Oh Xanga, how I missed you so. I know that I have treated you like some little bastard stepchild, but thats OK. I promise to no longer disown you for months at a time. Work at J.Crew is going well as always. Scored some pretty rad deals on a few select pieces that I have had my eyes on for a while. Suede driving shoes for $14.99? Check. Henley? $7.99 baby. Boocut jeans? $9.99 doll. It's pretty fierce. So about the getting out of here thing.... I have a few deals that I'm trying to work out with a few shipping companies. The main holdups are how long do I want to go to sea for: 1 week? 3 weeks? 3 months? The pay with each is decent, so its going to boil down to who has better benefits and such. We'll see. I'll stay with the catering and such over the summer, especially since its fun and I can shape my schedual around whatever I please. And now... May I take a moment to vent about the gay community: It really does suck. And not in the way that you're thinking. I find lately that with most gay men are like a buffet. Ok, fine. I won't even call it a buffet, because that's like calling a Daewoo a Bentley. Ok, its more like the feed trough at Ponderosa. It boils down to: ~ financialy stable
~ educated
~ has a car
~ faithful
~ employed
Choose two. Enough about that drivil. But what happened to people being goal oriented? Wanting to make something of their life? Have an impact on the world? Motivation? Some people I know have never heard of it. I think this rant comes from people I see very often stuck in dead-end jobs, dead-end lifestyles and dead-end relationships, tragically spinning their wheels and churning through the gears at a frantic pace... Only to find that suddenly they have run out of gas. So they settle. I refuse to settle. If anything, the past few months have been such an eye-opener for me in so many dynamic ways that I have a new perspective on many facets of my life. Thank god for that. I'm not whining about this whole observation. I have Norton Anti-whine 2007, and its pretty damn effective. | 
