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Tuesday, June 06, 2006

Tue, 06 Jun 2006 02:58:58 GMT

Wow... This is old stuff! I guess I will start writing again. More to come soon!

Friday, January 30, 2004

Fri, 30 Jan 2004 01:24:18 GMT

It is good to see God working in people. Cam is working out his problems and has returned to the community of believers at CTK. He still has along road ahead of him, but he has people around him who want to see him succeed.

I have begun to give my social situation some real serious though. I am not the person that I want to be and I am definitely not the person God intended me to be.

I am a work in progress, covered in grace.

Thursday, January 29, 2004

Thu, 29 Jan 2004 01:55:47 GMT

I am absolutely exausted tonight. We had a great 3D. Collin talked about the trap of lust that is so tempting to fall into. It opened my eyes and really touched the students. I am feeling good about 3D right now. That's the first time in a long time. It is nice to be able to say that.

I miss Amy...

Wednesday, January 28, 2004

Wed, 28 Jan 2004 00:17:37 GMT

A friend reminded me that I have been neglecting this site. Today was uplifting. I went out to coffee with Nicole and Emily sent me a great letter from London. It was a good day!

Friday, January 16, 2004

Fri, 16 Jan 2004 01:09:14 GMT

Cam went to court today. It could have been worse, but he still has a long road ahead of him. It was really hard for me to see someone I care about going through this. I have never experienced anything like that before. I have interalized this a bit and I wonder if I have let him down as his leader? I know that each person must make his own choices. Did I do all that I could to be a light in his world? With the remorse of feeling like I let him down, I also feel resolved to open myself up, so that I can be used to show him Christ in every way possible.

In other news I went to Elevate. I have a hard time fitting in with people I don't know. I felt out of place. I know that if I don't spend time with people that I don't know, I will never get to know them. Then how will I make new friends? I need to work on the social me.

Thursday, January 15, 2004

Thu, 15 Jan 2004 01:46:12 GMT

One of the students that is in my High School Bible study has been arrested. He was being abusive to his family and this is not his first offence so he will most likely spend a long time in the county jail. I pray that Cameron will allow Jesus to take real control over his life. I know Jesus will do anything it takes to get ahold of this young man. His mom is extremely upset and worried. Please pray for Cameron and his mom (Lori) that there can be restoration and healing in that family and in their hearts. Also please pray for me and the staff of people in our ministry, that we will have the wisdom and love to minister to this family in their time of need.

Friday, January 09, 2004

Fri, 09 Jan 2004 01:11:41 GMT

I am getting ready for bed and I just can't get my mind cleared. I can't help but think about my friend who is having a hard time right now. I want so much to do something for her.I want to show her that she is loved. I want her to know that she is cared for but I don't want to overstep my bounds as a friend.

Hopefully you will read this and see my heart and know that you have a friend who loves and cares for you even if I can't fix your world. Or have no idea on what to say to help make it better.

Friday, January 09, 2004

Fri, 09 Jan 2004 00:38:49 GMT

Today was a day of conversation.

Started the process of reconciliation with a friend and co-laborer in the Lord. The road to rebuilding relationships is long but it is worth so much. I went in to the conversation ready to call the friendship quits and leave the ministry I love, but left feeling encouraged and hopeful.

Found a friend in pain. I was unable to help her. I don't even know what her pain was about. She told me that a member of her family is dying. I could tell that there was more to her pain then that. She was trying to put her life back together with duct tape and Elmer's Glue. It broke my heart. I don't think I was much help. There was not a thing that I could say to ease her pain. The only and best thing I can do for her is to hold her up and bring her before the King. He knows her pain and he loves her soul!

Talked to a brother who was reserved. He doesn't have a lot going on in his life right now but he is full of praise any way. I saw that he was patiently expecting that something was going to happen.

I made plans with another brother. He is ready to go where God is sending him. I walked away encouraged and ready to get to work.

I love seeing how God works in every life that will let him and even those that will not. Thank you all for being my friends. Thank you for letting me see the adventure of your lives unfold and for letting me have a small part in it. I love you all!

Monday, January 05, 2004

Mon, 05 Jan 2004 22:40:50 GMT

I just finished this book last night. It was written for the high school aged person. However it did get me thinking about what are some motives behind dating. What kind of character am I looking for in a girl. It would be great as a class in highschool ministry. I think I am going to pass it on to some students that could use some wisdom in this arena.

I was also happy that I read a book in one day!

Monday, January 05, 2004

Mon, 05 Jan 2004 00:53:06 GMT

Okay, it's a new year! I have spent the past several days wrestling. I have come to the conclusion that it would be easier to run from my battles then to fight them. To give up before I face my enemy rather then to risk defeat. That is not what I am going to do. Something has it me very hard today. It is time for me to stand up and be the man that God has designed me to be. To fight and not back down. To not let the risk stop me from facing my enemy.

The biggest fight I have had these past weeks has been whether to stay in ministry and fight or leave Christ the King give in. I am not going to give in. I am going to stay and fight. It is time for me to stand up and lead the people that God has given me. Other people have tried to take the spot that God wants me to fill. People have neglected the Word of God for what is fun and easy. The time has come to stand up tell the truth. To make the changes that need to be made. This will not be popular and will hurt some people but it is the truth nonetheless.

I will not tremble and I will not be afraid, for the LORD my God will be with me where ever I go!