| So far; or by far; it's been, how do I say this?? "Shitty". I know I could explain or describe in a more thourough way but that's the first word that comes to mind. It's really hard to keep a relationship you want to keep secluded, perfect and untouched. Really, it's as hard as it'll ever sound. But if you tend to bear with it like jmike & I do it's better than how it'll ever become worse. The words to describe this situation are probably: envy, humor, misery, deep, & fucked up. Those are just the ones that come to mind first. Keeping that in mind; I'd like to say this much: How is it that you can say or trust a person whe sometimes you doubt yourself?? just tell me that much please. Sometimes you're friends aren't really you're friends because they look for the foreshadow in you, they look for your faults that they believe they can alter you by, as you come and as you go they only compliment you because they feel its the assurance of a friendship they use you for, not only physically as well as in the mental case.
I've come to the conclusion that the people that "talk shit" are really people who have no lives, and live the life they feel they have in other peoples lives, its their outlet; they're source of entertainment; they're humor & laughter it's really what they feel they should live for and go by everyday. What I really dislike about it, it's really just knowing that the "bull" that they tell me it's unbelievable enough to believe that's how bad it is, it's gets in you're head after so long, after a while you really can't avoid it because you start to doubt when you're vulnerable and you can't really do anything about it because it's in your damn face. All I know is that I love you.& you love me. it's all that matters. really. ahaha... I don't even know why I even bother with this xangurr...
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What more can I ask for? The things we do, were inseperable, thickest and thinnest, it doesn't matter what they say, what they do, what they feed me, what they give me, what the rumor is, what happened yesterday, today and what will happen tomorrow, I will always love you.
What more can I ask for? Noone can phase us! were better than what they had, and whatever it is they will all ever have, this relationship is based on trust and true entire love more than the four letter word could ever mean to another soul on this planet called earth. I know I will always love you.
What more can I ask for? When we spend time together to me, baby it's what makes me smile & gives me laughter, memories & more than I could ever ask for, you take my breath away from all the deception the sadness I undergo & you take me to a place where you and I stand & shine bright so we can control what we have, I run to you for my worse & I run back to you for my best, your what I have & you will always have me, because I will always love you.
What more can I ask for? Every temporary moment with you, its the best memories I will ever have, good bad or even ugly, it'll end up always being beautiful because what we have is amazing, its what they want and will never ever have it's what we have & will always have, like I know I'll always love you.
What more can I ask for? Sure, we aren't perfect, we fight because we love & we love because we kiss, make-up & make love, it's what we do, it's natural were unconditional, were great, were better than silver gold and bronze combined our category is what we call limitless and full extended you & I , we know we love eachother, and well I know I'll always love you.
You're exactly what I wanted, and what I know I'll always want. There's nothing that can stand between me & you except for the love I have for you John Edward Mikell, call me sprung, call me obsessed, call me crazy, but these words can't phase a person fallin' oh so damn deeply. I don't care if they say your a bum, your a cheater, your a loser, your a punk, your not good enough, If they say you'll never love me again as much as I love you, These words & the people that put it together ain't got nothin' on US. The things that happened and will happen between me & you, it'll be for me and you only and exclusively...So here it is, I know you've waited and so have I, I know you've always known and I know I'll always know that I will always love you.
<3 Miss K-de |
