Cooking For Myself

 At first I had a problem, I started thinking...It's only for me, why go to alot of trouble?...WHY?????

                                                   BECAUSE...

I am worth it.

I need nourishment.

I need to eat healthy.

I am healing myself.

I love to cook.

It's my passion.

                                                    COOKING FOR ME...

Builds my self esteem.

Allows me to make what I like.

I please myself.

I enjoy eating good food.

This is phase one of my "SELF-SHIP".

It is not about having to do everything for myself, but rather "wanting to" take care of and love myself. I am getting back on track by activating and demonstrating self-love.

Trees

 Trees are poems that Earth writes upon the

                                                                                                       sky,

                                                                                                       We fell them down and turn them into paper,

                                                                                                        That we may record our emptiness.

                                                                                                                 Kahlil Gibran

          Except for the nine months before he draws his first breath,

           No man manages his affairs

           As well as a tree does..... George Bernard Shaw

What do you most want to change about your life?

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Rational "Eyes"

I have discovered in my recovery process that life and your personal outlook on life, are based on choices. I believe that my "Higher Power" gives me free will to choose to be positive or negative. You can control your thinking!!!!! Your thinking controls your emotions!!! Tell yourself, "I choose how I think and my thoughts guide my emotions." Do not let your emotions manipulate you. A key point to remember is---every feeling is temporary. Like time they pass.

You have free will to make the choices that govern your life! You can choose to live in the truth, that choice will provide freedom. Focus on the facts, not your feelings. If our focus is on how we feel and not reality, then we are using emotional reasoning. This is self-destructive behavior. You want to live in the truth; feelings aren't always true. Feelings are not facts, they can be highly unreliable and inflammatory.

A second key point is-learning to embrace our mistakes, not as failures, but rather as valuable tools. These are our lessons to show us the way to the truth. We choose to learn and grow, and choose not to repeat the same behaviors that caused us negative consequences.

Choosing to be happy, making the conscience decision to be truthful, will provide you with inner peace. Your behavior and attitude will reflect whatever choice may be. You will soon "REAL EYES" your outlook on life will be much improved. Even in crisis, you will be able to tolerate and accept things as they are, not as you would like them to be. You will be able to welcome change as an opportunity for growth. You will bend not break!

Let go in faith. Believe and you will be renewed! You will become a humble, gracious, and serene entity! One last thought: With every choice you make there is always a consequence.

Long Time No Posts!!!!!!

Hey ya'll I am in my own apt!!!!! I got my PC hooked up!!! All except the printer. It wont print it says it is in queue???HUH!!!!! Could somebody help a sister out???!!!

 Anyway, I am still sober!!! Plan on staying that way one day at a time! Now I am not one for dogma. Lord knows, but these Catholics hooked me up. I have my own 1 bedroom apartment for 420.00 a month, it is subsidized based on my income. I can live here the rest of my life as long as I follow the rules. The main one NO DRINKING OR DRUGGING I never want to live out of the sewer again, so clean I will stay!!!!Where in NJ can you get a nice respectable apt for this price????? I cant move anyone in here, unless it is my minor children, so no dysfunctional relationships can bite me in the butt!!!!! I am positive and I believe I am going to be OK. I am able to do things I thought impossible. Like... without the alcoholic bloat, I have lost over 120lbs and have kept it off for over a year. I eat whatever I want, but I walk everyday. One weekend I walked over 20 miles I had over 20,000 steps counted on my pedometer!!!!Walking clears my mind and puts me in touch with my higher power. I colllect refuse along the roadside and I am a new found environmentalist!!!!! I love this planet, I am going to do my part in keeping it clean. I am not even wearing an orange jumpsuit this time!!! I have peace, it is a condition that is not emotional, ie, not temporary. My peace stays with me even on my bad days. I just remind myself that everything is temporary. We are so limited here by time and space, but when it is my time to surrender and fly, I am ready, and with a clear head too!!!!!!!! I will be around catching up with all of you. Does anyone know whatever happened to John Moseley???? I miss him sometimes!!!! He is a very deep man and when I was fortunate to have had him and his family in my life I was incapable of appreciating them. 

Farewell for Now, I have some good stuff lined up for this blog so stay tuned!!!!! Namaste, Diane