| School's been really good, and I might get promoted to manager at work...hopefully. Money is really tight. But I love Jesus, and I love my boyfriend. And...I love my family too, and my boyfriends family. I can't wait to go camping next summer. The weather has been incredible lately. Tonight I just went for a long walk and I came to this little grove of trees and the sun was setting, it was so beautiful. I just prayed and sang songs, and for the first time in a really long time, felt like God was listening. I'm so happy where I'm at right now, but everything goes back to God. |
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| My hair is light brown, I'm tanner, I've lost a little weight. I wear less makeup. I never want to judge anyone, no matter what bad things they do. I went to the emergency room today. I'm mad at my parent, internally, eternally. I'm mad at them for everytime they ever got mad at me for such a tiny little innocent thing that to them was unacceptable. And why did they have to go and shut me out of their life? And why the heck do I have to suffer because of their mistakes? I'm not the only one, but I've gained the ability to get angry at people who do bad things. Especially Christians who do bad things. |
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| I am getting straight AAAAA's this semester. I was going to try out for the Kishwaukee Kougarette dance team but I start working next week and I don't want to slack off on school, so we'll see. I can't wait til I get my bachelor's in a few more years. Meanwhile, life is sweet. We still go to the Nazarene church in Sterling. The new pastor is wonderful to hear preach. Last Sunday I went to lunch with my mom and Evan. We've been going tanning at the best tanning place in the world. Seriously! And yesterday I got my hair cut at Studio 404, which is the nicest salon I've ever been to. And the lady was so nice. She did a really good job. I'm going back next week to get a perm/dye job. I miss living in the country, and the beautiful sunsets and sunshine on the grass and the meadows and trees and wind. Someday, James and I will move to the country. P.S. I love that man. |
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| Today...and all the previous days of the last four weeks have been so good. We started school, and inspired by my hopes and dreams and encouraged by my boyfriend, I decided to actually participate fully in my classes, listen to my professors, stop skipping class, do all my work, and read all the assignments. It's amazing how easy it is to learn when you have a more childlike mentality, an openness; instead of that haughty "I'm too smart, I don't need this, and I'm bored" attitude I had slowly adopted through highschool and college. We moved a week and a half ago. It's a cute little house in Rochelle. We have been fixing it up really nice. Last night I put together a cabinet while James was at lab. He got me the nicest card and put it on my pillow, but I didn't see it, so he ended up throwing it in the bathroom when I went to pee. It was the sweetest, nicest, dearest card I've ever gotten. I love that man. Well, gotta go! Been thinking about joining the Kougarettes Dance Team. Just a thought. |
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| I know I've been saying this for like...five years now, but, if I don't get accepted into NIU by July 2nd, I'm definitely moving to Omaha.
Dang, it feels good to be a lonely bachelorette again. |
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