Interests:"...Setting an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity" - 1 Timothy 4:12 Expertise:telling jokes Occupation:Youth Ministry
Sunday night I got pulled over for the first time EVER and got my first ticket[don't ask for details, I lucked out] while coming home from the youth rally.
Wednesday evening I got into a car accident with someone in the parking lot of Shop Rite [completely my fault and my car is completely dented] while on an errand to buy ingredients because I figured I needed to de-stress and baking a new dessert would help with that.
Joey is currently on his way to the ER and we just hope his arm is not broken.
Yes, things are getting progressively worse and worse suddenly. I just think, though, how much more traumatic and painful all these things would be if I didn't know my Father was holding my hand and right next to me going through this with me. How all these things cannot compare to the glory that is the Lord.
2 Corinthians 4:8-12 and this really stands out to me right now:
There is joy in the Lord, there is love in His spirit There is hope in the knowledge of Him Abounding in love to my soul
There is joy in the Lord! There is love in His Spirit! There's a fountain I know; Every time I am near it My heart overflows to the Lord!
All blessing and honor are His! All glory and power are His! Let all wisdom and strength Be the Lord's in this place! Let all glory be given to Him!
I've never felt more able to face the world that is at work trying to bring us down.
"People want their information faster. People email each other because they wanna exchange information. They don't wanna connect, they want results!" - The Break Up
That could very well just define me and it's so heart breaking. I realized lately I'm just so robotic. A robot who cries! I remember a student about a year ago calling me a "crybaby" in jest but I think he was absolutely right. But not just crying like "boo hoo you hurt my feelings". I can and will cry over almost anything. For some reason my feelings manifest itself outward in tears. Frustration, joy, anxiety, compassion, sadness, etc. And as a robot, when I cry, I fuse out. Which is why I just completely shut down when the tear works begin. Takes a few minute and then I'm recharged up again. Back to computing and making beeping noises while rolling around. I am a robot.
Brandon Heath, you've done it again. I feel like he reads my heart sometimes when he makes these songs.
I've been spending sometime at or on the phone with Staples, Office Depot, Kinkos, etc. in preparation for the Alive Conference. Getting all those little things ready that we often take for granted such as programs and nametags... The other day I spent who knows how long grilling the Office Depot man. Questions such as these in my high shrieked excited and enthusiastic voice [because between you and me, custom printing sends me off to cloud 9] : "So how much if I color print just one side, but black and white the other? Color print just one side? Glossy page, color prints on both sides? Black and white both sides, glossy paper?" This went on for awhile as he poked at his calculator trying to assess the most accurate estimate on how much my little program booklets would be. I appreciated his patience!
Yesterday I poked my head into the same Office Depot because ODM [Office
Depot Man] said the manager would be in if I had more questions.
Manager was not there, but ODM was. I never saw a man's pupils fill
with such horror at the arrival of my presence. I never thought I
could strike such fear into the heart of a young man. His eyes
literally widened as I sauntered over to the Custom Printing table with
an extra hop in my step and a toothy smile glowing. Luckily I had only
one question for him today. Before I left he asked me, "You were the one
with all the book questions, right? Just making sure..." in a friendly
way. I confirmed and promised him that I would be back, many many more
times. Dun dun dunnn...
This summer I'm going to read. I mean a LOT of reading. I'm picking up old books I never finished [I have a tendency to open a book, read 4 chapters, then run out and buy a new one and continue that cycle] and completing new books I have added to my pile. Don't tell anyone this, but I just spent about $150 on books this past weekend. But I don't regret it [though AHA I don't have that kind of money to spend] because the bulk of it went to finally sucking it up and obtaining the C.S. Lewis Signature Classics which makes my eyes twinkle everytime my fingers scroll over those books whenever I'm at Barnes and Nobles. For years I've been telling myself, "Next time, when you have more money... SIGH" but I realized... that day will never come! So might as well enjoy good books in my poverty! Some are more like resource books so I can't really READ those but I do have a large pile of books to be completed and soaked in by the time September rolls about. September when I'll officially be a full time seminarian and may not have time to luxuriously sit about with my cups of green tea or french vanilla coffee while flipping oh-so-refinely through my hardcovers. Books by Lucado, Graham, Wangerin, the Ludys and of course, Lewis.
Wall-E was an AMAZING moving. I never thought watching the chemistry between 2 robots could be so fascinating. One of my favorite lines: "I don't want to survive! I want to live!". Makes me wonder how many of us are just surviving this world rather than living for eternity. If I were a robot, I'd fall in love with him too!
Maybe I'm not who I am going to be for the rest of my life. Perhaps I haven't figured out my identity yet. But maybe, just maybe, my sister sister is right. Maybe I need people who will be there while I figure out who I am and who will stay by my side when I finally figure out who that is. Maybe it's not about the person who was there when I didn't know who I was yet or the person who will be there when I know who I was meant to be.. but maybe it's about the people who will be there me for the journey in between. Who was there and who will stay there.
What she also said that got to me is that.. it's not about what we want. It's about what God wants. In that case, that very well changes EVERYTHING.
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