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Sooo

Fri, 04 Jul 2008 03:59:54 GMT

after a 5 year dry spell (with a few flings thrown in there, few and far between)

I finally have a boyfrienddddd ♥ =))))))

oh and also

I'm a god damn whore.
Can't resist shit.

Oh wellllllllll

I'm too damn happy to care

oh...my...god.

Thu, 03 Jul 2008 04:09:59 GMT

So there's this boy right?

He's a fucking player. He knows it, I know it, everybody knows it. But he's interested in me, I guess...but I'm too scared to fall for him. And he knows it. But he swears to me he's different, and he's not playing me or using me. That he really does like me.

So tonight I take him home and we're saying goodnight. He puts his arms around my waist, and I put mine around his neck. We're just kissing and then all of a sudden I feel something slip into my back pocket. He pulls away and walks towards his house.

I reach in my pocket and there's his class ring.

He gave me his class ring!

what the FUCK does that mean?!

Somebody PLEASE help me because I'm having a fucking freak out right now. K? Kthanks.

i'm scared shitless

Mon, 30 Jun 2008 03:12:53 GMT

because i'm falling for a boy.

and I don't want to.

I want a god damn break from boys for a minute, please?

But I'm just hoping this time...it might actually work. Please let it work.

I can't stand to be let down again...

Weight? It's not exactly the first thing on my mind.

UGHHHHHH

party tomorrow...thank god.

Fri, 27 Jun 2008 02:25:34 GMT

Seriously.

I'm so damn excited, I haven't partied in for-fucking-ever.

Whitney DEFINITELY needs some Captain in her...hahaha.

Umm...

So still kinda confused. The guy that my friend likes too...lets call him B...is being an asshole. He's with like me and her and some other fucking hoe ass bitch. And she's sick of him too. And I told him to make up his damn mind yesterday and he just got all pissed and told me he wasn't going to so I said I was going to make up his mind for him.

And now she likes this other guy and i like another guy and that motherfucker is getting left behind and it's funny.

And so this other boy...we'll call him T...is adorable =))))

I havent been with a guy who just wants to hold hands/put his arm around me, and just kiss me without having to make out in forever. It's good because I don't feel like he's just using me you know? Gosh I'm feeling good.

Anyways, B was pissed as hell tonight. He's texting me right now saying shit like "You having fun with your freaking little buddies?" and i was like "hell yeah haha why?" and he's like "oh well good for you i guess."

Then I was trying to be nice and ask what's wrong and he's like "Why do you even care?"

Well fine bitch. See if I try to be nice. I don't need you...I got someone else =)

So anyways this post probably doesn't make sense to anyone but me but I don't give a shit so. whatever.

Peace bitches =)))))

i'm home...and confused.

Tue, 24 Jun 2008 15:52:56 GMT

Well I'm home from Peru. Machu Picchu and Lake Titicaca were both AMAZING.

Anyways...

I'm so confused right now.

Still kinda doing things with that boy that my friend likes. Nothing serious for either of us, seeing as he is still doing shit with her and some other hoe.

But...last night I was hanging out with some other boys and this one guy, who I made out with on the Mexico trip, was flirting with me. We held hands and stuff. Didn't make out, though, but he wants me to text him. And I dunno if anythings going to come out of it, but I want it to. He's kind of a whore though, also.

Whatever.

I'm confused...

Friday, June 13, 2008

Fri, 13 Jun 2008 03:27:06 GMT

Things are still going swell with that boy. And I met his mom the other day and she told his dad, who told him, that he had good taste =) He sure does. I'm pretty great...haha, jokes.

He's hanging out with my friend that likes him though (not good) but he texted me just to let me know that i'm "freaking amazing and sexy" haha he's silly. And he got mad at her today for saying all those things she said to me last night, so she apologized...but things were still weird when I saw her tonight.

Oh, and there's this other boy...we just barely started talking and we were going to hang out today but he had to leave. So, anyways, he texts me and says he feels bad and wants to hang out later, but I'm going to Peru you know so well..anyways...read on:

Him "What time are you leaving tomorrow?"
Me "Um I actually have no idea...haha why?"
Him "I was just wondering... maybe i wanted to say goodbye before you left"

Oh yeah. He's pretty hot also. Nothing's better than having more than one good prospect on the boy front, right?

The only shitty news as of tonight? There's a party tomorrow night and I can't go because I won't be here. The first party I've been invited to in FOREVER and I'm going to be gone.

Oh well, there's still all summer for that.

This summer...ah, it's going to be great. Seriously. I can just feel it in my bones =)))))

Well, for reals this times, I won't be back for a week. Off to Peru bitches!!! =)

Thursday, June 12, 2008

Thu, 12 Jun 2008 10:46:16 GMT

well...last night my friend saw me with that boy.

She's pissed.

She told me to go to fucking hell...she told me I hope I felt good that I made her cry...and that she hated me...and that she couldn't talk to me anymore.

Umm I also kinda don't give a FUCK. Hopefully it'll work out with him so I'll have someone. But I still have Paige for sure, and I mean...I only have one more year here. I can deal.

Anyways...

Yesterday with him was AMAZING. He's so freaking adorable... I haven't had somebody who's actually liked me back in a long time. Who does what I want and just wants to be with me. Who's not just using me... In fact, when we hang out and start getting our mack on... He tells me he wants to wait. And I don't think it's because he doesn't want to, because he's always giving me whatever I want but like...he's like "I promise we will some other night...not now." I hope it's because he doesn't want to fuck things up...not just because I'm that repulsive hahaha

Anyways, I was out with him all night last night sooooo I'mma go to sleep. Then I have to wash clothes and pack for Peru.

I might write again before I go to Peru, but I dunno so...if I don't write again then...

Peace, I'll write in about a week =)

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Wed, 11 Jun 2008 13:27:46 GMT

The boy is coming over sooooon.

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He's adorable =))))

But I'm not supposed to be with him. Because my other friend and him kinda had a thing. And she still likes him.

Ugh...I dunno what to do.

We'll take it as it comes, yeah??

And at least I'm back down to around 125 instead of 130. Good, yes??

Yupppp.

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

Tue, 10 Jun 2008 15:40:54 GMT

I'm tired.

I'm totally crushing on that boy.

I'm going to Peru in 3 days.

I'm losing some weight.

Hmmm...

this is bad. real bad.

Sat, 07 Jun 2008 06:38:28 GMT

Spent tonight hanging out with this cute boy I met from the next town over. He's cute, funny, sweet, gives compliments. We were macking hardcore in his truck (which is the sexiest truck I've ever been in, by the way). I have hickies too for the family reunion tomorrow from it. Oh joy.

Anyways, what the problem is you ask?

One of my best friends is in love with him. And they kinda have a thing.

Yes i'm a horrible terrible person. =(

And I'm feeling sick now, like literally physically sick. I think that's what we call Karma??