HELLOX_DEAR

yeahthat'sright:
newjjanger, fools.

                                           iloveeggs?

do what you want to me :)
                                          some.
do what you want to me :)
                                          men.
i'll darken my daytime. 
                                          like.
you'll torture the night.
                                             little.
you're in my head.
                                          girls.
i'm accidentaly in love?

i wrote a post.
but deleted it :)

   
                             A}

there's no use in keeping a secret.
                  everything i hide ends up in lyrics.
                  so read on, accuse me when you're done. 
                  if it sounds like i did you wrong.

i'm tired of writing.
i'm tired of not getting responces.
i'm tired of prettywords.
i'm tired of telling you how i fail.
i'm tired of being confused. and lost.
i'm tired of being so scared.
i'm tired of not understanding.
i'm tired of letting you know.
           that i'm letting you down.

i miss you like i'd miss oxygen.
and how i'd miss the sun.
but your silence is my rope.
it wraps so tight around my throat.
&allyouwanted. wastocatchmewhenifell.
      i'msorry.

                    I DESPISE YOU.
                               that's right. you.
you and your arrogence.
i despise your stupidity.
your need to make everyone think like you.
you seem to think you've got the whole world all figured out.
me included.

but you don't.
you're so far off.
not even close.
and you have no idea.
what you're getting yourself into.

if you know who i'm talking to, that is. j

and at the same time i figure.
i should send another warning.
a nicer one.
and one that applies to more people.
just. don't expect anything from me?

don't think that i will change.
becuase, yes. i'll change.
but the i'll change right back.
i never stay the same way for too long.
i'm so unstable.
i'm like a horrible rollarcoaster.
and it never stops.
and every emotion.
is so extreme that i act on it.
without thinking.

i want to hear the sirens.
i want to hear
"she isn't going to make it."


  N

thatnight - i  d i e d  i n  y o u .

nevermind;forgetit.
it's all just memories on a page.
you can say i changed.
but i can say fuckyou.you never knew me to begin with.

i'm sorry for this.
just had nothing else to say.

     " (k somemenlikelittlegirls.)