'm not human. I never was." The boy was not startled, and he not even turned to meet Jared's gaze. He just matter-of-factly, but in a happy way said, "And you're not like them either?" Finally turning to regard Jared he added, "You are a newcomer. You'll want to follow me." As it turned out, the boy was not just a year or two older than Jared. He was immeasurably older. Though Jared had no idea what he meant when he said "At least not measurable in side this pocket of time." But Jared got a small idea of what he was talking about when the boy mentioned that he'd spent eons with the group of "winged" humans they'd just left. Winged being Jared description of course. The boy's name was Saul, and he'd apparently decided to make himself Jared's guide as they traveled through what seemed to be a vast city. They arrived at their destination, a place Saul called the gate. But it was hardly like any gate Jared had ever seen. It seemed to be made of light. Not a glow type light like Jared had seen coming from everyone else, but a bright light that seemed to be solidified and made into a building material. Though it was so bright it still didn't hurt the eyes like earth light. Or maybe that was all light here Jared thought as he took note of the many others going about and around the Gate. Saul turned to him with excitement and said, "You are in for a treat! You'll feel pleasure like you've never felt before. You're going to be timeless in a way that was not possible while still in your body." Jared had not understood what he was talking about at the time, but once through the gate his understanding was growing. He would never be able describe the full feeling to you or me, but he was no longer feeling with just his skin. He could now feel everything around him and on. He couldn't just see in one direction, but in all directions at the same time. He could even see himself and the light that was glowing off him. And it was nothing like a mirror reflection either. His body felt kinda like how your arm feels when you've been laying on it the wrong way. You can sense it there but you can't really feel it. His sense of time was the same way. He felt it going backward and forward at the same time. Also Jared could feel the presence of everyone else. He could feel them inside of him and around him. His feeling them led naturally to the question: "Where are my parents?" * * * * Jared stood atop a rock-face staring North at a forbidding deep red sky, filled with darker and even more forbidding clouds. This was all topped off with the occasional lightning strike. His thoughts were full of bewilderment, because he'd never seen anything like it before. Now that he'd experienced the gate he understood that all this was a bubble of some kind. Or rather the surface of a bubble, and the past was inside. He was not sure how much time he'd been in the gate, he wasn't even sure if it mattered to him anymore. "Is this hell?" He asked Saul whom he thought was right behind him. But a very different voice answered, from a much older definitely bigger man. "In a way I suppose it is. In the same way I suppose this rock-face would be purgatory." Jared turned back over his left shoulder to see what he thought to be a giant. It was a tall man with rough, coarse hair and skin browner than anyone even on his dad's side of the family. In fact aside from his towering height the man reminded Jared of a cousin that used to be fond of playfully slapping him on the back so hard he'd usually topple over. No, wait this wasn't a man. This was one of Saul's kind. Saul spoke up from behind the new arrival's right side knee, as he moved in full view of Jared. "This is Azeem. He knows everything about everyone who is beyond the rock-face." "The word 'everything' is a slight exaggeration on Saul's part." Azeem countered as he pointed North at whatever lies below the angry clouds. "I don't know where your parents will be by the time you get to the bottom of the rock-face." His parents were the reason Jared was on the rock-face, but he was a bit stunned because Saul had not had a chance to explain that to the new arrival yet. He'd been with Jared ever since they left the gate. "How do you know what I'm looking for, anyway?" "Because Saul knows." Azeemed answered as if that settled the matter. But when he noticed Jared's baffled look he added, "Saul and I are brothers. There are no secrets between us." Jared thought all this through very tightly. He looked Azeem over then asked, "Well if Saul knows everything you do, then why won't he know where my parents are when we get to the bottom?" Azeem cracked a smile. "There are dynamics involved." As Azeem stepped up next to him, Jared moved in the fashion he would to avoid a friendly "pat" from his cousin. Azeem seemed not to notice. "But don't worry; finding your parents won't be difficult for Saul." His smile just as quickly sobered up. "I must however warn you, bringing your parents back may present difficulties." Jared tensed up. He did not want to hear this at all. Saul had told him that they had brought many back from the low lands. He saw no reason why his parents should be any different. "You must be prepared to fail or you could be lost too." Azeem finished. Jared not only didn't understand what Azeem was trying to say, he did not really care. He just agreed so that he wouldn't be delayed any more than need be. Azeem didn't look as if he he bought Jared's act but made no attempt to say so. And with that Jared spread his wings to for the first time to take flight. They were much longer than he had expected them to be what with their folded size and weight. As Jared took off from the edge Saul started to follow, but Azeem grabbed his shoulder to stop him. It was not an aggressive grab but it was an informal one. They'd known each other for eternities, and Azeem had made a habit out of looking out for Saul. That's why Azeem couldn't just let him leave without asking about his intentions. Saul knew all of this instinctively and answered honestly. After all Saul was not in the habit of lying, quite the opposite actually. "I'm just going to help him find his parents. I'll be back soon enough." Azeem looked skeptical at best. "You've always been free to come and go as you please they all are." Nodding out to the North again. "You've never needed an excuse to go out there, why use one now?" Saul could've settled the whole matter by just saying he wasn't using an excuse, but he didn't. Instead he simply said, "I'll come back." Azeem shook his head. "It's just that I've seen you flutter your loyalties as close to the line as I've seen you flutter time itself. When it comes time for choice, please go with those who will look out for your best interests." Saul knew he was referring to the ages old argument that was ensuing with some of their brothers beyond the rock-face. "I've already chosen sides, remember?" Azeem looked skeptical at best. "No secrets between us remember?" * * * * Below the dark clouds Jared found land not totally different from anything he'd see on Earth. It was dark but this wasn't a problem because it seems that Jared could now see perfectly well in the dark. Just as well as in perfect daylight. He found a clear area to land then looked back skyward. Their was no sign of either Azeem nor Saul. Not that he'd expected Azeem to follow anyways. But where was Saul? On his way down Jared had passed over the castle at the bottom of the cliff without noticing it. It was below the Rock-face, and he'd flown in too high to get a good look at it. Like all earth castles this castle had to be built by someone. In this case the builder was Luke. Eternities ago Luke had built it for his brother Samael. He was once such a supporter of Samael, those days. But these days he was more frustrated than anything else. Time does that to one. It had not been Luke who invented time, but he was the one who came up with the idea to fill the void around the gate with it. You see with time bad feelings can fester. Samael Knew that, and that's why he'd encouraged Luke on this project. But now it was Luke who was festering from time. Life there had not turned out the way he'd expected so Luke who was now festering like a human. These days with Luke arguments are the norm. What were these arguments are about? Even Luke doesn't know anymore. So his brothers and sisters don't stand a chance of figuring it out. But Samael has managed to pacify him Eon by Eon. However even Samael realized his time was running thin. It was the first time since before the creation of time that Samael heard Saul's voice. Coming from behind him. "You do of course realize that the more you pursue this insane goal of yours the more miserable you make yourself and those around you." Samael turned to see him. He was laying, arms folded, in the arms of a statue of Azeem. His gaze was fixed on the ceiling. "And I suppose you would've done it all better" Samael scoffed. Actually Saul wouldn't have tried it at all. But Samael knew that. Saul's gaze shifted to his brother, with no hint of malice, "I'm just pointing out what you should've realized an eternity ago." When he spoke again Samael was much calmer more controlled. "And you are the expert on making ones self miserable. Aren't you Saul?" Wasting no time Saul answered, "I'm not miserable!" As he got to his feet. Samael raised an eyebrow, "You're not happy either. There are no secrets between us, remember?" after a moment with no answer from Saul he added, "Of course you do." Indignant Saul retorted, "And I never lie. Remember?" But there was no silence after this remark. "Daniel is nearby." It almost sounded like Samael just blurted it out. A comment designed to make an emotional response. And it worked. "Daniel knows I'm here." was Saul's very measured response. "If he wishes to see me he can." Then wanting very badly to change the subject he said, "But that's not why I'm here." Samael obliged "No of course it's not." It had not escaped his notice that Saul was now making an effort to avoid eye contact. "Your new human friend will find his mother at the out point. Tell him to follow the river east." He leaned close in toward Saul's ear to add, "But don't tell him who told you." Truth is Saul had never really intended to, "I doubt he would believe me if I did. But as you wish." "You'd better go to him." His voice turned grave. "Femus draws near." * * * * If there is only one lesson to be learned from Femus then it is how anger and hatred can mutilate the spirit. Femus is fueled by pure rage and this has left him horribly scarred and disfigured into something barely recognizable as humanoid. Long ago he (If the word "he" still applies) had a disagreement with his brothers at the gate. He'd never believed in an afterlife before. In fact he'd been certain all of his life there was none. That it was inconcievable. He no longer remembers what the disagreement was about, only that he was right. He must be right. Now he wanders the 12 forests. trying to prove to all just how right he is. Usually he travels with his followers whom he's beaten into submission long ago. Like a pack of wolves out for prey in the forests. For with every passing season his anger grows, ready to devour all in it's path. There were no followers this time, they were all staying back as they sometimes do. The first thing Jared heard were the bone chilling screams. They were a cause for concern at first, but Jared's focus on his parents was enough that he eventually stopped noticing them. Didn't matter anyway. The screams had stopped for a moment as Jared wandered close to the edge of the forest. The forest seemed a contradiction of autumn and spring. The leaves of the trees were the colors of the former season, but they were also budding flowers of various colors as in the later season. A pile of debris at the edge of the forest caught Jared's attention. Mostly wood and rocks, but he'd seen a piece of the "light" material that the gate had been made out of. This sparked Jared's curiosity. As he reached out with his left hand to grab it some of the debris behind Jared exploded. "Acquiescence!" The now somewhat familiar voice shouted as the horrible monster towered over him. The deadly force knocked Jared to the ground. Wait! It was deadly force. But Jared could no longer die. Instead it was the searing pain of death, vaguely remembered from the plane crashing into the ocean from what seemed a lifetime ago. The monster raised again, staring him right down. "They lied! Don't you see that? The bastard lied!" Jared had no idea what the creature meant. He was still fixated on the question of what would happen when he can't die from all the pain the creature could inflict on him. The monster's hammering fist caused a whole tree to explode. "WHY CAN'T YOU SEE THAT THEY LIED!" Jared heard a noise from his left. A sound he'd never heard before. Chancing a glance he saw Saul standing above another broken tree, with a light coming off him. Not like the light he'd seen before. This was painful light. It was even more painful than earth light. Femus got the message and retreated. But Saul knew that would only be for so long. Femus has a short memory these days. Jared looked in horror at the wake of the monster. "What was that?" "It used to be a man." Jared found the concept to be totally alien. "That thing was human?" "An eternity ago!" "I really don't get what you people mean when you say Eternity. Eternity means forever doesn't it?" "Not really. Forever is a length of time. As infinite as that length may be an eternity is without time. Without being in one place at a time. Sort of like what you felt beyond the gate" But the awe of what Saul had said was soon replace by Jared's curiosity. "Where have you been?" he asked Saul. "Finding your mother." Saul's answer got an immediate response of interest as Jared sat straight up. Saul pointed to his right. "See that Forrest?" Jared nodded. "Fly over it to the other side. Fly hard, fly fast, and don't stay airborne too long." Saul gave him an arm up to his feet. "You'll come to a beach, follow it north but on the ground. You will find your mother somewhere along the way." Jared had never even asked where Saul had gotten his information from. He just took to the sky with Saul's warning fresh in mind. Saul watched him depart in silence. Once Jared disappeared over the tree tops, Saul said seemingly to no one, "Hello Daniel!" The best friend Saul had ever had moved from behind him, as if from nowhere. "It has been a long time, Saul." he said. "Perhaps too long." "It's been an eternity, but since when does time mean anything to us?" Saul replied to his brother. Soon they were walking, reminiscing, and renewing their unimaginably long friendship. It was like they'd never been apart, but it would not be long before this too brief a moment would be spoiled. For Daniel knew why Saul was there, and he resisted even the thought. There are no secrets between them. "Everyone knows how you feel about what happened," Saul insisted. "You could come back with me." "No, I already knew that. But I also know how they feel about it all. ...about me. I just can't live with that and you know it." He stepped out to where the first tree had exploded. "Besides, look around you." He added with his arms motioning to his surroundings. "We're not as miserable here as the others say we are. We're certainly not evil, we're free." "Free from what?" Saul countered. Daniel scoffed as he flew off. That was all there was to it. Daniel had made up his mind. Saul so wanted to chase him down. but what use would that be? He could not make Daniel come back any more than he could make himself be happy at the gate. Samael was laying in the arms of a statue of Ibliss, arms folded. His gaze was fixed on the sky. "You do of course realize that was a very human mistake you made" He said. "You thought it would be as easy as letting him come to you and reminiscing a bit. That he would just go back to the gate with you, as though it was ages past." "He could always change his mind." was Saul's reply. Samael's gaze shifted to his brother. "Not without losing what you have. He's committed to me now." He paused a moment to let it sink in. "It doesn't have to be this way. You could go with him you know." "I've already expressed my content to you." "There are no secrets between us. You're not happy." "Listen to my words!" "It's not your words that speak the whole truth. It's what you're not saying." Samael countered adding Latin, "Res ipsa loquitur" Without hesitation Saul piped a smart alec remark back. "Sed quid in infernos dicet" With an arrogant smirk Samael answered, "Satis" "Non sequitur" Saul added. "Oh yes" Samael assured him. "It does!" * * * * Focused as he was, Jared still chose to heed Saul's warning about staying airborne too long. He had no wish to see the monster again. Once he got across the forest Jared noticed it was lighter here. The clouds were still up but they were illuminated by something below. Not above like on Earth. As Saul had said the spot Jared had landed was at the edge of a vast ocean. Though he could not explain how he instinctively new that north was to his left. So as instructed, he followed the beach until... "Mom!" Jared shouted as he ran down the beach to his mother's embrace "I thought I'd never see you again!" After a moment she pulled his head back to inspect him, showering with a million questions of concern. "Are you hurt?" "How did you find me?" "Are you alright?" It was like they'd never been apart, but it would not be long before this too brief a moment would be spoiled. "I've come a long way to bring you back." The sentence caused an immediate reaction. But not the reaction Jared had been expecting. "What?" he asked. "Bring me back?" She asked pushing him away. It was at that moment they both heard Femus' tortured scream in the distance. Jared felt an immediate need to get his mother and go. But she would not come. "That city sent you, didn't it?" She said with a dark look in her eyes. A look filled with anger, hate. None of which Jared could possibly recognize, at least not in his own mother. "Who are you? Where is my son?" She asked as though she no longer recognized him. "You know me" Femus screamed again, but this time it was closer. "I'm your son." he pleaded. Her gaze was pure suspicion. As though she wasn't sure she could trust her own eyes. "Mom!" He continued "We need to go before that monster comes back." "I'd much rather face that monster than go back to that false god! It's Moses is a Jew and it allows homosexuals in it's presence" None of this made any sense to Jared who only cared about having her back. It was as if they were talking on two totally different levels. But try as he might he could not hold himself to stay and face the monster again. "You could come with me though. We could find the way together. If you are my son..." "I AM! I'm Jared!" He screamed. A loud scream. And something in him told him that the monster had heard it too. She scoffed as she flew off. That was all there was to it. Jared so wanted to chase her down. But the horrible screams were so close. He remembered Saul's warning about flying too long... Too near to Femus.... And he was feeling so tired by now. The scream roared again killing whatever nerve he'd had. He ran in the opposite direction, through the woods, over a dead tree stump, around some bushes, and past the clearing. The feeling on his back was always that the monster was gaining on him. But now it was different. He felt tired for some reason. Like he'd never outrun the monster. The harder he pushed to pick up speed, the harder it became to hold out what speed he had. Then he saw Saul. As they stood there face to face. Saul could tell something was wrong. He could see it in Jared's eyes. Jared was heart broken. That meant he would be weakened as well. "You must be prepared to fail or you could be lost too." Azeem had said. Saul had heard femus' screams as well. He knew that Jared's weakened state would never permit him escape. There was little time for details though. Saul could hear Femus nearing and with his Rape-gang close behind. "Fly Jared, Fly!" he shouted. He was flapping harder than he'd ever flapped in memory. The harder he pushed to pick up altitude, the harder it became to hold out what altitude he had. For he was disheartened too. But he had to make it. Saul had seen it in Jared's eyes, that he'd lost the will to escape. Even without looking back Saul knew that Femus was almost to Jared. But Saul could not focus on that. Saul was focused on beating his wings. Wether he wanted to admit it or not he'd lost much of his will too. Every beat became more difficult than the last and his dishearten state would severely limit how high he could get. Time was certainly drawing near on poor Jared if he did not meet his goal. For it was only his will to save Jared that gave him his fuel. At the point when Saul had beat his wings for what he knew would be the last possible time, he let out a cry that sounded like noting any living human will ever hear. And with that it was over, with no more will or energy Saul fell back into the depths to join Jared's fate. * * * * Saul never felt Azeem catch him. Nor did he see Micheal catch Jared. Nor did he see Femus' inevitable retreat under the two giants. Saul had blacked out under all the stress. Something uncommon for his people, but it didn't matter. He did not need to see it all. For Micheal and Azeem knew they were all safe ergo Saul knew it too. Saul did however chance a glance down at Jared and Micheal, at the first chance he could. For he knew this was not over. As long as Jared's Mother was bound to the 12 forests of the lowlands Jared would be too. Just as surely as Daniel bound Saul there. Saul leaned back again. Looking a Azeem's face. He'd been right all along. Like Jared's mother Daniel did hold Saul's loyalties. And as long as they were separate Saul would be drawn there too. Azeem would never bring this up himself, but Saul knew he realized it. For there were no secrets between brothers. |