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Sunday, May 18, 2008
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Currently Listening
A Fever You Can't Sweat Out
By Panic! At The Disco
But It's Better If You Do
see relatedHappy Different
Am I wrong
to be different?
To be joyful?
To be free?!
Is is cruel
to be happy
with my own
wild distinctions?
So content
that I find wisdom
deep within the cosmos
and well within the earth:
that's me!
Can't you see
that I'm happy
being me?
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
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All That You've Done
I'm not angry;
I'm over that.
I'm not lonely;
I swear to that.Trust me, baby,
I need no one.
And if I do?
It won't be you!I said, "Don't call,"
and you agreed.
So then why, my dear,
are you on the line with me?I'm sick of you
and what you say.
You always go back on your word.
You repulse me in everyway.You tell me I'm scum?
Wow, how far fetched!
Before you accuse me,
check your reflection in the silver suicide which leans against all of my shattered dreams in the doorway.
Friday, May 02, 2008
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Trapped
Help,
I'm trapped.
He'll never let me go.
Trapped in this room,
I can never let him know.
If he only knew
how I hated him so,
he'd do it again.
NOT AGAIN!
NEVER AGAIN!
I just want him to stop,
but I can't tell him, "no!"
My tears are his bliss,
I don't want him to have the pleasure.
I want out,
but who can I tell?
No one would believe it.
Oh God,
I'm trapped!
...help...
Thursday, May 01, 2008
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Strong Dislike
I don't hate you.
I wish I could,
but to hate is wrong,
and I'll never stoop that low.
Although I don't hate you,
I despise what you've become.
You treat me like I'm garbage.
What's gotten in your head?
Silly boy, head games aren't your thing,
so why don't you get off that stage
and quit posing like a fool?
That's right,
I'm talking to you,
so quit acting so innocent.
Everyone around here knows you better
than to think that way.
Anyway,
I don't hate you.
Hate is a strong word.
I don't hate you,
but boy, you're pushing me really close.
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
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High Insight
There's no vision within darkness;
wisdom only comes with light.
I feel as is I've spent the length
of three whole trimesters
sitting,
blindly,
in the dark.
Now,
all of the sudden,
the lights...
BAM!
They're all on me,
and my eyes widen in what I begin to see:
LIES!
MISTRUST!
Even...
ABUSE?!?
How was I so blind?
Was I stupidity?
No.
I had ignored it.
That's easier to pull off
than the truth when,
all along,
your heart was in the scheme.
justafrigginrayofsunshine
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- Name: Nikki
- Birthday: 12/11/1990
- Gender: Female
- Member Since: 4/29/2008
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I'm a very happy person, but when I first meet a person I'm shy and reserved. Typically, I'm very loud and silly, doing anything just to get a smile...because that means I'm doing something right, huh? I'm very outgoing. The funny thing is that when it comes to my writing, I'm intensely shy. I think it's because it's something I love to do, and I'm afraid someone is going to tell me I suck. If I found out that I was awful, it would crush me. It's the only activity I've ever really put effort into and cared about. My poetic admire-ee is Emily Dickinson. I love her because of the sheer imagery she uses and her metaphors and similes. Some people think her work is too simple, but her simplicity is, in fact, what makes her so extravagant, in my opinion.
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so lately, I mostly sit around, listen to music, and eat... my life is lame. Entertain me.
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What's a girl got to do to get a few comments on her blog entries?
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So I met my real dad for the first time on Saturday.I got2 admit it threw me at first,but I'm really starting to like him
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