hummm...well, i just got the sudden urge to update my xanga.....i dunno why...i dont really have anything exciting to say.....so yeah.....if you're looking to read something exciting my advice to you is to stop reading this....

i havent updated since december and now its february. im not gonna write about everything thats happened since then, so just use your imagination, haha. im in a wierd mood right now.... friday at school was pretty much the worst day ever, just thought id throw that one out there. it was like one of those bad "teen movie" days where you feel like everyone's staring at you. then miluska took me out after school and made me feel better with breakfast food at dunkin donuts, and analogies involving cupcakes. (brace yourself, this is the begining of my emo entry, im really a very happy person, and life's been good lately, i had alot of fun in new york and at superbowl parties tonight, im just in an emo mood right now, ill probably delete this by tomorrow anyways, so yeah...dont mind me) i hate boys. they're really horrible. i think it sucks so bad that all guys want out of relationships is physical stuff. its like the whole emotional aspect of it doesnt mean anything to them at all. and its like they dont even care when they hurt someone. fuck you. you're not cute. i dont even care anymore. and i dont want everyone to go away to college. that makes me really sad. and school stresses me out. and friendships stress me out. and i feel like everything exciting always happens when im not around. and im not really sure whats going on right now and i kinda wish i knew. but yeah, about the whole guys thing, i know you wont read this (if this is directed at you, you'll know) but you're a jerk. we were so wrong for eachother anyways. i know we've been over for like a month now, but i didnt realize what a jerk you were till recently. is it totally pathetic that after all that i might still wanna be friends with you? i at least want to talk to you to see if you can explain yourself for this whole situation. but i know you'll probably never talk to me again, cuz thats the kinda person you are, you just avoid people when they're mad at you instead of fixing it. douche fag. im rambling now, so im gonna stop, just in case you ever happen to read this. but if you do read this (yeah, right) i'd really like to talk to you. did i ever mean anything to you other than a possible hook up? do you even want to be my friend? ok, im really done now. goodnight.

so guess who finally decided to update her xanga? i did! haha. well, theres not much to say really, actually theres alot to say cuz like the last time i updated was after HC, but if you know me you know im wayyy too lazy to write all about it. so if you really wanna know what ive been up to IM me or something and ill give you an update. or maybe at some point later on ill get really bored and write about it, who knows, lol. but the one thing i do wanna say is that i freaking love my friends! all of them! i dunno how i wouldve survived this weekend without you guys! and, just fyi, i may hate boys right now, but its ok, ill be over it soon enough

<3 Bethany

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sooo alot's happened since my last entry. everything's over, xc, homecoming, everything. its kinda sad. i freaking love all the seniors this year! you guys are NOT allowed to graduate and leave me. i had lots of fun at homecoming, but i couldbe help thinking that that was my last homecoming with the seniors! it makes me sad just thinking about growing up. there's alot more to be said about hc, of course. its high school, what would high school be without drama? i dont really have time to go into detail though, maybe later, if you wanna know just IM me or something. tonight i had one of those conversations that you know you'll remember for a long time. i love my xc ladies! me, sam, amy, and joy sat and talked for like 2 hours about the randomest stuff, i dont think ive laughed that hard in awhile. these are the kind of nights im gonna miss when i graduate. nights where you can talk for hours about everything in your life, laugh at everything, and tell your friends all your feelings and frustrations. after all, what are friends for? it reminded me of the other real quality conversations ive had lately, like the time me and linz and jen stayed up all night in the outer banks talking and deciding where all our friends will be 10 years from now. or the time me and miluska sat in her car and talked about stuff that no one else understands for hours on a school night till our parents made us go home. or the time we sat in the mall for like 3 hours talking, and didnt even realize how much time had gone by till the stores started closing. or desert night. or the super awkward yet totally hilarious convo's we always have on xc bus rides, especially bull run. i love my friends. simple as that. if only all things were that simple. i dont get why guys hafta be so..... gfhsgfsduhifoasnklcn, why cant they just act on their emotions. if you like me freakin call me or text me or IM me or something and let me know that you're not totally over me. girls like to know that someones thinking of them every once in awhile, its nice. whatever, ill probably delete this later, but i guess until then ill just keep on waiting...

bethanyyy

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Rockin the Suburbs...

yeah, i know its monday, but ive been kinda bogged down with homework, so i havent had the chance to write about saturday. most amazing night in the history of ever...so, here i go....

well, saturday started with playing in the pep band at it's academic. not my choice of a saturday morning activity, especially cuz it meant i had to be up at the ass crack of dawn, but whatever. it actually wasnt that bad. we had fun on the bus, which was pretty cool. then i got to be on tv so that was exciting. too bad i looked like shiz from the night before. we had a football game so my hair was a mess cuz i just unbraided it after the game then put it in a bun. plus i still had glitter and smeared eyeliner on my face. what everr, who even watched the howard county channel anyways. then i went out to lunch at panera with erin and liz, and you know how i feel about panera. definetly a highlight. then i went to the pumpkin patch with my family. i drove all the way home from lariland farm, which is far and involves lots of merging for those for those of  you who dont know.

That Night....

as soon as i got home i got like a million phone calls/IM's from people asking me what we were doing....i had no idea. im officially the worst planner ever. so anyways, miluska and dj came and picked me up and we went to the patapsco female institute for the haunted house. you two are adorable, btw. we saw orri and hannah there, which was kinda random, but funny, haha. it wasnt scary...at all, but it was still fun. then we drove to hell house, parked under the bridge and waited. we chilled under the bridge blasting OAR and the Offspring and just hanging out for about an hour waiting for everyone to get there. it was fun, haha. under the bridge party, oww oww! definetly not as awkward as my previous hanging out with miluska and her bf experiences. then at like 10 adam, bank, maylin, rachel and serena met up with us. we were just about to go up the steps to hell house when this cop shows up. wtf??!?! we had been there for like an hour, with no cops, but as soon as we're ready to go, there are cops. he was all "are you kids headed up to the college" and we were all "noooo..." so then he goes "you kids have no reason to be there, get in your cars and go home". we got in our cars, but obviously we didnt go home. we stopped at highs so i could get into adam's pimp minivan cuz miluska and dj were gonna hang out, so i switch cars and we go into highs. we scared the guy working there, i think he thought we were wierd, haha, w/e. everyone was really amused by some condoms, so we were in highs for awhile. then we tried to brainstorm places to go. we decided on getting a movie, then going back to someone's (probably mine) house to watch it. so we go to the long gate shopping center to get a movie/go on the play place in mcdonalds. so mcdonalds is closed so we go to barnes and noble instead. adam, bank, serena, and rachel decide to read romance novels out loud, haha, awkwarddd....so me and maylin go to the bathroom and come back to find them reading some random books, and not 2minutes later serena goes to look over a shelf on the other side, and precede's to knock an entire shelf over. it was like 50 books. we all looked at eachother, then got out of there as fast as we possibly could without looking too suspicious. especially cuz this laptop lady was gaping at us. haha, it was sooo funny. so some of us run, me not included, over to blockbuster, haha. we wander around blockbuster for a good 20 minutes looking for a movie and avoiding the random asian gang. there were asians everywhere that night, haha. on the way out of blockbuster we took like 20 free AOL cd's so we could play frisbee in the parking lot. c'mon, not like they wouldve gone to better use if we'd left them there. it was like 11 so the parking lot was totally empty, so we played AOL frisbee for awhile, then "OMG Shopping Carts!". so there was some shopping cart racing/jousting/bumper cars. then we decide to go through the mcdonalds drive through in shopping carts cuz the random dead lookign guys inside wouldnt let us in, who even knows how they got it, it was effing closed. so we get food, then get back in adam's van, and get lost in long gate shopping center. yup, we couldnt get out of the shopping center. then maylin's mom calls her and we ask for directions and finally get out of the shopping center. so we drop maylin at home, then decide to go climb the owen brown tennis bubble (oh rachel snell, you and you're ideas, haha). so we unnecissarily jump a fence onto the tot lot, cuz being the smart kids that we are, we didnt see the open gate 2 feet away. then adam climbs things and we swing and play on the playground for awhile, and adam and andrew ninjafied themselves. so then we jump the fence to the tennis bubble, which was actually necessary, it was kinda scary, but i made it, haha. so everyone kinda unsuccessfully starts running into the tennis bubble and bouncing off. not much actual climbing, but it was fun. then adam and serena go around the corner to try and climb it over there, and me rachel and bank gave up. we got out of the bubble and wandered around the playground and that little wooden deck thing for awhile. then this sketchy guy on a bike with a bandana over his face rides through and kinda sketchily turns around and stares at us after he rides past. we were scared. he was incredibly sketchy if you didnt already get that impression. plus it was at least midnight, it was dark, and no one was around. so we go and find adam and serena star gazing on top of the bubble and tell them about the guy, and they were like "oh...really" haha. they didnt hafta care, they were safe. so as we're telling them we see him like 50 feet away watching us. so we start to walk away, and he follows us. so we walk faster. he follows us some more, so we run. we were scared as crap. so we get around the corner we stop running and we're like, ok, he's gone, we can walk again. nope, there he is still on his bike creepily coming towards us. so we run again and go and hide in the old folks home in the lobby for awhile till we think he's gone. then we go looking for adam and serena again, cuz by this point we think its prolly a good idea to go somewhere else. we finally find them, so adam and bank were both like "you have the keys, right?" nope, niether of them have the keys. oh crap. we figured out that we probably dropped them at some point running from the guy. then we start retracing our steps a couple times, and the guy comes back. he starts whistling and making loud noises and overall being sketchy like whoa. at this point we think he probably has the keys or something. and the guys were all like "what an ass, he's just trying to scare us, as long as he doesnt have a knife we can take him". then he flashes a knife. so now we're all really scared, so we start looking for people. i seriously thought we were gonna die. then i was like "omg, sonoma's is open!" so walk as fast as we can to, like, the only bar in columbia, where apparently there's some kind of halloween party going on. we were greeted by a big muscular guy in a mini dress. i was like, omg im in the twilight zone. so we talk to "white guy smoking" number one and tell him our story, and he's all "yeah, a guy with a knife, we've been having some problems with that lately, you should call the cops". not an options, unless we want adam to lose his liscence, so adam and bank go looking for possible weapons. my dad has been calling me this whole time btw. they're doing construction on sonoma's, so the boys find some 2x4's with nails in them. then me and serena go and try to talk to the bouncer, who was dressed as the devil and try to convince him to escort us to look for the keys. first he was all "sorry i cant leave my post" then he pretty much laughed at us. i think maybe he thought we invented some elaborate story just to get in, haha. so we head back holding hands and all, armed with 2x4's. thankfully the guy doesnt show up again. we retraced our steps like a billion times when we decided that plan A was a failure. we were just about to call miluska and get her to take us to adam's to get spare keys, when serena puts her glasses on and finds the keys. so we all jump and scream. at this point its 2 AM, and we figure, its already 2, why not stay out later. we decide to go for food and drive to bob evans-closed. then we go to random smoking guy two outside fridays and ask him where we can get food at 2 AM and tell him our whole story. he suggests franks diner in laurel. we were like, why not? so we go to laurel, eat, play with food, color kids menus, talk, meet pirates, you know, the usual. we get lost on the way home and i get home at like 3:15 AM. i wasnt totally not in trouble, but i was pretty ok. for some reason i woke up at 9AM and couldnt go back to sleep. i was the closest ive even been to grounded on sunday, but i survived, and i ended up going to see elizabthetown with lindz anyways. good stuff. yeah, so that was my saturday night. there's other stuff im prolly not writing, if you wanna know ask me. and yes....i know this is long

bethanyy

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