i havent been on here in god knows how long. a SHIT load has changed for me since i last got on here...

my "military man" and i have broken it off. it was SUPER emotional for me and i couldnt do nothin but cry. the tears jus kept comin u kno? it was somethin that i had to do but  i was puttin it off...u kno me, the procrastinator. lol. he was mad and hurt and all but he understood. i still cant believe i did it tho. off of that...

i have a new guy n he is...MEANS alot to me. he is funny, cute, yadda yadda yadda... all that. im very thankful for findin him. i can look to him for alot and if u ask him i can look to him for everything (but i wont). some of yall kno who im talkin bout but 98% of yall kno who he is. yall will be shocked if/when u find out.

my CLOSEST buddy of the 05-06 school year still hasnt spoken to me... i am still bummed over that. but i dont wanna get on that rite now

speaking of buddies not speakin to me... a good friend of mine said i was being...or "acting bitchy" as she put it about a certain situation. come to think of it, the other person who's involved...kinda sed the same thing too. am i wrong for not approving of something? somethin i KNO is not gonna end good? sucks that i drifted from them cuz of this. i really need to vent on this situation but ill leave it at that.

i guess im done with this. i wanna go cry now. instead ill go think, work out, and listen to my ipod. yall please pray for my mind rite now. cuz its goin in circles and goin thru alot

i love yall and thanx for catchin up on me. btw i got a new job!!!!

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ok. so. Adam happened to embarass me THAT much more today...TWICE. but the second time i avoided it. OHmg...he prolly thinx im sorta stalker now. but................HE DOESNT!!!!!!! wanna kno how i kno?!?! cuz i TALKED to him. AAHHHHH. lmao. yea...well, i got nothin to really say. jus waitin on my last few songs to download. luv ya!

* i hope to GAWD he dont got a xanga *

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Oh my gawd!!!!! ok. so....(btw. hey errybody) omg ok so like i was saying: i have this HUGE crush on this guy. hes SOOOOOOOO cute n SOOOOO sweet...omg i dont even know. well, ive had a crush on him for a while but it jus got HUGE recently (past two, three weeks) cuz he has a class rite next door to my eighth period. n in yearbook we're always in the hall so i walk past there all the time. *cheeze*. lol. n wen i found out he WASNT a senior...OHmg...i almost died. yay! so, my friend Adam has class with him so RITE after class on Friday i was like "wats his name???" n he told me. yea, im not puttin it onhere...but yesserday Adam sed he wuld introduce me to him today n i was SUUUUUUUPER nervous n i was fuckin grinning the WHOLE time. like the big ass nerd i am. except...nerds are smart...*ponders* lol. n get this...wen i met him i got TWO hugs!!!!! like, adam intro'd us n then my crush walked off n i thot that was it. BUT HE CAME BACK!!! and we started talkin some more n he was like "so, wat cluster are u in?" n i was like "TAG". n he was like "so i guess they DO have cute people in TAG?!?" i was like awwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. lmao. so yea...*sidebar* YES cynthia im talking about HIM. lmao. anywho...yea....new crush. these are always fun. omg...i cant stop smiling i finally met him!!!!!!

ok. this is Jasmine updating her zan-guh.......

• new boyfriend, wat? are u surprised?
• bouta get a clean ass new fone ($300)
• guy at work likes me n i keep trynna turn him down (effin IRRITATING)
• im always SOOOOOO tired.
• my grades are shit...no...seriously. errybody else who ses that have like b's...nah...not me...
• my grades ARE coming up tho cuz my mama sed that if they did then i wuld get my car (tha one that i want).
• i guess thats it for now.
• n ^^THAT^^ is y i havent updated...not much to talk about.

Luv yall!!!! *muahz*

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ok, so i was in bio n my babys visited!!!!!! i was ELATED that i got to see Dorian, n Adrian, n Luis, n Alicia (even tho i still think that she like REALLY didnt care for me AT ALL towards second semester last year). but wat made it even better was, wen they came in DEWBERRY'S room, i heard Elliot go "hey guys" i musta got SO DAMN HAPPY n ran up n jumped n WRAPPED my legs around him. i did NOT wanna let go. omg. i miss them so much...they always kept me smiling. *hmmm...good times*.

my grades:...jus werent wat that was. point blank. period. end of story. i actually got my mom to NOT look at it thank GOD. cuz i didnt wanna c her face afterwards n all of that. anywho.

Skool: ima jus go ahead and say it...no im not. ima be less messy cuz i kno shes reading n no matter how i say it it wont b taken the way i meant it...so jus screw it. *a minute passes...* yea...im not gonna write it...i shulda. but no.

Love Life: Yea. its so confusing. i have a boyfriend. i like him alot but hes moving too fast n talkin bout the future n shit i dont wanna talk about...hes pushing me away. i have an EX-boyfriend who is REALLY trynna quit fuckin up wen it comes to me n "us" n im proud n glad that hes trying. it just seems that nobody else is proud...at least none of my friends. n i feel like i keep finding out new stuff wen it comes to him like EVERY day...i just dont kno. i should just go with the flow wen it comes to him? i dont kno. i feel so comfortable wen i talk to him or wen we are just US. n thats something that i totally miss from all my relationships. n then my new crush. well, i guess ive been crushin on him for a long time but now im just sayin it. he wuld do nething for me. i love him to death. Thats my baby!!! lol. (me n him are real good friends) *sigh* i just dont kno.

Skool again:  school fucking sucks. ok? there. i said it. it sucks all a-fucking-round. i shouldve went to fuckin Hillcrest n graduated with highest honors where EVERYBODY knew me n wasnt treatin me like everybody FUCKIN is now. i get so much BULLSHIT at skool for being FUCKING me. Shit LINGERING on from last year...Shit happenin for NO FUCKING REASON this year outta tha goddamn blue. im jus so ready to graduate u culdnt even comprehend. n then my teachers...Jensen- Such a sweetheart, Correa- i love, Taylor-i couldnt live without, THATS...ABOUT...IT.

n to make it worse, my two security blankets are leavin me. One on Monday n the other in a few months wen he graduates. i dont care if u are "jus 30 up tha highway"...im used to u bein SEVEN minutes up spring valley...its too far...ima miss u so much. i REALLY do luv u n u kno that. ima miss u soooooooooooo much mr. D-100. lol. i THINK thats wat its called rite? anywhoo i shuld go now...nobody prolly read it down to here neway.