It seems that I am asked this so often lately.

"Nate what are you going to do with your life?"

Just because I haven't found what I'm looking for or maybe even haven't decided what I'm looking for or maybe not even looking. It seems if you don't have a plan then you aren't doing anything with your life at all. I'm getting sick of this judgement on my life from other people. Very few of the people who ask me this with contempt aren't even doing what they want to do. They sold out, maybe because of pressure other put on them or because of certain circumstances. Maybe they feel like its time I settle and sellout. Maybe this will make them feel better about themselves?

There are the few who ask the question not with contempt but with genuine caring. These are those people who have found what they wanted and are doing it and loving it. They want me to share in it with them they ask to make sure I'm not settling, not selling out. To these friends I thank you. You keep me going.

So back to the question "What am I going to do with my life?"

My life is not mine. I have given it over to Jesus to do with it as He sees fit. I have placed no restriction on Him in this matter... (not any that i realize at this moment anyway.)

And He knows the plans He has for me.

And His timing is perfect

And He takes care of the birds and the fish.

And He takes care of me.

It is hard enough to turn your life over to Christ. To tell yourself these things and believe them. That is hard. What is even harder is when you try to explain it to other people. These people just don't get it and they won't except that and won't let up until you see that you are wrong and wasting you time and not making the money you could be making and not conforming to their standards. And these are not the people you would think that this concept would be so hard to. These are people who "believe" the same things you do. Who put their money in the plate and go about their lifes. But when it comes to actually affecting life here and now and immdiately they want to panic or panic for you and take control.

So I wait. It's getting harder and harder. I have been given no clear direction. No goals. So I go through the motions. I take the next step when it is shown. Forty years in a desert. God provided exactly what was needed at exactly the right time. No more, No less. When the cloud moved His people followed.

What am I going to do with my life?

I'm going to live it...but not on your terms.