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Name: Anne
Country: United States
State: Missouri
Metro: St. Louis
Gender: Female
Interests: Guitar!, sports, sports, sports, hangin with friends , hunting and fishing (yeah I know i'm weird) writing music, being crazy (it comes pretty naturally) being competitive, mission work, and most important Jesus Christ my personal Savior! Theres more, but I'm done typing.
Expertise: writing and playing music on my guitar, hanging out with my friends and family, and just being me
Occupation: Artist
Message: message me
Member Since:
11/21/2004
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| Wow!!I just finished writing this song a few minutes ago! I just sat down and wrote for like and hour! Praise the LORD!!! He is SOO great!
I've come to learn, once my rain has fallen I can't return it to the gray
so it feeds the vines that choke out His light from my life
and I'll never know how He could love me
to look past my faults and dig deep enough to find something He'd want
I feel so cold
and I can find no warmth in the embrace of this world
I just wish I could hear Him whisper "I'm here my love"
and feel held in His arms as they rocked me
I'd fall asleep as He sang our lullaby
all these mistakes I make just break His heart
everything I do is ends before it even starts
the spirit willing the flesh is weak
I can't defeat the dark in me
I can't escape my own faults
I just wish I could hear Him whisper "I'm here my love"
and feel held in His arms as they'd rock me
I'd fall asleep as He sang our lullaby
My child I'll always love you no matter what you become
even if you hurt me that can't change what I've done
I loved you before you were ever born
I've seen your heart bared
I'm the one who wove your soul
And you don't have to wish anymore
I'm here my love
I don't know how You could touch me knowing all that I am
But You embrace me even though I'm the one who should be broken torn apart
for all the times I break my Father's heart
He whispers
My child I'll always love you no matter what you become
even though you hurt me I won't change what I've done
I loved you long before you were born
I've seen your heart bared
I'm the one who wove your soul
and you don't have to wish anymore
I'm here I'm here
I'm here my love
There it is I hope it's not to confusing cause part of it is from my point of view and part of it is from God's. This is still REALLY rough but I wanted to put it on right away cause it just amazed me how the Lord answered my prayers about this!! And allowed me to write at least one song! I hope it brings Him glory!
~Anne
EDIT
Guys I am SO stressed right now it's not even funny! I am just upset! There is no person around right now for me to talk to and frankly I don't feel like talking to them anyway. But I have the Lord to lean on and I know that's all I really need. I just I can't even explain one second I feel so good and the next I'm just a mess! This is one of those times where I just need to cry and let it out but I can't. I wish I could explain! But it's probably better this way. Guys please pray for me! I just really feel under attack! I gotta go.
~Anne
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| Hmm I have SO much to say right now but no way to say it. I think I need an interpreter! =^D Yeah that would work great! Haha I'll have to work on that! Anyway I wish I could write a song right now. I have so many songs inside me right now, songs I wish I could get out and write. But they won't come. And that's ok with me cause I know the Lord will allow me to write them when He's ready. But even though it's ok with me it's still hard. I wrote a song on the piano but I don't have any words to go with it yet. I went to KC this weekend with My parents and Zach and Nessa. It was a ton of fun! Pretty much we just shopped the whole time! And even though I've never been big on shopping it was still a lot of fun! Well I actually have WAY more to say but I'll save it for later. I know you'll all be waiting by your computers! ;^D
Love you all
~Anne
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| Surely, I have composed and quieted my soul Have you ever stopped and let the power of the Lord wash over you and overwhelm you? You know recently my mind has just felt like a battlefield. Just like a desolate war torn place. I felt like there was a distance between me and God, like I was far away from Him, like there was something between us. It was probably the most HORRIBLE feeling I've ever felt! And I tried SO many things to shake it...but nothing seemed to work. I've been just struggling with so much stuff that has just been waging war in my head lately. Things I can only explain and express to God. But I've felt like I couldn't be used by God or like He didn't want me like I was worthless before Him. And I don't really have time to completely go into that, not to mention the fact that there is no way I could explain it. I read Psalm 119 tonight and I felt SO convicted by it! I felt SO overwhelmed I wanted to let it out! I tried to write a song about how I felt but no words would come I felt trapped. I went up to my room and fell on the floor I just cried out to the Lord for the second time in the last few days. And for the second time I felt Him teaching me something. As I sat there Psalms were filling my mind until I thought of these two passages and I my mind just stopped...
Psalm 46:10
Be still and know that I am God....
Psalm 131
O Lord my heart is not proud, nor my eyes haughty; nor do I involve myself in great matters, or in things too difficult for me. Surely I have composed and quieted my soul; like a weaned child rests against his mother, my soul is like a weaned child within me. O Israel, hope in the Lord from this time forth and forever.
I just sat there and thought about these things for a minute. Someone once explained the passage in Psalm 131 to me and I have never forgotten it. He explained that what David is saying when he talks about his soul being like a weaned child resting against his mother he's comparing our souls to the way a weaned child resting with his mom because after a child is weaned when he rests on his mother it isn't to get milk or to get something from her it is just to be comforted, to lean on his her, to be quiet and rest where it is safe. That is what I wanted. I went downstairs and put on my coat and went outside it has been pouring down rain all day at our house and the creek has risen really high so when I stepped outside it was completely quiet except for the sound of the creek behind our house rushing I stood and listened it made me think of Gods power. I was in awe just listening! Then I stood before the Lord and poured my heart out! I told Him all the things that I've been struggling with and how I've felt I told Him that I realize how weak I am that I can't even stand on my own that I wanted to reach out and touch others for Him but that I couldn't do it with my own strength I told Him all that was on my heart and that I was going to let go, to be still and know that He was God! It was just an amazing feeling! While I stood there and cried and gave everything to the Lord all that distance that I felt before, all the feelings of having that war in my head just melted away before God and His power. And I just rested in him like a weaned child. God is just amazing! His love is incredible!! When I rest in Him I am safe, I am complete, I am at peace! He is SO amazing and SO worthy of praise!
The amazing love of the Lord has just stood out to me SO much in my reading lately! Look at these passages!
Deuteronomy 32:10-12
He found him in a desert land, And in the howling waste of the wilderness; He encircled him, He cared for him, He guarded him as the pupil of his eye. Like an eagle that stirs up its nest, that hovers over its young, He spread His wings and caught them, He carried them on His pinions. The Lord alone guided him, and there was no foreign God with him.
Isn't that just an AWESOME picture! The yesterday I was walking through the woods (yeah I randomly walk through the woods) and I saw a hawk flying above me and it made me think of this passage and ow the Lord carries us on His pinions! It's just SOO cool!
Jeremiah 31:3
The Lord appeared to him from afar, saying, I have loved you with an everlasting love; therefore I have drawn you with lovingkindness.
He has loved ME with an everlasting love! ME! Why ME?! It's just crazy! Anyway I'm SUPER excited!
Well I had a WHOLE lot more to say but I have to get to bed so I can wake up for church! So I will update this as soon as I can and put the rest of my post up! So if you wanna read the rest just check back on my site later! I guess I'll talk to all of you later! Love you all!
~Anne
Psalm 73:28
But as for me the nearness of God is my good; I have made the Lord God my refuge, that I may tell of all your works.
PS
This song that I'm listening to is AWESOME!
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| You hold my broken soul and suddenly I know I'm whole Ok so I've got some stuff that I want to talk about that has just been going around in my head for the last three days. I've been having a hard time with some stuff and just struggling with some things. And I'd really like to explain it all but I can't! I really just don't know how and I don't want anyone reading this to think that I'm extremely depressed or always complaining or something cause when I write on here a lot of the time, all I seem to be saying is that I'm struggling. But that's just cause I write more when things are bothering me. Anyways the Lord has been teaching me SO much just in the last week especially today and yesterday (actually since if it's gonna be past midnight when I post this then it would be yesterday and the day before)! But anyway Satan has been going after me with some stuff recently and it has really been getting to me!! But then I read this awesome verse yesterday and I was thinking about it all day here it is
Psalm 34:18
The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
I was thinking about it and thinking about it. You know when I'm struggling and when I'm hurting is when I'm closest to the Lord! And I was thinking about and I realized how WORTH IT it is to be broken hearted just to be brought closer to the Lord! Even if I'm torn apart, crushed, broken, and crawling if it brings me nearer to the love of my life than it is SO worth it no matter how much it hurts at the time! Sometimes I want SO much to just know why I'm struggling and then I read this and I realize that it doesn't even matter! I wonder if someday when we get to heaven the Lord will show us what He did through the hardships we went through, the people He affected through us, the way He changed us and shaped us into what He wanted us to be and made us stronger and closer to Him. I was just thinking and I realized how nothing in this world matters I'm a stranger I'm an alien I'm an outcast this world isn't my home! My home is with my Savior and someday He's gonna wipe away all my tears and all the things that have ever hurt me and hold me close and that is worth EVERY and ANY hardship I could possibly face! My God is Amazing and I love Him SO much!
Well I just felt like posting there are a bunch of other cool verses that I found today that I would post but I have to go to bed so I guess I'll put them up later. Anyway Thanks for reading! I love you all let me know if there's anything I can pray for! I'll talk to all of you later! Btw Lyd an email is on the way! Love to all!
~Anne
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| "You consume me, moving through me, like a burning flame running through my veins" SO this week has been interesting I "pushed someone down the stairs",
played guitar with Robert, literally, (That feels really weird to just
strum and not do the chords, by the way, but it was fun stuff!) and of
course I dressed up like a bat! Beeeecausssse why? ;^D Haha fun stuff!
But this week has been fun!
Impact was really good! I got a chance to share my testimony! I didn't
feel like I did very well cause I was SO nervous but the Lord kept
reminding me that He can use it anyway and that His strength is made
perfect in my weakness! But it was really exciting to just be able to
share about how I met my best friend, Jesus Christ!!!
Ok so the last couple Tuesdays I've been having a hard time with stuff
and felt kinda out of it. So last night I was having a hard time with
some stuff and I had a headache and I was doing bad in the sports and
stuff anyway cause I was thinking about other stuff so I went out into
the hallway and I got out my Bible and I turned to Psalms and I was
gonna read Psalm 118 cause that is one that always is an encouragement
to me, but as I was turning there this chapter just grabbed my
attention so I started reading and it was like the Lord was speaking
directly to me
Psalm 139 1 O LORD, You have searched me and known {me.} 2 You know when I sit down and when I rise up; You understand my thought from afar. 3 You scrutinize my path and my lying down, And are intimately acquainted with all my ways. 4 Even before there is a word on my tongue, Behold, O LORD, You know it all. 5 You have enclosed me behind and before, And laid Your hand upon me. 6 {Such} knowledge is too wonderful for me; It is {too} high, I cannot attain to it. 7 Where can I go from Your Spirit? Or where can I flee from Your presence? 8 If I ascend to heaven, You are there; If I make my bed in Sheol, behold, You are there. 9 If I take the wings of the dawn, If I dwell in the remotest part of the sea, 10 Even there Your hand will lead me, And Your right hand will lay hold of me. 11 If I say, "Surely the darkness will overwhelm me, And the light around me will be night," 12 Even the darkness is not dark to You, And the night is as bright as the day. Darkness and light are alike {to You.} 13 For You formed my inward parts; You wove me in my mother's womb. 14 I will give thanks to You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Wonderful are Your works, And my soul knows it very well. 15 My frame was not hidden from You, When I was made in secret, {And} skillfully wrought in the depths of the earth; 16 Your eyes have seen my unformed substance; And in Your book were all written The days that were ordained {for me,} When as yet there was not one of them. 17 How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God! How vast is the sum of them! 18 If I should count them, they would outnumber the sand. When I awake, I am still with You. 19 O that You would slay the wicked, O God; Depart from me, therefore, men of bloodshed. 20 For they speak against You wickedly, And Your enemies take {Your name} in vain. 21 Do I not hate those who hate You, O LORD? And do I not loathe those who rise up against You? 22 I hate them with the utmost hatred; They have become my enemies. 23 Search me, O God, and know my heart; Try me and know my anxious thoughts; 24 And see if there be any hurtful way in me, And lead me in the everlasting way. A couple weeks ago I read this chapter and I asked the Lord to try me and know my anxious thoughts and see if there was any hurtful way in me. When I sat there and read this it hit me, that was exactly what He was doing!!! It was amazing! It was just so encouraging to know that the Lord has enclosed me behind and before me and laid His hand on me that He understands my thoughts from afar and that before I even have a word on my tongue He knows it all! I felt SO awesome!!! I wanted to sing to the Lord! Which I did! It's just amazing the way the Lord provides for/comforts us in times of need! I love Him SOOO much! Here is an AWESOME passage!! Psalm 62:5-8
My soul wait in silence for God only, for my hope is from Him. He only is my rock and my salvation, my stronghold; I shall not be shaken. On God my salvation and my glory rest; the rock of my strength, my refuge is in God. Trust in Him at all times, O people; pour out your heart before Him; God is a refuge for us. Well how was everyone's Christmas? Mine was good! It was fun seeing family and everything! I got a really nice camera for Christmas from my mom and dad so I'm gonna put some pictures up soon but not right now! Well I guess I'll get going! Love to all! ~Anne
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