dead end

somethings in life cannot be changed, no matter how much you would want it to be, there is nothing you can do.

others you could, but you are too lazy, too tired, too insensitive, too busy to fucking make a change. so what happens, you sit back and watch it slip away.. slip away into the dark, disappearing, perhaps that's the last time you'll ever see it.

but you know what? fuck it!

sometimes things are the way they are, just let it be.

i'm pmsing so fucking much. wth?

when the music is gone, the laughter stopped, and no one else here, i still ponder. that'll never be forgotten.  

shit, i hate headaches!

i wanna swim in the deep blue ocean, drink coconut milk, and look fucking fabulous~ yup, it's time to dream

wow.. it's been a while since i chanted  over xanga.. and right now it sounds like a perfect idea over preparing for my spanish presentation. last week was the week of hell, and somehow i survived, or did i? wait till i find out the exam results. hahaah...  life is soo unfair..

o well.. course registration is approaching, thanxgiving break is coming up, then before we know it, 1st 1/2 of soph year is over. wah.. that's life..

i feel so isolated this year. i barely know anybody new in the crowd, losing contact with friends, not trying hard to reconnect, and will be seeing a few of my close pals off to germany..  

fine, i will be hermit. is that how you spell the word? i have lost my ability to speak and write english.. and i did not smoke pot. maybe i should.

okay, this is the most meaningless entry ever, just an outlet of procrastination for me at 1:27 am, while i must present my crappy noticias to the spanish 111 class tmr at 10, that is if i wake up on time.

i used to have feelings, i guess now i don't. or i'm jus too lazy to write them down on xanga.