So i've been pondering what life is really all about.  Its hard to live like you know you should, when the way of the world is pooring into your head..via your eyes, ears...and just everything around you.  Its hard to realize that God is right there when satan is telling you that he isnt and that you've gone to far and its too late.  So what do you do?? I guess you just have to keep pressing on.  There is a good verse in galatians chapter 6 verse 9....it says bascially in a round about way to keep doing good and dont give up b/c at the proper time everything will work out.  Thats the verse of my life.  Sometimes you get off track but the beauty of our God is that he is even closer when we try to push him away.  He loves us so much b/c he created us. 

So sooner or later big decisions come our way....we always want them when they arent here, but boy when they get here we want them to go away and to not have to worry about it.  Its crazy when you feel like you are making the right decision and then when it gets close you almost feel like its the wrong one.  Then you are stuck in the middle not knowing what to do.  You can pray and pray and pray and it feels like...well in my case...that God just isnt helping me at all and i have to do it on my own.  But ive come to realize that me thinking i have to do it on my own really isnt God pushing me away...its me just wanting to do it on my own. If i would really just give it all to God, the stress would be soo much easier to deal with if there is any stress at all.  But when i try and give it to God i just feel empty...i dont know what the deal is.  Maybe i am just hanging on to something....maybe i just need to lay everything down at his feet and not just one thing.  If i just try and give him the big things in life and keep the small things and the stuff that i think i can deal with on my own or even the stuff i dont want to get rid of....then things might change.  But until then im just going to feel further and further away from God.  So how do you go about making a change like this.  All i know to do is get in the word and pray more and more.  You just have to make time to do it...whether is good for you or not.  If you make time for God then he'll make time for everything else in your day. But what if you seriously just dont have time to make time....i guess thats just when you get up a little earlier.  I think it all starts with that. I've always been a huge believer in the fact that communication is the key to any relationship.  Just like any relationship...you relationship with God is the same...to make it grow you have to communicate.  So i guess the real meaning of life is communication with the one who created you. Then everything will seem to fall right into place.  Its the basics...everything in life has basics and to get good at something you have to be good at the basics. If you are away from something for a while...you have to refresh yourself with the basics.  In our walks we have to always stay fresh with the basics or we will find ourselves slowly but surely slipping away...and before you know it...you wonder how you got this far away and how to get back....and you eventually wonder what the true meaning of life is.

I only have one more final!! its in less than an hour too.  Im excited.  Summer is finally here.  I just got hired at hibbetts sports so i'll be working there this summer, and i'll also be working at the wellness center. So it should be a good summer.  I got my hair cut yesterday....its pretty short, but i like it.  My hair was getting pretty long. When they were cutting it, it just seemed to keep falling and falling off. There was alot more there than it looked like. Ive already moved quite a bit of stuff back to my house....i only have a few things left, i think im gunna try to get the rest today....well most of it at least.  Well im gunna go get some breakfast, gotta have that brainfood.  later.

Currently Playing No More Doubt [Bonus Track] By Stephen Speaks see related

So i had a great weekend.  Island Party was awesome.  I got to see alot of really good bands.  I got to spend the weekend with bridget....which might i add was the best part.  But it was a really fun weekend overall.  Im really really really ready for this week to be over.  Its my last week of classes.  Finals week wont be too hard luckily. Then its the summer....which is freakin awesome.  I have soo much reading i have to do tonight...but it seems like im just finding more and more things to do instead of it...ha...its great.  But i better get to finding more things before i run out and have to read!