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Tuesday, October 07, 2008

Tue, 07 Oct 2008 02:26:31 GMT

It is I Who respects them, but it is also I Who weeps for them! It is I Who has the treasures of life & wishes them to overflow on to you.
It begins with gratitude... being grateful, and searching for your inner gifts. My people will never be happy if the continue to search for gifts of momentary pleasure.
-God

Monday, October 06, 2008

Mon, 06 Oct 2008 00:07:07 GMT

I'm tired & only wish to fall asleep in your arms.

Sunday, October 05, 2008

Sun, 05 Oct 2008 00:01:28 GMT

Faith: Surrendering with trust.

Saturday, October 04, 2008

Sat, 04 Oct 2008 17:53:43 GMT

Wendy: Once upon a time there was a boy named Peter Pan, who decided not to grow up.
Hook:Skip the prologue
Wendy: So he flew away to Neverland where the pirates are.
Hook: What fun he must have had.
Wendy: Yes but he was rather lonely.
Hook:Lonely? He needed a Wendy.
Pirate: I need a Wendy.
Hook: Why a Wendy?
Wendy: He liked my stories.
Hook: What stories?
Wendy: nderella, Snow White, Sleeping Beauty.
Hook: Love stories?
Wendy: Adventures! In which good triumphs over evil!
Hook: They all end in a kiss.
Wendy: gasps
Hook: A kiss. He does feel! He feels about you.
Hook: She told him stories. He taught her to fly. How?
Wendy:You just think happy thoughts. They lift you into the air.
Hook: Alas, I have no happy thoughts.
Wendy: That brings you down!

Tinkerbell: You know that place between sleep and awake, the place where you can still remember dreaming? That's where I'll always love you, Peter Pan. That's where I'll be waiting.

Wendy: Oh, How sweet.
[Peter looks disgusted]
Wendy: What? Are mermaids not sweet?
Peter: They'll sweetly drown you if you get too close

When the first baby laughed for the first time, its laugh broke into a thousand pieces, and they all went skipping about, and that was the beginning of fairies.

Saturday, October 04, 2008

Sat, 04 Oct 2008 04:31:07 GMT

"To die would be an awfully great adventure." - Peter Pan

The heart is singing in the pseudo-freedom it believes in. The world is crashing, but the heart is continuing.
Never has it deemed it self more free. jump_4jesus

Done pretending. Moving forward with reality. That’s how it was meant to be. Forgiveness for getting caught in the bog on one’s own soul is possible. Can the love of humanity return to the darkness of the self?jump_4jesus

Good morning dear one. Your heart has been breaking. The broom is in the corner. Sweep back & forth. Here are the pieces now shimmering in the Light. Has anyone told you how courageous you are?jump_4jesus

Giving to you was like breath in the lungs. Gasping for hope, it was what you needed. Slowly now, keep holding on, you are strong. The color is returning to your cyanotic face. Does your heart hurt? I could never know, unless you speak. Rest you eyes & allow your dreams to carry you away. Perhaps tomorrow, perhaps…
jump_4jesus

But something told me to run
And honey you know me it's all or none

'Cos I dont know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should

And I won't be far from where you are if ever you should call
You meant more to me than anyone I ever loved at all
But you taught me how to trust myself and so I say to you
This is what I have to do

"You know what's wrong with you, Miss Whoever-you-are? You're chicken, you've got no guts. You're afraid to stick out your chin and say, 'Okay, life's a fact, people do fall in love, people do belong to each other, because that's the only chance anybody's got for real happiness.' You call yourself a free spirit, a 'wild thing,' and you're terrified somebody's gonna stick you in a cage. Well baby, you're already in that cage. You built it yourself. And it's not bounded in the west by Tulip, Texas, or in the east by Somali-land. It's wherever you go. Because no matter where you run, you just end up running into yourself." - Breakfast at Tiffany's
:)

Truth is I'm done pretending

Thursday, October 02, 2008

Thu, 02 Oct 2008 04:34:27 GMT

I don't want you to know who I am.
Who I am hates who I've been.
& I'm afraid that you'll feel the same.

Unless I get myself together
we will keep falling apart.
jump_4jesus

This page starts to fill with words about how I feel about you. Cliche sentences with the occassional "I miss you" But, don't get too excited. I just needed something to write about. Don't smile and think you're oh so important. Truth is, people like reading about tradgedy.

Slowly breathing, his heart keeps beating.
He's still believing.
Jump_4jesus

Hey baby, is that you?
Wow your hair got so long; yeah yeah, i love it, i really do.
-These Days; Rascal Flatts

It's nice talking to you. It's nice spilling my heart out when all of my life I've hidden from the world. It's really nice talking to you because the truth is that I've started to hide from myself lately. It's nice talking to you even if you're not really listening.

5. sometimes all you can do is not think. not wonder, not obsess. not imagine, just breathe. breathe in, breathe out. everything works out in the end, and the more you worry about it the longer it's going to take for things to end perfectly.

8. Dont hurt her, Dont tell her she needs to change, Love her for who she is. Smile when she makes you smile, And yell when she makes you mad, Just dont confuse her, Because mixed signals are no foundation for a relationship.

. “I miss you most when I'm driving alone and that song comes on the radio. You know, the one you always used to sing to me, no matter how much grief I gave you. You always sang it and I always smiled.”

could i push rewind? the credits traverse, signifying the end but i missed the best part could we please go back to the start?

I feel comfortable around you. When I was with you, I didn't have to be perfect, I didn't even have to try for perfect. You already knew all of my secrets, The things I kept hidden from everyone else. So I Was able to finally just be myself. Which probably shouldn't have been such a big deal, But It was.

I hate you for leading me on; I hate you for making me fall for you; I hate you for being perfect in my eyes; I hate you for knowing what to say, every time; I hate you for trying to spend time with me; I hate you for making me want you; I can't you for letting me go, when you knew i wanted to stay.

He's my superhero, my one and only, my knight in shining armor, my boyfriend, my lover, my support, my antidrug, my reason to wake up, my voice to fall asleep to, my wonderful, amazing, goregous, fantastic, loving, memory making, soul mate.

Her faith is amazing
The pain that she goes through contained in the hope for you
Your whole world has changed
The years spent before seem more cloudy than blue

I was her she was me
We were one we were free
If there's somebody calling me on
She's the one

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Tue, 30 Sep 2008 20:21:48 GMT

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As the summer fades into autumn
The truth of the past begins to settle
Leafs change, like the heart.
Amber & hues of burgandy fill the air.

They shed & fall into a trance, becoming one with the Earth
The truth about one's yesterdays will resurface with spring.
New leafs will come.
Until then the tree sleeps in the quiet of the winter.

Oh Maker, bring a quiet stillness over the young tree.
Only you know how deep its roots are.
How the rings of growth are unseen but ever felt.
The doves of peace will come to make their home in the branches.

I am strong enough to know how weak I truely am. It is in the courage of the leaf blowing in the wind. The wind, the one who invigorates the leaf's spirit. A certain courage develops & the leaf lets go of all its ever known.
Fly.
Faith comes in small ways of not seeing but believing, trusting. I believe in you like i believe in the wind. Although i can't see you , I can feel you. jump_4jesus

The pain is knowing,
that you are right for each other,
just not right now.
Every day she had to make the choice. The choice to forgive, the choice to forget. She had to move on with her life. Other wise, she was continuing to allow him to have this power over her life. Even thought he may not have known it, it was still there. She was made to be free & that's why she had to choose.
jump_4jesus

It feels so far. Like I could never get close to you.
On occaton I can se you beloved face, but then this
great darkness comes over my eyes;
I know you're still there. I can feel your smile.
But your hidden. I pray that one day I be close
enough to see your smile through the darkness.jump_4jesus

Dear God,
You sent an ear to listen to me. I never realized that the ear was listening & cared. That ear is attached to an amazing soul. Lord your gift of faith, was spread through the simple act of listening. Like a wild fire,the ear who simply believed in me has consumed me; I have hope. & maybe, just maybe, I can start to believe in you & myself again.
Thank you.
jump_4jesus

If it wasn't for this, one could not hope to carry on. To keep on Keepin. No a love like this is what brings hope to the dull eyes.
Jump_4jesus

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Tue, 30 Sep 2008 01:36:38 GMT

Does the bird not call out to another in the still forest? But can he hear the other's call if his cry all he hears? So is my soul crying out. Quiet me & come oh Maker.
jump_4jesus

I'm holding back with a shield before my heart. We've come this far & I'm so afraid of how wonderful you are. You're gallant, sensitive, funny & adventurous; everything I've ever dreamed of. The shield is present from my own faults. I am awkward with bouts of loudness and then quiet introvertedness. I'm present but not fully accounted for. I've shown you who I am, like the countless men before you. I'm ready to lace up. To take flight. How come you still sit there so quietly encouraging me, like I'm worth it? Why do you believe in me?I feel so vulnerable & dazed by your meer existence.
jump_4jesus

Monday, September 29, 2008

Mon, 29 Sep 2008 03:07:53 GMT

because i've seen love die way too many times
when it deserved to be alive.

Sometimes she just wants to sleep all day because
her dreams are the only things that keep her hopes up

"I'm here, which, roughly translated,
means I would rather die
than stay away from you."
-- Twilight

Look me in the eyes, like anyone has yet to do.
And tell me who I am, who I am to you.

because i need something more.
i know you all have your messy love lives
and your secrets and your silliness,
but i want more. i need something
to hold onto. -- Grey's Anatomy

im terrified of you;
you make me feel something.

I'm wondering will this relationship/physical closeness be fufilling? or will I just want more? Can I be content yet alone complete with just my family & great friendships. I aim to prove so.
jump_4jesus

It's there. I know it is.
Because when I look at you, I can feel it.
-Finding Nemo

Am I crazy? Do you not feel what I have felt every day that we've been apart for the last three years? Because I have felt there is this vital piece of me that's been missing. And I tried to fill it, Luke. I tried to fill it with work and friends and music. And it stayed empty until last night when you kissed me. And my entire universe snapped back into focus. Lucas, look me in the eyes and tell me that that kiss did not feel exactly the same as if felt three years ago.
( One Tree Hill )

When we first met, I didn't want to get involved with anyone. I didn't have the time or the energy, and I wasn't sure I was ready for it. But you were so good to me, and I got swept up in that, and little by little I found myself falling in love with you.
( The Rescue by Nicholas Sparks )

I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did. And you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did.
- Plain White T's

I finally discovered that my greatest fear
is not being alone; it's being vulnerable.
- PostSecret

Sunday, September 28, 2008

Sun, 28 Sep 2008 15:10:02 GMT

You're a part time lover & a full time friend

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I’m in love with the way you feel, how you look at life & can speak freely about it. I didn’t believe that they made guys like anymore. Thanks for proving me wrong.

jump_4jesus