Afraid of your dark?

 I shall sleep until morning

In my nice warm place

Where nightmares are barred;

Their monsters are banned.

They snap, snarl, and bark

Slink, slither and bay

Night after night I am their prey.

Tonight?  I am safe in my secret cave.

Its steady soft beat lulls me to sleep:

My grip becomes a nestle

My tears a salty stain;

No need to wrestle

No need to fight pain

For Daddy heard my cry tonight

                               ...and came.

Darkness is as light to our Heavenly Father.   Psalm 139:13

Earlier this week I lost my focus.  Proverbs 16:33 says :

"The lot falls into the lap, but the decision is the LORD's."

It's hard this week to wait on YAHWEH instead of the transplant especially since as of Tuesday we are now the only residents in transplant housing waiting.  My demanding spirit screamed, "Not fair!!  We've been here the longest.  We've been trustful - waiting patiently!!"  How quickly the focus changes.  Yet once again He has fed me.  Once again, he turns my face to look into His.  It is FULL of grace and mercy. 

I can't remember which day - maybe Thursday (Proverbs 9 ?)  a most wonderful morsel was set before me:

Wisdom says:

"I rejoice in His Presence; I rejoice in all of His world; I delight in mankind...

I stand at the doorposts; I wait at the door ..."

I am grateful waiting on God is not contingent on anyone or anything.  I am reminded of the verse in Ecclesiastes 3 which says God has set eternity in the hearts of men, yet only God knows the beginning and the end.  I must say this waiting for transplant erodes what I know and enlarges the space that only God Himself can fill - like eroded limestone that enlarges space for water to cascade from the aquifer.