... I should just post a bunch of my IM logs up to tell my story from the summer. That'd be a whole ton easier than trying to write it all out fresh.

But then and again that's kinda against the point, isn't it? *sigh* Don't worry. I'll figure out some time to sit and tell you all of the happenings and thinkings of me from this past summer. Although probably not as deep as I've shared with some others of you alls.

Wow has it been a long time since I last updated... And I really should actually update, shouldn't I?

And I would be updating, except I want to think around the events of today (reference the Facebook if you want to make heads or tails of that) before I do.... Otherwise I'll go off before I've gotten really mellow over it all. (And trust me: The mellow is coming.)

So yeah. God is great, life is ... interesting, and I'm kinda depressed. But oh well. (Oh, and if that's not hint enough: Please pray that I keep my mind in the right spot during all this.. It's far too easy for me to go off and be pondering things that I don't need to, so thanks in advance for praying.)

That'll be all for now folks. Check back later when I start rambling about the summer and you can read yet another novel.

I've decided that I know most of you are quite clueless when it comes to my ramblings about life at the present moment, so I thought I would take the time to try and capture a bit of all that and attempt to put it to words. This is seeming like a futile attempt to me, but here it goes anyways.

What I'm desiring, longing for, yearning towards so much is not anything tangible, but rather something that cannot have value placed on it. It's a relationship, and really the person who shares in that relationship. And yet the first thoughts that come to mind with that don't seem to fit. So I'll try to explain.

What I yearn for so much is somebody to just enjoy and spend life with really. Someone to share all of what life entails and to enjoy all of God's epic awesomeness with in about a zillion different ways together. There's a lot more in that, and a lot of random thought trails all wrapped up in of it, but that seems to capture the essence of it. What it all comes down to.

So in more common terms it's marriage that I'm anxious for (big surprise, right?), and I'm still waiting for God to show who exactly "she" is. And yes, this is where all the confusion in life, or at least what I'm calling confusion in life, is coming from.

I know that was God has in store for me is infinitely better than what I can plan out as well. And it's something that I have to remind my heart of every day, or at least it sure seems like it.

Anyway all of that is tossed and looked at it all still comes down to not so much my nervous anxiety (although there is a tiny pinch of that mixed in), but my anticipatory anxiousness for what God has in store. I don't want to push faster than what He's got for me, but I know that I am eager for that day when I figure out who I get to share the rest of my life with, and all of life's adventures that follow.

And again, I just ask that you all would pray that I would not try to take this all into my own hands and that I would keep looking to God for His wisdom and that I would have patience in waiting.

Thanks in advance, and I guess that this attempt doesn't seem so futile after all.

Oh, and yes, even this summer shaping up to be an interesting one does have much to do with this.

So yeah. Today is pretty much the rockness. Yes, rockness. There is supposed to be a high of 78, it's already 70, and both of my exams are done. The only things left to do are to eat lunch at Steak 'n Shake and give a presentation in English. Oh, and then go home two hours early.

AWANA banquet is tonight at 6:30 - It shall be sweet as well. Good 'ole Baptist potluck. Chicken and meatballs along with every imaginable salad and dessert. You pretty much have to be there.

I'll start the 40 hour work weeks on Monday. It'll be nice to have a totally consistent schedule with no homework, and everybody who I'd hang out with is between Innotec and my place, so hang out time is going to [hopefully] become inevitable. Hopefully.

Alright. That's about all I can muster for now. lol Have fun all!!!

This thing will never quite pick up the way it used to be again. A lot has gone on since this past Thursday. Oh well.

Today has been a good day thus far. Nothing much by way of surprises, other than good ones. (If remembering to actually read the case study before our team meeting today is a surprise... ) I'm going to be trying to win an iPod Touch from Focus on the Family here at 3:00. I finally figured out how exactly they select the winner, and that is it is indeed based on Mountain time, so I've just gotta time this thing right and I'll be good to go.

Eye appointment tonight, and then I'm going to boogy right from there to the Jessop's place for CABS. (That is an unofficial acronym by the way. ) Nothing overly exciting.

Oh! Ken found two coupons that work nicely together now. The 30 cents off a 20oz of Vault one, and then a buy-a-20oz-Coke-product, get a Recesses cup thinger free. So if the Vault sale is still going on that will come out to 47 cents for both of those items. 37 once you take the bottle back. It makes the Dutch man in me very happy.

That seems like about enough for today. Have fun all!