ok... each day I think "I can't be any happier than this".... then the next day I'm wrong... because I find myself more happy than the day before and more in love..... I have the most amazing boyfriend in the world... The most wonderful best friend Fleep. The most supportive and fun family....Awesome friends who I have so much fun with... I'm so blessed at what God has done in my life. I look at what my heart was like even just a few months ago in comparsion to now... and words can't describe it.... :0)

I have something on my heart that I am worrying about.... I seem to worry about things I can't control.... But without details if you guys could say a little prayer when you read this :0) thanxs...love you all!

Ok ... so I've been neglecting Xanga a lot... But I cant help it... I like myspace better. I have a lot of friends from high school and college in Florida that I talk to on there... But I didnt want to neglect the xanga people either.... SOOOO here are my last two blogs I posted on myspace. They both are a HUGE BIG deals in my life... Oh and I included the pics I was talking about too... just if you were interested.... ok the end

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Monday, April 24, 2006

Big step in a much needed direction Current mood: hopeful Sooo I took out a loan on friday and i'm going back to college... I'm gonna go to HCC... for 2 years at least... I dont know what after that. I'm gonna study human services. So yup... I'm REALLY excited to be going back to school. This is a big step but I feel sooo ready to do something with my life. That is all :0)... oh and I have some new pics from yesterday (Sunday, when Michael and I went to Tysons Corner for the day)

Thursday, April 20, 2006

why dont ya just ask?..?...? Current mood: grateful Category: Life Not that I think everyone cares so much about my life.... but I know that some people read and look at my site... they have wondered and asked... not me but other people.... who Mike is..... I dont know why people dont just ask me. I think I am an open, straight forward, tell it how it is person. But I'm not mad or anything just guess I will blog about it to tell you.... Mike works at JCrew (where I work) during breaks from school... he goes to Salisbury University.... I met him in November and since then hes become one of my closest friends.... We have been through the good, the bad, and the bad attitude (on my part)....We decided to start dating a couple weeks ago... and there you have it.... Some may know me as being with Corey.... but we had mutually broken up at the beginning of November and yah... its been almost 6 months since then.... I've been through more emotionally, physically and mentally than I thought was possible. Through tears, breakdowns and counciling. I've come through this season of my life with a new perspective, a testimony, more lessons than I realize, grateful and thankfulness, and finally freedom in my heart, soul and mind to JUST BE ME.... God is soooo good!!!! I feel Gods spirit making me more grateful right now as I type this and the tears rolling down my face of joy that I actually came through this in one piece.... For at times I prayed, screamed and begged for grace and understanding through the hurt and pain in my heart..... I do want to make it clear that my relationship with Corey was something I will have in my heart for a long time. It was not always perfect, but what human relationship with another human is?..... I've learned so much from him and our relationship that I would not trade, change and will never regret.... But without knowing and without intentional purpose, I became someone I did not recognize. I had lost myself and was no where to be found..... Through choices and decisions I had made and we had made..... But ok ok.... I know I dont have to "explain myself" but I wanted to not hide anything.... Thats not who God made me. I've always spoke my mind and told people what I thought.... So if explanation or anything was or wasnt needed there you have it..... If anyone wants to ask me or tell me or share with me anything... leave me a comment or a message... I'd love to share the things I've been through and the revelations God has shared with me through all this..... After all I am an overcomer and we are overcomers by the blood of the Lamb and the word of our testimony..... This is my testimony

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Here are some other recent pics too....