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Friday, September 01, 2006

Fri, 01 Sep 2006 20:49:36 GMT

i took senior pictures this morning...

...and named my racket spud.

Santa Cruz

Mon, 21 Aug 2006 04:58:08 GMT

It was a great trip, but it provoked a collage of emotions. I became frustrated with... drama i guess you could say.... with people not looking out for others, and no, i'm not talking about the boys. I became impressed with a previously unnoticed side of maturity on the behalf of a certain group of people. I became angry and brokenhearted at the same time, for the immense trials that seem to be ridiculously and unfairly given to some incredible people. I became joyful, while walking a picture of Jesus around to everyone's windows during the night. I became goofy when I became a model in our fashion show. I became uplifted with every encounter with God. I became tired and dirty from a long day at the boardwalk and in the sand. I became depressed that the trip ended. It was amazing, but I feel emotionally drained, and pray that God will fill me back up before school tomorrow... otherwise it won't be a happy day.

But I did take a picture with Jesus!

I surrender

Sun, 13 Aug 2006 20:24:55 GMT

I'm giving you my heart, and all that is within. I lay it all down for the sake of you, my King. I'm giving you my dreams, I'm laying down my right, I'm giving up my pride, for the promise of new life.

And I, I surrender, all to you, all to you.

And I, I surrender, all to you, all to you

I'm singing you this song. I'm waiting at the cross. All this world holds dear, I count it all as loss. For the sake of knowing you, for the glory of your name, To know the lasting joy, even sharing in your pain.

And I surrender, all to you, all to you.

No control

Sat, 05 Aug 2006 21:08:43 GMT

So until these past few days, I've never felt so entirely vulnerable. I have basically put my entire future into the hands of people I've never met, who have put my life entirely in God's hands, and I've never felt so utterly... not in control, and it's scary. Colleges are still sending my crap and for another week or two, I have no idea what to say to them... Losing all control brings very mixed emotions, it's scary, yet exciting, kinda like going over niagra falls in a barrel, but hopefully a little less painful. So lets see how this thing goes....

My Grandpa

Thu, 27 Jul 2006 16:59:13 GMT

So recently I've been missing my Grandpa a bit more than usual, although I'm not quite sure what triggered it. Anyway, two specific things this week reminded me of how great he was. First, I was looking through my dad's old hats and I found this one that was a bright eighties blude and when i looked at the front in a gold coloring it read "George Rumelhart Tournament, VCTA 1990." How amazing is it that my grandpa had an entire tournament named after him? That made me feel so special. Also, I was hitting with Audrey a couple of days ago and we saw a girl and her grandpa walking onto the court. The grandpa had a racket in one hand, and a cane in the other. I thought it was the most adorable thing I'd seen in a long time, and if my grandpa were still around, I know he'd be out on the court too. =)

It's been a while...

Mon, 24 Jul 2006 05:20:28 GMT

So, looking back at my past entry I realize... it's been a while. In it I mention basketball which I haven't played for over a year now. Hello again, xanga. Well, seeings how no one uses a xanga anymore, I figure no one will ever read this, but I can't get my myspace blog to work, and I still enjoy expressing myself.

God is truly amazing. I've been praying so long about ywam, and finally he's directed me to where he wants me to go... so I think: Mazatlan, Mexico. I still have to apply, but God willing, I know that will go well. Finances will probably be my biggest issure, but if this is my calling, it will all work out.

So, I like to think I've grown up a bit since I last used this thing. Hopefully at least a bit. My friends are all in college now, and I couldn't be happier for them as they are daring to encounter a completely different life, now as an adult. But I am also glad that God kept a few of the best ones around at UMB. Haha. Thanks. I tell them I paid their parents to keep them here.

He provides. Even now as I'm restless and cranky, he gave me an opprutunity to fellowship with one of my best friends kelsey tomorrow morning over some good eats. And today he provided good friends who brought me chocolate when I'm down. and friends who are willing to do free babysitting with me for some crazy kids that i love. they're great. and he gave me a cozy bed which i'm going to go sleep in now. good night.

Thursday, February 10, 2005

Thu, 10 Feb 2005 22:07:40 GMT

Hey guys!

I'm at Sam's (what else is new). My computer is down at home, so sorry but I won't be able to update or anything for a while (not that I ever update there anyway...) I'm getting really excited for my sweet sixteen. Two weeks from today! We only have two games left in basketball. This season's been a lot of fun, I love the girls and all, but I'm ready for the offseason. Way past ready. Only a few more days. I wanna join the boys tennis team, but I don't think they'd like that... haha, kick some boy booty with some suh-weet forehands. lol. just kidding, they're not that great, yet.

Saturday night I'm going square dancing with our youth group... YEEHAW. should be fun.

I'm gonna go.

<3 always, me!

Wednesday, February 02, 2005

Wed, 02 Feb 2005 22:13:54 GMT

Hey guys!

Well, today has been a pretty stressful day. Lot's of "high school drama" as Scott calls it. But it's okay. God's in control of it.

So, to update since my last post, formal was fun. I have "black hips" so they say, and I shook my booty all night long.

Brad turns 17 tomorrow HAPPY BIRTHDAY! And Alisha got her license today, which means PAR-TAY!

Speaking of parties, I get my license one month from tomorrow, and I will be 16 in 22 days. So don't you forget it. (And sam gets her license one month from yesterday! yay)

And that's all folks!

Sunday, January 16, 2005

Sun, 16 Jan 2005 04:28:47 GMT

Hey Guys!

Well, I'm chillin at Jessica's house! It's her birthday! (Happy Birthday Jay!)

Soo I guess it's been a while since I've updated. Christmas and NewYears were good. Lots of DDR and lots of basketball. And lots of halo.

I got my formal today! Well, actually my mom picked it out, but it's cool. One week! yay.
Sadly, even though I have the world at my fingertips, I have nothing to say.

One month and nine days til I'm sixteen. Don't forget that.

<3 me

Wednesday, November 03, 2004

Wed, 03 Nov 2004 03:30:47 GMT

You're calling me to lay aside, the worries of my day.
To quiet down my busy mind, and find a hiding place.
You are worthy.
Only you are worthy.

God calm the lonliness within me, which can only be fulfilled by you. Yet, all too often I seek to find the physical means which can fulfill this. God, I want to fall in love, though that is such a concept, I cannot even begin to understand. Help me to be patient with your plan, and your will. Allow me to wait on you, for only your timing is perfect.

Today, in times of sickness and fevers, I was referred to as beautiful. Definately a pick me up. =-)