hey everybody.  even tho i kno nobody ever reads this im still gonna up date.  im doin good in school im a lil behind but i can catch up.  i have a lot of friends this year so im happy about that.  im in oklahoma rite now.  i kinda like it down here. i dont kno y. 

most ppl kno that mikayela is my best friend. but i have grown so much of an appriciation 4 her lately.  i guess god has shown me how wonderful of a friend she is and how much she has been there 4 me.  i dont kno where i would be w/o her.  we have been through everything together.  she is probably the one person that knos everything about me.  and i think i kno everything bout mikayela.  but i kno i love her so much.  and i have really been realizing that i have been kinda jelous cuz she likes this guy but i think i mite have to give ppl more chances instead of makin my mind up so quick.  im not sayin everything is fine but i might reconsider.  but she still has to be carefull and i will keep and eye out for her.  and if she ever needed to she knos i am the best person for a full blown booger cry.  i love u mikayela and i am so happy we r best friends.

love always and 4 eva tiffany

hey everybody.  im doin good.  im in kc rite now and im really missin my adopted grandma. (she just died)  it still doesnt seem real .  it seems like she should walk in the door and give me the biggest hug ever.  but rite now i kinda have a peace about it and i dont want to morn her death but celibrate her life that she had.  i feel kinda weird all around her family.  i feel like i dont belong but everybody i kind and thanx me for my help.  i guess its just me.  im kinda happy im gettin to spend time w/ my bestest friend in the whole wide world.  i was missin her a lot lately.  but in my last post a lot of wut i said still stands.  well im not gonna make this long. i gotta go.

love always and for ever

tiffany

hey everybody, im good.  im kinda depresed rite now and i dont even kno y.  im leavin karens tomarrow, im not to excited to go home.  but school is gonna soon i feel like i just got out of school tho.  well i kinda met somebody that i like but i dont wanna like him.  he likes me back but im kinda scared cuz i think its movin to fast. and i just really cofused.  there is so much in  my life that i wish i could understand but i just cant.  i have really been missin my best friend mikayela alot lately.  sometimes i wish she could just put her arms around me and tell me everything is gonna be ok.  when i was stayin there i always had someone to hold me and tell them when something was wrong.  now i am cravin it soo much.  and where i am i dont have n e body like that. and i need it.  it seems like everything in my life is a blure and i cant see n e thing untill i run into it.  and its just a bunch of emotions all mixed together.  i wish that God was clear in my life. if i could just see one thing i would wanna see the plan that god has for me.  and im not sure even if i trustin Him.  i kno i fall short everyday but im suspose to pick myself back up and i cant i fall more and more.  y cant it be easy to live for Him.  im just tryin to believe that God wont put me through n e thing that i cant handle.  if only my flesh would die and i could give my whole heart to Him.  but its sooo hard and it seems imposible.  i need just someone to help me walk and i feel like i dont have n e body. and kno that i have been so blessed to even have known a real friend.  but sometimes i think i put my friends b4 God and i kno i cant do that.  how do i learn better?

PLZ HELP

love always and 4eva

tiffany

hey erybody.  i am doin soo good rite now.  i am staying in oklahoma for 2 weeks  w/ karen.  she is the best person to talk to when u just need someone to listen.  and shes fun to cuddle w/.  i have missed her so much.  i kinda like here and i love her house it is huge.  i feel so much better being around someone who just listens and doest judge.  and her kids are sweet.  but they kinda fight alot but other than that they r sweet.  i love to just cuddle w/ baba, and talk she is soooo smart for a 5 year old.  and lil sweet boy.  is so cute he has grown up so much and is so fun to wressle and cuddle w/.  now buck just wants to play cowboy and tell on the rest of the kids but he makes me laugh.  its good for me to be here.  and i am lovin being single.  i mean yea i still want a boy to just hold me. but its better when there r options.  i fell free.  comin here feels like there is a huge weight lifted off my shoulders.  oh and when i go home i am gettin a job at golden corral.  so im excited.  well i guess thats all.  i love erybody in my life and if yall ever need somebody to talk to yall know im here.

love always and 4 eva

tiffany