Just wanted to update you all of what God is doing in my life.. He opened the door for me to go into a 10 month missions/ministry discipleship Internship Bible College Program, where I will be going on 2 mission trips next year, one to Ottawa in March, and one to Peru in May. Please pray that God will provide for all my needs, finances, housing. Thank you and God bless. I start next Wednesday, September 17th. God bless you all.. Love you all brothers and sisters.. Your Sister in Christ, Joy

Back in January 2004, I listened to a sermon on a CD titled, "What does it means to follow God?" by David Wilkerson. The following are my notes, that I took, of what I learned from one of the most powerful sermons I've ever heard in my life.

As soon as I was listening, God just broke me so much, that the brokeness just came so supernaturally. It was just the power of God that was putting a deep burden in my heart for the church. God wants to move and do something new. (John 15-18-19).  You don't have anyone bothering you, when you only share salvation of Jesus like drug addicts coming to Jesus, but when you start preaching of sin in the church and prophecy, people will hate you and run away. If you're going to go all the way with Jesus, you're going to pay the price. There are 4 things that will happen to you when you go all the way with God: (1) Rejection (2) Cast Out (3) Stoned (4) Reward.

(1) Rejection - One of the best ways to loose friends and be rejected is going all the way with Jesus!  "You commit adultery on Jesus, if you look at something lustfully on TV, or even looking at anything that is in this world, with lust." Jesus said, "Whoever looks at a person, with lust, they have committed adultery with them in their heart."  Also Jesus said, "If the world hates you, keep in mind that it hated ME first. If you belong to the world, it would love you as its own. At it is, you do not belong to this world, BUT I HAVE CHOSEN YOU OUT OF THIS WORLD. That is why the world hates you."  The truth sets you free from dead churches and dead preachers.  It sets you free from thinking that the preaching of truth isn't love.  The truth will expose all the sins of each person. (2 Thessalonians 2:8-12). There are multitudes of Christians today, who don't have the love of the truth. Those who reject you, when you're on fire, God is going to strike them then and there, to bring them to their hands and knees in REPENTANCE. Purify and sanctify Your Church God! Your stand for truth and righteousness is a threat to those who are rejecting the truth.  We will suffer as Jesus suffered. Beware! Of false prophets and teachers, who speak of another Jesus.

(2) Cast Out - They will cast you out of the synagogues. "Why can't it happen to the church of Jesus Christ?" You say, "How can I have been blind for so long?"  God wants us to have a burning desire for the church. Thank God, I was BLIND, but now I SEE! If you got to go all the way with God, you got to prepare for God's reproach (Psalm 69). They are leaders of the church that are backslidden. It's favor for your faith. If you're in a church that's lukewarm, you need to leave cause its dangerous to stay.  In no way, you can change anything. Babylonian Church and the Church of Jesus Christ.

(3) Stoned - You will be stoned by the church (Acts 7:54-57). These are the leaders of the church. you claimed to preach the word, but you don't keep it. This is a stiff-necked people, they are still carnal Christians. The true person of Jesus Christ, will be abused verbally by the lukewarm Christian. We will be stoned by our families and relatives, when we're on FIRE for GOD! (Numbers 14:6-10). When we get so on FIRE for GOD, the carnal church (Babylonian Church) will stone us. When they stone us, we shouldn't be answering back. Bless rather than curse. You're being persecuted, rejected, cast out, and stoned, because you're so on FIRE for GOD! Being double-minded, is when you have idolatry in your heart. Pray for those who use you without reason. BE SLOW TO SPEAK, QUICK TO LISTEN. DO NOT FIGHT BACK, BUT GO TO GOD IN PRAYER. WE DON'T HAVE TO DEFEND OURSELVES.

(4) Reward - Acts 23:10 - If God is for us, who can be against us? If we're walking with God with everything that have and are.

JANUARY 11, 2004

As I was sitting in the hospital, I go to hold Asher in my arms, and he's so tiny. As I was sitting down I began telling Asher, "You're a true gift from God, you're a miracle. You're going to be a preacher of the word like your daddy. As I was holding Asher, I was quoting Jeremiah 29:11. For about 20 minutes as I was looking down at Asher, there were tears in my eyes, for it aches me so much to look at a child, cause God has put that burden in my heart to love children and to see them grow up as Godly men and women. Whenever I hold a baby or a little child in my arms, I have so much in my heart of hearts, love and compassion for that child. Its the same way, God is toward me as his daughter, He has so much love and compassion for me, that He longs to see me grow up to be mature godly woman that he desires for me to be. It burdens and grieves his heart, when one of His children turns their back on him and goes after things of this world. It breaks his heart, that he weeps and wails over the sins of his CHURCH!