tonight at intramural soccer....we won 8-1 and I scored  I have to show those boys they can pass to me.  just thought i'd share

Currently Listening Jars of Clay By Jars of Clay see related

"It is better to take refuge in the LORD than to trust in man." Ps. 118: 8

I came across this verse tonight after feeling very frustrated and discouraged.  I had to get away and just talk with God.  He gave me this verse tonight, and I really like it.  The Lord is teaching me to trust in him alone.  To turn to him first and foremost...and then use the body of Christ as a support system.  I don't look at this verse with pessimism, but with hope and conviction to go to God with all my cares and fears first.  I still trust man, but my heart will trust God first.  This is a year of learning.....and growing....

....hopefully I'll be a little taller in April...

i feel like i need to go to meetings and they would go a little something like this....

"hi, i'm jackie, and i'm sentimental, i hold on to things, i don't like change, i have a hard timing moving on, and i hate letting go."

the group would then respond with, "welcome jackie"

this year is different.  i have been sentimental, i'm holding on to the past, i hate this change, i need to move on, and i don't want to let go.  i'm very loyal, and it's time to move on.  my head says i'm done, but my heart aches.  oh my soul.  brokenness.  change.  it's all coming...

Currently Listening Clean By Shane & Shane see related

"i am a warrior temporarily assigned to kitchen duty.." for those who don't go to iwu or haven't been going to summit...we are warriors for God who have been placed on this earth and in our different jobs to win people for Christ.  what a cool concept.  no more are people telling us if we aren't going into full time ministry then we aren't impacting people for Christ.  the speaker had a former marine come on stage and talk about his experience.  the marine said that everyone in the marines is trained to be a rifleman even though he might be assigned to kitchen duty.  he also said the marine moto is to fight and win.  isn't that true of the kingdom of God.  aren't we warriors to fight and win? 

as always summit is great.  it's prolly my favorite time of the year.  it's kinda like thursday night of Reach...i pray that God will open my heart and show me what i need to change.  i pray for brokenness and a revival on campus.  it's like i'm praying for campers all over again :)

things are getting better at home.  keep praying. 

jackie

do you ever wonder how people get through life without faith? 

Right now, I feel like my world is crashing in, everyday there is something new and honestly I don't know if it can get any worse.  Home is not what it used to be.  I found out something that no daughter should ever have to know.  No one should have to deal with this.  BUT in the midst of my broken heart, my angry, my shock, my disbelief, my confusion, my saddness HE is there.  I know God is with us.  I know God can handle all of this.  I know God's timing is perfect and sometimes we don't understand.  I know God can change my dad's heart.  I know God will provide.  I know God will continue to bless us.  I know I'm not alone. 

I just don't know how people handle the worst of life without a god, without hope.  I have faith that God can  change my dad, but I don't have hope that he will change.  I couldn't imagine going through this with nothing to hold on to, nothing to draw strength from.  It baffles me. 

keep praying for my dad...and my mom....ok all magnusons.

striving for the joy of the lord,

jackie