| Hello Xanga world!!! I've been meaning to write in this thing for a while....a long while. No I really think I'm gonna start using this thing more often. There's just been a lot on my mind...and I'm not really good at getting my feelings out...so I guess this is one way. and is it just me or has facebook gotten boring? yah. it's me. i mean, I cant even stalk correctly, I'm too lazy to do it! I like how xanga delivers me the posts right to my email, I mean it just doesnt get easier than that. So 1.5 years of med school done..not too bad, but there have been moments when I just had no idea what I was doing here. Sometimes I feel like I stumbled onto this profession by accident, and other times, i just think I shouldn't be here at all. Ok, there are those few moments I feel so proud of myself and realize that I have the potential to be the type of doctor I want to be....but so many things that just get in the way of you simply wanting to do your best. ahhh , there will be plenty of me whining about med school so let's just hold off on that for now. I've been thinking about this war..sorry, I mean, conflict ..A LOT. I realized a long time ago that adults are just us kids but bigger. And yes, I still think of myself as a "kid"...what ? grown-up??? me , no! never! I will admit at first I supported the war. My initial reaction was to just bomb every place osama could be. But that was due to anger, and that's why I am not president....because things like this should have some amount of rational thought and discussion behind it...right? again, I overestimated these "adults". Invading Afghanistan was and is correct. The Taliban needed to be brought down. I mean the atrocities they forced upon the women in that country. Ridiculous! It made me so angry when I researched them for a paper I had to write in high school. But then we went to Iraq...and we called it "Shock and Awe"....awe???? do they understand what that means? what was there to be in awe of??????? it was at that moment, I felt a lil quesy to my stomach. This just didnt feel right. Why am I going to sit and watch you bomb random innocent civilians? What in the world do you think I could gain from seeing this?? Besides the fact realizing that maybe this was a mistake. Maybe some guy trying to prove his masculinity has just killed hundreds of innocent people and put thousands of brave soldiers' lives in peril ... I hate Dick Cheney...my goodness the Devil Incarnate....just watch him, watch the way he talks. It makes me so angry when I watch his interviews. I feel he uses fear to make the American people think that what they do is right. kinda like how many pastors use fear of God to make people submit to their human wills, and not the will of God. I know a lot of this probably doesnt make sense....it comes from a compilation of 10 million other thoughts. but it's a start. If I make another post this week, it shall be a miracle. But I will surely try. take care |
and then if another person gets paged later, they wont look at it, even though earlier they had checked when it WASNT their page. weirdos.