its hard to deal with these emotions running through my head what the hell is up with them i can't do anything why the hell can't i escape like they just keep tourturing me i can't take it the one i care about i can't have for she went back to her ex who she that if he screws up again i might have a chance but i can't i won't mess with them for as long as she happy im happy for her but right now i can't just ignure her for it wouldn't be right to let her now i'm hurt because she'll feel sorry when its not her fault it was a mutual thing that will keep bothering me until i talk to her again you see but when will she see the love i have for thee. it just seems that what i did was wrong for i never should have kissed her for i knew the consiquence of my actions there wasn't an once of suspence but what can i do to change that i would if i could only go back which i can't do don't know why for every time i think about it i just want to curl up in a ball with a bottle and a gun just to end all the sufering of one. then i gotta think about all the people i would hurt it isn't right for me to act like a jerk for it just ain't me thats suffering you see it is her too for she still feels as if its her fault that i fell for her i just can't take it any more she has to know why for if she don't all she will do is cry because she'll blame herself for hurting her friend what can i do i'm lost and i got to let her know before she cryies any more i can't let her emotions explode.