foolish heart looks like we're here again
same old game of plastic smile
don't let anybody in
hiding my heartache, will this glass house break
how much will they take before i'm empty
do i even let it show, does anybody know?

but you see the real me
hiding in my skin, broken from within
unveil me completely
i'm loosening my grasp
there's no need to mask my frailty
cause you see the real me

painted on, life is behind the mask
self-inflicted circus clown
i'm tired of the song and dance
living a charade, always on parade
what a mess i've made of my existence
but you love me even now
and still i see somehow

wonderful, beautiful is what you see
when you look at me
you're turning the tattered fabric of my life into
a perfect tapestry
i just wanna be me

but you see the real me
hiding in my skin, broken from within
unveil me completely
i'm loosening my grasp
there's no need to mask my frailty
cause you see the real me

and you love me just as i am

wonderful, beautiful is what you see
when you look at me

i didn't realize until last night that craig would be here next week!
I'm really excited about seeing him again. Kyle's coming too so maybe we can drink a long lunch at El Charro.

tuesday i drove down to OKC to see a friend!
Wed i toured uco, had lunch with Samantha and got her lost in OKC, apartment shopped, dinner with jennifer and she gave me a little tour of the science building, and went to a greek week stomp thing with Jen. I found some really nice apartments and some really cool places to live. I really like Edmond so i'm excited about moving up there. I have found the place i'm convinced that i'm moving in to but i guess we will see!

this is a pic of one of the apartments!

i'm just worried about someone taking care of my mom.
hopefully she will be better by then.

Easter is almost here!
its my favorite holiday!
I'm excited Easter sunday!

these are lyrics to my new favorite song
Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking
When you fall everyone stands
Another day and you've had your fill of sinking
With the life held in your
Hands are shaking cold
These hands are meant to hold

So a day when you've lost yourself completely
Could be a night when your life ends
Such a heart that will lead you to deceiving
All the pain held in your
Hands are shaking cold
Your hands are mine to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through

thats all!

spring break was good.
i had a friend stay for most of the week!

kyle just moved to dallas!
its wierd that hes gone!
we didn't hang out much lately but its still wierd!

i dislike people with big-mouths
or more less people who talk for attention!
you confide because you trust them and want to maintain trust.
i would rather have no friends than friends i can't trust.

i'm about to go to the doctor!
my eye is almost completely swollen shut!
i'm having a really bad allergy attack!

i saw failure to launch saturday!
it was an alright movie.

thats all

i got home from OKC in time to go to work!!!

i had another kidney stone attack today!
I go for my tests tomorrow- thank god!
i love these percocets cause they kill the pain
i think they are making me really sick and tired.

i'm almost to the two year mark with this xanga.
i think i'm ready to shut it down.
i don't like blogging anymore.

this morning i had my third kidney stone in two days!
I'm still sick from the first stone two weeks ago!
I'm seeing a urologist this week!
they think i have a huge kidney stone and that pieces are breaking off and trying to pass which is why i'm havinng them so often!

i'm on percocets and i'm so loopy!
i had to call in to work today and i'm so pissed!
thats probably my second or third time ever calling in!
I just feel so guilty!

my mom's getting worse also! pray for her!

kaniowah and i have been working out!
we are hardcore!
we also watched part of rent. i love it!

thats all!